Since breaking up with my girlfriend who has been talking for seven years, I have experienced a year-long adaptation period, from the beginning of indifference to the final liver and intestines, and when everything calms down, I feel at ease

Since breaking up with my girlfriend who has been talking for seven years, I have experienced a year-long adaptation period, from the beginning of indifference to the final liver and intestines, and when everything calms down, I feel that my feelings are getting weaker and weaker, and many things that I can sigh once have now become indifferent.

Since a few months ago, I have realized that there is a diaphragm between the brain and the heart, and it is difficult to find the feelings I once had, and the various emotions stored in the chest cavity before, as long as I swim in it a little, have countless inspirations and can write many beautiful poems. Nowadays, it is like a bottle of wood, although it is not cold, it is no longer warm.

It's really hard to imagine these days, the people I like are gone and it's hard to be moved, the games I like are boring, even the kittens and dogs are stuck in their arms and don't have the urge to hug them hard, and the only thing I have to think about how to meet my relatives and elders is how I should be, without heartfelt affection and respect. Just like computers, computers are constrained by algorithms, and I am constrained by rules, but emotions and morality are difficult to feel.

I don't know how long this will last or if it will last forever, and now even if I'm sad, I don't want to be like a pool of stagnant water, which is really inhuman torture. The feelings of despair and sadness, loneliness, and the emotion of not wanting to feel it again, have now become so precious that a person who is about to starve to death no longer cares whether food is delicious or not.

Cherish your life in the present, because there may be worse later, and the overlap of bitterness is not half in objective facts and half in the idea of the supervisor. The funny thing is that I don't think about her anymore, but I can't cure the scars she left behind