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The wandering man returned from 16 years away from home and died of his father, who loved me the most

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Father's love is as selfless as mother's love, and he does not ask for anything in return; father's love is an obscure, invisible feeling that only those who have the heart can appreciate.

Yesterday I talked to my dad on the phone and said a lot.

Today, I suddenly heard bad news, my father fell down but never stood up again, and he died like that.

I was devastated...

"Qingqing, you have to take good care of yourself in the future, don't be really angry with that guy, get angry and hurt your body, it's not easy for your father to worry about you in this life, and you won't be blinded!" Yesterday, did Dad's words say goodbye to me?

The wandering man returned from 16 years away from home and died of his father, who loved me the most

Other fathers prefer sons to daughters, but my father values women over men, when I was a child, he supported me on his shoulders all day, and every time he set off, he brought me a lot of delicious food, and every time people did not arrive, the voice arrived: "Qingqing, you see your father brought you what you love to eat!" ”

Cooking is also, what I like to eat, he will buy what, and then let my mother make it for me!

But my father, who loved me the most, left his relatives and left this world.

After sending my father away, I was so uncomfortable that my body collapsed as if I had a serious illness.

But back at home, there was no trace of warmth, and her husband Yuan Hong only glanced at me from a distance, without a word...

My name is Yang Qingqing, and I have been married to my husband Yuan Hong for many years. We have a son and a daughter, both outside in college, the two of us at home, but rarely talk, everyone's home is full of laughter, but my home is cold all day, there is no temperature.

So many years is really not easy, a son and a daughter are almost all raised by themselves, the mother-in-law rarely shows me children, usually look at the twins of the old three families and two boys.

Yuan Hong and I were arranged marriages by our parents. I heard that he had a female classmate in that year, but his parents did not agree, and it happened that a friend of my father-in-law introduced me to him, so the fate of my parents and the words of the matchmaker made the marriage between the two of us. It was also the beginning of my lonely, toiling life...

After giving birth to two children, Yuan Hong ran away from home and had not seen a shadow for sixteen years, almost no news!

In the early days, some people said that he went to Tibet, some people said that he went to Hainan, and there was no telephone contact, and he did not write a letter to go home, so the in-laws wiped their tears as soon as the Spring Festival arrived, worried that their sons would go out and have three long and two short.

I was at home with my two children, and it was usually my father who helped me cook and pick up and drop off my children from school, rain or shine.

In order to survive, I have done a business selling tenderloin sandwich cakes, getting up early every day, getting up at three o'clock in the morning, preparing soy milk, eight treasure porridge and the like, and then bringing kelp, lettuce, sesame seeds and various ingredients, and then marinating the tenderloin meat throughout the day with ingredients to taste, and there are special people who deliver cakes. I've been doing this for more than a decade...

In order to survive, I held myself in that rented hut every day, never dressed myself well, and I didn't have time to manage a pair of children, so they were very obedient, I didn't have to worry about learning, and my grades were still good!

Usually, my father and mother take care of the children for me, eat, dress, pick up and drop off at school... Dad went in the wind and rain, picked up and dropped off my children for more than ten years, and my mother cooked at home, did laundry, and served their grandfathers meticulously.

The father-in-law occasionally buys suits or snacks for the two children.

I won't believe it to anyone: the man I married hasn't come home for more than ten years! There is no sense of responsibility! No pension, no regard for small, let alone me as an outsider.

Now that my son is older and more sensible, one day he actually said to me, "Mom, you divorce my father!" I don't object, and neither will my sister. ”

I smiled bitterly and said to my son, "This is mother's life!" Destined to be lonely for a lifetime, when you are old, you can hurt me! ”

The son nodded...

The daughter said: "People's fathers pick up their children every day to pick up their children to and from school, my brother and I are all grandfathers to pick up, when I am older, no one hurts, it hurts my grandfather!" ”

I said to my daughter, "It's okay if you don't hurt your mother, you must hurt your grandfather!" ”

But my dad didn't wait for the two children to repay him, but he left us like this! I can't stop the tears from falling...

I always thought that Yuan Hong had a family outside and forgot all about us in the family.

But the people who had been missing for more than ten years actually came back that day.

The wandering man returned from 16 years away from home and died of his father, who loved me the most

When he came back, he didn't know his own door, so he inquired from the east and the west, but he inquired about his parents' home, and his mother-in-law cried loudly when he saw him: "Son, where have you been all these years?" I worry about you every day!" ”

When the father-in-law saw him, he "snapped" and slapped him and scolded loudly: "Are you still a man in this life?" After walking away for so many years, no matter how old or young, Tao Tao's mother was widowed at home. ”

When my father-in-law brought him to me, my heart was not wavering, and he was also very quiet, only saying: "I'm sorry, I have suffered and tired you over the years, take care of the elderly for me, and raise the children to adulthood." ”

I listened to a slight smile: "When you left, you were still a bungalow, and now all of them are replaced by small high-rise buildings with dozens of floors, and when you enter your own home, you have to let others lead you to find your own door, and it is like staying in a hotel, which is really sad enough!" I dare say that the two children are standing in front of you now, and you will not even know your own children, and you are such a poor father! ”

Sarcastically teased by me, he lowered his head and didn't speak.

