A small thing that has made the sheep happy recently: 46-year-old Yu Xiuhua is in love.
Yang Yongce is a post-90s, in the winter of 2021 and Yu Xiuhua met and fell in love with the Internet official announcement, soon, his family knows, colleagues know, daughter also knows, and Yu Xiuhua's life of drinking, reading, writing poetry, suddenly there is one more Yang Quece.
She said Yang Wasque was an accident in her life.
But, people living to 46, what accidents are unacceptable?
She sent out a photo of herself and her boyfriend, they sat quietly in the field, Yu Xiuhua looked at the field, Yang Yuce looked at her, this most ordinary love scene, someone blessed, someone commented on "famous aunt and fresh meat" with bad intentions.
Yu Xiuhua was not surprised that these vicious and vulgar detoxifications would appear, and she even provided a headline for the self-media on the public account: I am in love with Yang Yongce, and he feels that he has been piao.
The description is bold, but the sheep is deeply moved by this courage, and her poetic view of love is so strong that it is insulted and debauched, but it is also romantic to the point of spring blossoms. If you really want to use "prostitute" to describe such a sister-brother love, then the prostitute that the sheep can think of is the flowers that spread out in front of them.
Divorce was the first poem she gave herself.
On her birthday, Yu Xiuhua once said of herself: a nine-stream poet, a super female rogue, a renegade, a person who has to swim to the Yellow River, and the best mistress in the world.
People who don't like her can't get used to her posture, saying that she is a rural woman, cerebral palsy, ugly-looking vulgar peasant woman.
But Yu Xiuhua does have the warm and deviant posture of the Aries woman, whether it is praise or denigration, it is just a breeze for her, even if you point at her nose to insult her way of speaking, she is still straightforward and bold.
Bold women can always attract sheep, and Yu Xiuhua just plays these two words to the extreme.
The story of Yu Xiuhua in the first half of her life is the rebellion of a rural woman, and it does not matter how others evaluate her, because she has already sublimated her suffering in marriage.
Yu Xiuhua is cerebral palsy, short in stature, slurred speech, limited mobility, and no longer studies after graduating from high school. And such a person and woman born in the countryside will basically have a similar path: marry and have children with a person who does not love much, and work hard for a lifetime.
Before marrying her ex-husband, Yu Xiuhua had never been in love, and in the most beautiful girlhood, she was hurriedly dragged into the marriage by a man who was 12 years older than her, completely shattering her previous beautiful fantasies about love.
If I send you a book, I won't send you poetry
I'm going to give you a book about plants, about crops
Tell you the difference between rice and weeds
Tell you a weedy, fearful spring
Yu Xiuhua's thoughts about love, like this poem she wrote, she hopes to share her life with someone, to share her bold and panicked emotions, but her parents gave her Yin Shiping.
The year she married Yin Shiping, Yu Xiuhua was 19 years old and Yin Shiping was 31.
In the eyes of parents, what choice does a person like Yu Xiuhua have? Not in good health, can not go out to make money, just someone to talk about marriage, marry it.
Yu Xiuhua hated the marriage.
Her husband works in Beijing for many years, only returns home once a year, home is just a refuge for him, Yu Xiuhua for him is to give birth and reproduction, and to give him some of the dignity and dignity of men.
Almost every year, Yu Xiuhua will mention divorce, even if she knows that she will not succeed, she still has to say that this is her own resistance.
In a marriage without love, it seems that even triviality is a luxury.
These two people will not say a few words all year round, every time Yin Shiping takes the initiative to call her, ask the elderly and children, and it seems that the combination with her is only to complete the mission of "starting a family", it is rare to be at home, when it rains, he will not take Yu Xiuhua home in the field, but when he sees Yu Xiuhua wrestling, he will laugh instead.
The love and tenderness between husband and wife have nothing to do with her, and the soul hug she cares more about is even more ridiculous.
