Wen 丨 Qingxin Junyue
The love that was once regarded by Zhou Rong as the whole of faith and life, but in the end betrayed her.
At the moment of betrayal, even Zhou Rong, who was maverick and advanced in thought, was still not exempt from vulgarity. In the face of her husband's pleading, letter of guarantee and vows to change her heart, she softened her heart, and even found an excuse for this, it must be someone else who took the initiative to seduce, otherwise her husband would not have a bad heart.
However, her indulgence was exchanged for betrayal after betrayal, until later even Feng Huacheng was an unbearable behavior and found a grand excuse.
In the end, Zhou Rong left the person she had loved for nearly twenty years with only stubbornness, and at that moment, her heart was only disappointed and cold. She overestimated the love between them, and also underestimated the allure of fame, profit, and desire in the flashy world to a man who had once fallen.
Rush
Zhou Rong is a notorious beauty of light character films.
She was a romantic, a rare thoughtful and insightful girl of that era, and it was Zhou Rong's difference that doomed her life to be full of different colors.
She fell in love with a poet, a poet who wore a "hat" and was ten years older than her, Feng Huacheng.
In order to chase her lover's footsteps, she hid from her family and went to the remote mountains of Guizhou to join the team, leaving only a few letters. She knew that neither her father nor her mother could accept her choice, but she couldn't take care of it so much for the sake of love.
In the original work, in a letter she sent to her brother Zhou Bingyi wrote:
"Brother, my dear brother, you are the one who understands me best in the whole family!" You know, I'm your sister of faith! Without faith I would be like a dragonfly whose head has been ripped off, but... I only believe in love! What do I believe in besides love?"
She has to practice her love supremacy in spite of herself, so she does not hesitate to hurt the hearts of her parents, and she does not hesitate to endure the harsh environment in remote mountainous areas, just so that she can stay with her lover.
Soon after Zhou Rong arrived in Guizhou, she met and became with Feng Huacheng there. Due to the limited conditions, they settled their home in a cave where Zhou Rong taught, separated by a stone wall, and Zhou Rong's daughter Yue Yue was born there.
Although the living environment is very difficult, Zhou Rong's heart is satisfied and sweet, she enjoys this kind of day with her lover, which is her purpose of traveling thousands of miles to come here, she has achieved, she tasted, she is also intoxicated.
At this time, her love for Feng Huacheng was accompanied by an almost blind worship, of course, she herself may not be willing to admit that this love is mixed with blind elements, but for bystanders, her love is blind and lack of consideration.
She never considered her family's feelings, let alone her life problems with Feng Huacheng. In the early days, she and Feng Huacheng had no salary income, and the security of life depended on the monthly support of her mother, brother, brother and sister-in-law, and it was not until later that she had an income to make ends meet.
Just imagine, without the full support of the Zhou family, can her faith in the supremacy of love really be realized so smoothly?
I have no intention of tarnishing her pure and great love, but vulgarly I think that no matter how sincere marital love is, it cannot be too idealistic, and it must also need the minimum material security, otherwise even life cannot be lived, and how can love survive and take root in life.
treachery
In the original work, Zhou Rong once said to his father Zhou Zhigang, who came to Guizhou to visit him:
"Your daughter will live in this cave for the rest of her life, and she will not feel that life is too bitter."
However, what she did not expect was that a person's life is very long, and some vows have long disappeared in the long river of time before they have time to be fulfilled. Perhaps the oath of this thing is only a momentary expression of true feelings, and it will not be returned.
Zhou Rong and Feng Huacheng lived in Guizhou for many years, until the times changed, and they returned to Beijing together.
At that time, Zhou Rong and her brother Zhou Bingyi became alumni of Peking University, and her husband Feng Huacheng also raised his eyebrows, took off his "hat", paid back his salary, and became the deputy director of a library in a district of Beijing.
Everything in life seems to be developing in a beautiful direction, but Zhou Rong, who successfully entered graduate school after graduating from Peking University, is facing huge variables in marriage and love.
Feng Huacheng cheated.
The object of the derailment is Feng Huacheng's ex-wife. For Feng Huacheng's marriage history, Zhou Rong only learned about it after the cheating incident. Before Feng Huacheng was overthrown, he was married to the daughter of a vice minister, and after the accident, his ex-wife quickly drew a line with him, and the two divorced.
Since hearing that Feng Huacheng had returned to Beijing, his ex-wife had found him many times and wanted to break the mirror and reunite, and the two who came and went really continued the frontier, but during a secret meeting, they were blocked by his ex-wife's current husband. For his ex-wife's husband, he not only beat Feng Huacheng violently, but also wrote a letter telling Zhou Rong to take care of his "rotten man".