The day after I came back, he said to me, "I want to see my father-in-law and mother-in-law go, let's go together!" ”

He's got to have a cutscene when he comes back! So I nodded.

When the two of us stood in front of my parents, they were so surprised that they could not speak, but just pointed at Yuan Hong and said, "He? he? Where did he come from? ”

"Dad, Mom, I'm sorry, you've been bothered by all these years!" Usually take care of the two children so well, thank you two elderly people! "Say also a bow, this surface kung fu is very good!

But as soon as dad saw that his heart was already full of anger, he pointed at Yuan Hong with his trembling hands and said loudly, "I think you have died outside all these years!" Do you dare to come back at this time? I grew up without a finger, and the baby I held in the palm of my hand married you suffered for so many years! Why did you treat her like this? You don't care if you give birth to your parents, you don't care if you give birth to your children! What kind of man are you? ”

Saying that he was going to hit him when he picked up the mop next to him... I pulled it in!

"Dad, don't get angry, what if you get angry and break your body?" I choked up and said.

No matter how his father scolded, Yuan Hong did not say a word from the beginning to the end, stood there for half a day, and then turned and left.

But dad was so angry with him this time that he was really angry, and when he got up the next morning, he fell to the ground and never stood up again, so he left...

He gave me so much talk on the phone the night before, let me think open, let me not be angry, let us live a good life for our children, it turned out that this is all goodbye to me!

Dear Dad, I am lonely and lonely on the road of life, Dad, do you know? In my sad and lost days, without your understanding and love, how helpless I am!

Wind and moon night, a few traces of the past. Bear with me. This look back and be broken, forever separated. Xiang XianDao, back to the underworld, no news, from then on the yin and yang are separated, leaving me with tears full of thoughts...

That night I walked to Yuan Hong's house, looked at him with cold eyes and said, "My father has stimulated his heart to die because of your arrival, if you are a man, tell me why you left home in the first place?" What did I do wrong? ”

"You didn't do it wrong, it was me who was wrong, and I'm sorry for you for so many years!" The female classmate I liked at the beginning, one day she came to me and said to me, let's elope! As soon as my brain was hot, I left with her. I wanted to go as far as I could, not letting acquaintances see what we were doing together, so I went to Tibet.

But when we went out, we didn't bring much money, she was lazy and lazy, she didn't want to do anything, I was tired and tired of working on the construction site, and the money she earned all day was not enough for her to buy a designer bag! ”

He paused, then said, "Later, she abandoned me and followed the contractor!" I was so angry that I was very sick, there was no one around to take care of it, no one to ask, no money to treat the disease, and I almost lost my life! Tibet, how easy is it to come back? Coupled with the fact that the water and soil are not satisfied, I am skinny and skinny. Later, I was saved by a lone uncle, and I saved my life; but after seeing my illness, his old man was sick again, I wanted to repay the favor, so I worked to serve him to the end of his life, he also blamed the poor, no children and no daughters, so we two grandfathers depended on each other, he was a hundred years old, I came back..."

I listened to his story, and without a ripple, I asked, "Won't you leave later?" Just at home? ”

"Never go again! Sunny, Dad's sudden departure I'm really sorry! You're going to hit and scratch as you please..." He looked at me with earnest eyes.

I slammed the door to his room, turned my head and left! Came to the house where I lived and cried bitterly... I have let out all my grief for so many years with tears.

For him a lot of words endured, then I didn't bother to say, many things disappointed a lot, and then I didn't care.

Slowly, I also learned to let go. It's not that I've changed, it's that I'm really powerless, I'm conceding defeat, I'm tossing and turning.

The wandering man returned from 16 years away from home and died of his father, who loved me the most

He is very diligent at home, rushing to do everything, cooking, washing clothes, etc... I turned a blind eye!

For a while, he left again, and I didn't ask him where he was going.

Later, when the two children returned from winter vacation, I learned: he first went to his son's school, accompanied his son through Saturday and Sunday, and the father and son communicated for two days and two nights, and the son chose to forgive him! Blood is thicker than water.

Then he went to his daughter's school, who at first ignored him, and finally he sent her this and that all day, and her classmates couldn't stand it, and persuaded her daughter...

The first thing my daughter said to him was: "I hate you, you have missed the growth of me and my brother over the years, missed the fatherly love we should have, and when you come back, you have stimulated my grandfather who hurt me and loved me to a heart attack, and you will die!" You know that for so many years, he has taken care of our mother-in-law in your place! My mother spent so many years in that hut, wearing an apron all day and her hands kept drying and drying, so that we had no worries about food and clothing! I called you Daddy, from the heart I feel sorry for my mother..." After saying wow wow crying, he also cried with his daughter, and said vigorously: "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! ”

But can the three words "I'm sorry" be exchanged for those years in the past?

After a few years of quietness, the two children called all day and persuaded on WeChat, and I was also relieved!

The wandering man returned from 16 years away from home and died of his father, who loved me the most

I remember a saying: Don't cling to the memory, the kite that breaks the line, you can only let it fly, let it go, let it go, and let go of yourself.

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