Before becoming famous, Yu Xiuhua wrote thousands of poems, the cooking smoke of the villagers, the fragrance of the rice in the field, the geese flying in the sky and the dusk that no one cared about were her materials, and she fused these images into her pen, using words to tell unspeakable joy and pain.
To have a dusk, full of wind, and a setting sun that is falling
If the wheat is just ripe, the cooking smoke rises
The white pigeon flew past the surface of the water, perched on a reed
And Reed just happened to prepare a tune
In this way, it is enough for me to love this broken and muddy world
Poetry is a window for Yu Xiuhua's catharsis, and if the body cannot escape, then let the soul drift away.
Yin Shiping hated her writing poetry, just as she was not used to Yin Shiping.
She is like an island in the village, she looks at the flowers, she looks at the butterflies, she looks at the mountains, she sees everything that the people in the village can't understand, she is a wasteland that is not understood, and she has to sprinkle the bottom line and respect on the most intimate marriage.
Yin Shiping returned from work, Yu Xiuhua shook her head slightly: one time in the same room, 500 yuan.
She measures marriage in terms of money because she knows it's not love.
After becoming famous, Yu Xiuhua went to participate in one activity after another in the bustling city, many people came to see her and asked her all kinds of questions, even if this carnival was born of capital, but it really made her feel that life seemed to have a little value.
Yu Xiuhua once again proposed divorce, Yin Shiping did not agree, Yu Xiuhua's mother even used her own body as a threat, but in the end, it was Yu Xiuhua who gave him more than 100,000 yuan.
On the day of the divorce, the man who had previously said that he would never divorce him smiled happier than ever, he left with two suitcases, more than 100,000 yuan, and Yu Xiuhua's endless tolerance and boredom for 20 years.
Those so-called reasonable guests who said that she abandoned her family after she became famous did not know that divorce was Yu Xiuhua's struggle, and she turned these struggles into thousands of poems, condensed in a divorce certificate.
She used hundreds of thousands of dollars to send herself a divorce agreement, and finally fulfilled the words she had fantasized about writing on the epitaph: Let me leave, give me freedom.
You can love with all your might, but you can also pull out.
It is hard to imagine that the rustic land of the countryside will give birth to such an avant-garde soul, growing like a weed, tenacious and unyielding.
Yang always felt that Yu Xiuhua's life was like an absurd comedy, everything she did was inconsistent with the conditions and environment in which she was located, and the world said that such a woman should love the mountain, but she had to dye the bare mountain.
Marriage did not make her despair of love, but made her more brave to face love and desire, on the day of her son's 25th birthday, she said: I wish my son a happy birthday and an early break.
Yu Xiuhua has always been a very bold person, who refuses if he doesn't like it, and whoever likes it must say it.
Her love is very straightforward, so blunt that people feel that she is not self-sufficient, she likes Li Jian, so she wrote many poems for him, which is the highest expression of her love for a person.
They said, you're going to have a concert
Forgive me for not having the urge to look
If you are an expeditionary ship, I am only a inlet of water through which you set out
I was walking in the dusk, and the magnolia trees on the side of the road were full of wine glasses
As a result, without thinking too much, she was scolded, "old and ugly disabled peasant woman delusional musical talent"? What exciting news, what a rare courage.
Fortunately, Li Jian understood her and replied to her eight words: life in the mud, writing poetry in the clouds.
Yu Xiuhua said that men like to be pretty, but she is still willing to embrace love, and her feelings are always warm and sincere, she and Yang Yongce met during the live broadcast, and the two did not even have contact information at that time.
Women are easily moved by details, and Yu Xiuhua is no exception.
Hearing that her stomach hurt, Yang Yuce mailed honey to her; knowing that she was trapped by love, Yang Yuce walked for six hours to the mountain to make a wish: I hope Yu Xiuhua is happy; when we first met, Yang Yuce wore white gloves and sunglasses, and Yu Xiuhua said that he was wearing X, but he couldn't help but be shy.
When they arrived in Zhengzhou, they watched the theater together for three days.