Faced with the betrayal of her lover and the attempt to rely on the children of high-ranking officials to ascend to the throne in order to develop, Zhou Rong was shocked and sad, but after years of feelings, as well as Feng Huacheng's constant requests and attacks from love poems, she still forgave him.
But her forgiveness was only for Feng Huacheng's short-lived obedience, and one day not long after, Zhou Rong saw her husband's ugly behavior with her own eyes when she returned home, and Zhou Rong was dead hearted. In the face of Feng Huacheng's kneeling retention, Zhou Rong said:
"We're a couple, and I've never begged you." I begged you today, okay? ”
This love, which has traveled thousands of miles and is regarded as a lifelong faith, has come to an end here. For Zhou Rong, she had no complaints or regrets about this rush, but Feng Huacheng's name also turned in her memories.
No woman is willing to easily forgive her husband's betrayal, especially a person like Zhou Rong, who has placed her life and life on love, and it is even more difficult to accept that the picture of love is tarnished. She had given Feng Huacheng a chance, but forgiveness too easily became an excuse for the other party to repeatedly indulge.
I feel sorry for What happened to Zhou Rong, because her love is so pure and eager that people can't bear to see her hurt for love. Similarly, I am glad that this time she did not hesitate to leave Feng Huacheng, because this man is no longer the person who lived together in the cave. For hopeless marital love, letting go is a not bad choice.
After all, the love of common suffering has not resisted the erosion of fame and fortune
The end of Zhou Rong and Feng Huacheng was doomed the moment Feng Huacheng returned to Beijing.
A man who has been down for ten years and has been excluded for ten years, after a successful day, his mentality has undergone a huge change. Once returning home after getting drunk, Feng Huacheng once said to Zhou Rong:
"If you fall in love with me, you won't suffer a loss, and now I'll make you a Beijinger." You know? Some women are willing to sleep with any man for the sake of Beijing hukou! ”
The subtext of this sentence is, marry me you should be grateful to Dade, I am very successful now, there are many women sent to the door, you should serve me well, you should also be satisfied. When Feng Huacheng said this sentence, he had already paved the way for his future derailment.
As Feng Huacheng's fame grew, everyone called him "Teacher Feng" flatteringly everywhere, which made Feng Huacheng's vanity explode, and he felt that he was entitled to more. Gradually, around him appeared all kinds of female poetry lovers and female journalists, who also worshiped him like Zhou Rong used to do, and most importantly, they were young, and they liked to listen to his "poetic aesthetics" in bed.
What an ironic scene, Surrounded by flowers and fame and fortune, Feng Huacheng has long lost his heart, he is obsessed with immersion, and enjoys this belated "compensation" tirelessly.
I don't want to use "compensation" to describe this situation, but in Feng Huacheng's heart, this is the compensation he deserves:
"I always feel that that decade is too much of a loss, and I want to make up for myself." The years do not spare people, and it is too late to speed up the compensation... Just by writing poetry, I don't feel the fullness of life..."
He used a grandiose excuse to explain his depravity and the indulgence of desire, and also tried to convince Zhou Rong with this excuse. However, he forgot that he had suffered for ten years, but Zhou Rong had also suffered for ten years for him, and Zhou Rong had accompanied him to this day with his youth, love, and faith.
The life of the cave in Guizhou, the love that has been suffering for many years, was thrown behind by Feng Huacheng and shelved. Unable to resist his own swelling and depraved heart, he stomped on the only light of the dark years.
Did Feng Huacheng ever love Zhou Rong?
I thought, it was loved, at least I wished so. When a man is born in bad luck, he is accompanied by beautiful relatives, he is naturally satisfied and comfortable, and he is also willing to be a good husband. Moreover, Zhou Rong, who was once a worker's family, was the only protective umbrella for him to resist external hatred and persecution, and he had to cling to and rely on him to the death.
But now it was different, he no longer needed Zhou Rong's protection, he was not the poet who was shouted and beaten by everyone and despised by others, he had fame and status, he enjoyed the compliments and admiration of the people around him, he had more and more warblers and swallows around him, at this time, where there was still Zhou Rong's position around him.
The goddess who he once regarded as saving and protecting herself, once she lost her aura and meaning, she was forcibly expelled from the altar and became the "next cousin".
I sympathize with Feng Huacheng's dark years of that decade, but this should not be an excuse or reason for him to betray and hurt his wife. He is lucky after all, there is Zhou Rong, a woman who has no complaints and regrets to pay and accompany, is that he does not know how to cherish, and he does not know how to adhere to the bottom line as a husband and father, his indulgence should be spurned by the world, and he is not worthy of Zhou Rong's love.
There are always some people who can only share hardships, but they cannot share the rich and noble, and no matter how true their true feelings are, they cannot withstand people's thin feelings.
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