The Republic of China, a period of alternation between old and new ideas, under the collision of this fierce idea, was born countless people with lofty ideals, they shouted "freedom", embarked on a new journey, the protagonist of today's story, is a woman who was forced to wrap her small feet by her grandmother when she was 4 years old, and when she grew up to receive a new education, she regarded her small feet as a shame for life, so that she could not look up and be a person.
When she was 16 years old, she was engaged to him, who ever thought that they had been engaged for 13 years without a mask, even if they met and got married later, they lived a sweet new marriage period, but they still did not sleep with their husbands, but after her husband's death, she resolutely did not remarry and kept the secret until before her death.
Su Xuelin, born in 1897, formerly known as Su Xiaomei, the era of her birth, people are still in a very conservative and feudal period, especially Su Xuelin's grandmother, she has been "a woman without talent is morality" to restrain the girls in the family all her life, and even when Su Xuelin was 4 years old, she forcibly wrapped her feet!
In this kind of family, Su Xuelin wanted to read again, and then wanted to learn knowledge, it was impossible, at the age of 7, she finally had the opportunity to read with her brothers in the private school set up by her grandfather's office, but no one taught her, Su Xuelin herself recited the "Three Character Classic", "Four Books for Women" and so on, and then the boys went to school to study, she dropped out of school.
Grandmother began to suppress her with "a woman's talentlessness is morality", but we all know that the more oppression, the more she wants to resist, Su Xuelin should be talented! Later, she often stole books from her uncles and brothers, got what she read, and even learned a lot of knowledge, the four famous works, the Book of History of Han, tang poems and Song Ci, she read them all over again, laying a solid foundation for her future creative career.
At the age of 15, Su Xuelin entered a period of rebellion, she picked up the scissors at home, compared to her neck, and yelled at her grandmother: "Let me go to school!" "My grandmother quickly sent her to the local new-style girls' school until she was 21 years old, su Xuelin's grades were very good, so the school invited her to stay in the school to teach, and she happily agreed."
During this period, the family arranged an arranged marriage for her, that is, to get engaged to Zhang Baoling of the big businessman's family, and when she arrived at an age, Su Xuelin was very angry when she heard the news, saying that she was going to hide abroad and not come back for a lifetime, and her mother persuaded her to calm down, but they all knew Su Xuelin's temper, so this matter was never mentioned again, but the marriage contract was not canceled, it was temporarily shelved.
However, in 1921, Su Xuelin still went to France to study, she wanted to learn more advanced knowledge, but during this period, her father died of illness, her mother was seriously ill, the Zhang family began to urge marriage, all the troubles came to mind, Su Xuelin could only return to China in advance.
At this time, Su Xuelin was 29 years old, this was the first time she saw her fiancé Zhang Baoling, because her mother was critically ill, Su Xuelin no longer wanted to hurt her heart, and soon after the two were married, and a few months later, her mother died.
In fact, Zhang Baoling is also a very good person, he graduated from St. John's University in Shanghai, and then went to the United States to study, studied science and engineering courses at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology, his thinking is also very advanced, his vision is very broad, but he has a "big problem", that is, the incomprehensible style of the polytechnic man.
For example, after marriage, Su Xuelin tried to develop feelings with him, one night, the two people went out to admire the moon together, Su Xuelin said softly: "The moon in the sky is so round." Then Zhang Baoling replied: "I still don't see the circle I drew with a compass." At once, Su Xuelin, a young woman in literature and art, choked up and felt that she could not live with him at all.
Because the two people are almost 30, each has its own career and circle, after marriage is also living separately, rarely meet, even if it is not easy to meet, have a meal together, and then everywhere in the same room, never sleep, friends are very surprised, but the two people also never mention the reason.
In 1961, Zhang Baoling died, and Su Xuelin returned to singlehood, but she never remarried anyone. It wasn't until he was about to die that Su Xuelin told his old friend the mystery. It turned out that Zhang Baoling not only did not understand the style, but also a person with a very heavy feudal ideology in his bones, he hoped that after marriage, he could teach his husband and children at home, work hard and complain, so can Su Xuelin accept it?
Su Xuelin said: "If it were not for the old marriage that bound me, a person like me who was enthusiastic and unrestrained would not have known which light child had been fooled, and when he thought of that confusion, he still felt cold to this day." It can be seen that this marriage without feelings has become a regret for her life, but both of them have never mentioned "divorce" from beginning to end, let alone cheated, which is really surprising.