"In those days, I drank every day and blew all the cattle on the earth into the sky, and Yang Yuce carried me back to the hotel again and again, washed me clean, washed my clothes, washed my shoes, and he did this carefully and intimately."
Yu Xiuhua will video with Yang Yuce's daughter, and her daughter calls her Big Niang.
"On March 8th, Yang Gave me a special Women's Day gift: chartered a helicopter to show me the peaks of Shennongjia and Dajiu Lake. Looking at the mountain from the sky, the feeling of life is really different: after people stand tall, they will not be bound by the ravines of life. This is really achieved with me load X take me fly ah! ”
These happiness were brought to her by Yang Yongce, and this strong feeling of being surrounded by love made her can't help but share this love and give spring to Yang Yongce.
Of course, there are more people who scold Yu Xiuhua, "big mother piao fresh meat" sounds more exciting than "falling in love with Li Jian", many people say that this is not love, but a profitable scene of the man.
But these rumors can't crush her, she loves strongly, but she is also sober to death, what is the essence of love?
The essence of any gender relationship is to have a plan, even if the young men and women who are in the right house also have a picture, a picture of youth, a picture of beauty, if you have nothing, there is nothing to let others worry about the attempt, then your life has no value and meaning.
If Yang Yuce really didn't want her to order something, then she might still be a little panicked.
To be in love is to be happy.
"I think the two of us are together at this stage, very happy and happy, which is a pleasant relationship for both of us, if one day he hates me and breaks up with me, I will also fulfill him, I also want him to have a more complete life." 」 Because the meaning of everyone's life is greater than the meaning of love, I want him to have a more complete life. ”
In the few days of watching dramas in Henan, the dramas in the magic city have memories of the past and fantasies about the future, and both thickness and lightness are included.
But Yu Xiuhua will not put hope for the future on yang Yongce's shoulders, and everyone's future can only be completed by themselves, including his own.
After escaping rural etiquette, Yu Xiuhua never set shackles for herself in love.
Many people on Douyin said that her love ruined their three views, and she responded angrily on Weibo: You are your good wife and mother, and I am my female hooligan.
Yu Xiuhua said that if she has a daughter, she would rather her daughter be a "female bandit" than stay at home, perhaps in her eyes, whether in love or marriage, girls must remain fierce, stubborn and tenacious, and dare to shout.
What's so bad about female hooligans? Love itself is intertwined with desire, and she used to be able to write "Across Most of China to Sleep with You", and now she can also bluntly "shout cheers when Yang Yuce loves me hard." ”
Physical contact, in a sense, is like the embrace of the soul, the unity of desire and spirit is a luxury in feelings, cherish the joy of the moment, is it wrong?
Yu Xiuhua's love is never a result, but a moment to light up each other.
Most things without purpose are beautiful things
Because it is pure, pure is the root of happiness.
Yang Yuce is different from Yin Shiping, Yin Shiping gave her results, but Yang Yuce can become the crop farmland in her poems, sunset and dusk, rainy nights and snowy days, lone birds and geese.
It's as if the scenery along the way is always more important than the destination, and being able to get happy and live a good life is the love that Yu Xiuhua wants.
Spring of 2022 Oh, please first dedicate it to Yang Quece
He kissed a woman
It is then dedicated to those who died and lived in the war
Dedicated to a crashing airplane
Dedicated to 132 flowers that wither in the spring
Dedicated to the cry of abrupt cessation
Finally to myself
Fall in love with someone in a time and space full of pain
So I was heavy and didn't dare to act rashly
It was as if one step closer
It will provoke a riot
Love is a luxury, but this transcendent romance, and vivid love, more or less brings a little freedom and poetry to this spring.
Thinking too much will be unhappy, in the words of Yu Xiuhua's comment area: pull him, cross the no-man's road, fall into the rape flower field, the sky is the ground for the bed, tearing a prostitute.
This is the spring that belongs to Yu Xiuhua.