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There is a proverb in the Soviet Union: The grace of parents, water cannot drown, fire can not be extinguished.
There is one kind of world where giving and giving is the most asymmetrical, and that is between parents and children.
The love of parents is like a silkworm spitting silk, a burning wax torch, and it does not die endlessly.
And what about the return of the children? The mother in the text said her helplessness, all parents learned lessons, and those who are children reflect deeply:
Narrator: Li Yunping 58 years old
01
Five years ago, my wife died of illness, before he died, he took my hand and instructed me: When I can walk and move, try to live by myself, don't lean on my son and daughter-in-law, the few money in my hand is tight, don't throw it out, there is a disease and a disaster can respond to emergencies, and our small two-bedroom apartment in the county is my foothold and cannot be sold.
I understand my wife's good intentions, I am an honest person, he is afraid that I have been wronged and can't say it, I am sick in my heart, and no one gives me advice and supports me.
Sending away my wife who has been foaming for more than thirty years, crying my liver and intestines are broken, the main heart bone is gone, my world has collapsed, like a frosted eggplant, I can't lift my spirits for a long time.
Every day, I sit in the sun for most of the day, without saying a word, as if I don't bask in the sun anymore, I will be wet and moldy.
Two years later, my daughter-in-law gave birth to a grandchild and asked me to take the child, and I ended my solitary life, left the county seat, and moved to my son's house in the city.
I am a reticent, diligent old lady, but also know that our generation and children from the thinking, concept and all aspects of life are different, so, I am not used to seeing, should not say what I should not say, can do more to do more, they sometimes think of it to give me some money to buy vegetables, can not think of it will not give, I do not say, pay for their own pockets. Try to be an old man who is not annoying, and his son and daughter-in-law are also at peace.
02
When the grandson was more than one year old, the son wanted to buy a car, saying that he would take his grandson to the hospital to see a doctor, get a vaccination, and go to the playground to play with a car.
My son told me that he wanted me to borrow 150,000 yuan from him, and his money could not be withdrawn temporarily in the investment, and he would return it to me after withdrawing.
My wife spent a lot of money to see a doctor before he died, there are not many left, it is more than one hundred thousand, I came to my son here for more than a year, I spent more than ten thousand, I have no job, there is no pension, the savings are when my wife was alive, do some small business to accumulate, now the light can not go in, sitting on the mountain and the sky.
I remembered my wife's words, money can not be spilled out, but, watching my son frown, daughter-in-law every time she goes out nagging about the inconvenience of not having a car, I have always been a mother.
After a conflict between the two because of the difficulty of taking a taxi, through the ideological struggle, in the end, I still decided to help my son, anyway, he said that when the investment was withdrawn, he would pay me back.
When the car was bought back, my hand was empty, and I said to my son and daughter-in-law, "Mom has no money, if you don't buy me money for vegetables, it will be difficult for a woman to cook without rice." ”
At this time, my son only gave me two thousand yuan for living expenses at the beginning of each month, and I had to spend it carefully every day.
The money to buy a car, the son and daughter-in-law do not mention it, do not read it, as if this thing has never happened, it is really difficult to spend a cent of the day, maybe the son and daughter-in-law do not believe that I bought a car for them, I have already done everything.
Two years later, my son and daughter-in-law suddenly discussed with me that they wanted me to sell my old house, and then pay a down payment in the city to buy a school district house, and in a few years my grandson would face going to school, which was the only way to enter a good school.
I was stunned, for a while I did not know how to reply to them well, my wife told me to hold the money tightly, I did not do it, resulting in my own overstretched, the house was sold again, I had no way to retreat, my heart was empty.
However, what the son and daughter-in-law said is not unreasonable, this is related to the grand master's life, and then again, these external things, they are not brought with them in their own life, they do not bring them when they die, sooner or later are left to them, early to late, it is better to give when they need it, but also to help solve the problem, not to make the son and daughter-in-law embarrassed, they will not be dissatisfied with me.
But, on the other hand, I think what my wife said is also right, at least I didn't grasp the money tightly, I tasted the pain, I didn't spend money casually, and there were people in my hometown who had to give my son a courtesy exchange, which made me really uncomfortable.
My son's daughter-in-law seemed to see my concern, and my daughter-in-law said to me: "Mom, you can rest assured, buy a school district house to write your name, count yours, and pay us a month, and then you and your grandson will live in it together." ”
The words of my daughter-in-law gave me a reassuring pill, and also made me a lot more down-to-earth, since I said this, there is no worries.
The house in the county town sold very smoothly, and the right house was found here, and the other side also did the liso.
However, after a few months, there was no movement on the side of the school district. I asked them, is the house still not optimistic? The daughter-in-law said that the house had been completed for a month. Next month, we will start paying off the monthly payment, and we will have to tighten the belt of my pants to get by.
I finally understood that when I said that this house was bought in my name, it was just fooling me.
Looking at me, my daughter-in-law said: "Mom, you think, written in your name, in the future you will have to transfer to us, and spend a lot of money, superfluous, too uneconomical, it is better to step in place, we are a family, written in whose name is not the same." ”
03
Even with my wife's instructions, I still lost my own hole card step by step in the calculation of my son and daughter-in-law.
After my grandson went to elementary school, we moved into the school district house, the house where we lived before, the daughter-in-law rented it out, and there was more than two thousand incomes every month, which could alleviate the pressure of repayment.
The school district room is a small two-room room, a son and daughter-in-law, and a grandson and I, and it is very tense to live.
I was afraid of disturbing my children's study and rest, so I propped up a box-spring bed in the corner of the living room and put it away during the day.
One day, my son and daughter-in-law said to me, see I live in the living room, they can't bear it, or I still move back to my hometown rural old house to live, the hometown air is good, negative oxygen ions are high, suitable for the elderly to live, and raise some chickens and ducks, plant some green vegetables, my grandson can also eat green food.
Listening to their words, my heart was cold, tears swirled in the circles of my eyes, how many years have not lived in my hometown, it has fallen into disrepair, the house is full of dust, spider webs, can I still live? When I was old and frail and had nothing, they sent me back to my hometown and wanted me to plant a vegetable garden for them, and this was my end.
I did not go back to the old house in the countryside, but went back to the county town, temporarily lived in an old sister's home, through the introduction of the old neighbors, I went to a young man's home to see the children, manage to eat and live, the money earned can be saved, in the future in case of emergency, there is a foothold.
In this way, I was at my son's house, saw my grandson going to elementary school, and the house and savings were calculated step by step by my son and daughter-in-law, and then sent back.
Holding the portrait of my wife, I was in tears and regretted it.
I said to my wife: You are gone, leaving me alone to live and suffer, it's okay, I can still make money to take care of myself, and when I can't move, I will go to you...
epilogue
The love of parents for their children is eager to turn into stones and pave the way for them, as far as they can pave, and the children, with peace of mind, step on their parents, ignore their pain and efforts, run to their own future, and rush their own way. Thinking of your parents, looking back at you, I can't remember, just leave you with a fading back.