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Obviously, I don't live a satisfactory life, but I can't see the suffering of the world. This sentence is very tearful and realistic, and depressed people are like this, they know that they are not happy, but they always think about others.
I talked to a depressed person who was a girl in her early 20s who had been depressed since she was a teenager and could say that her world had been gray since she was a teenager.
Her family is very poor, her parents are patriarchal, she is a very quiet girl, she is very studious, but she and I are embarrassed to act that she is very studious, because she often listens to her parents scold her growing up like this: "What is the use of girls reading?" Sooner or later, if they have to marry, how much do girls have to learn? It's also a waste of money, girls should hurry out to work and earn money, send their wages home, and quickly return the money that your parents gave birth to you to raise you. ”
Maybe it was because she was often scolded like this, she got depressed, she came out at the age of eighteen to earn a living, when she first came out, the salary was very low, but she still took most of the money home, because she also wanted the family to live better, she hated herself for not being able to make a lot of money to return to the family, she couldn't see her relatives and others suffering, she couldn't help but cry when she saw others suffering, and she chatted with me about some of the things she said with tears.
She has been a person who likes to please others since she was a child, why? Because the family values sons over daughters, she has to please her parents before she can take them down in that house, and if she is slightly disobedient, her parents threaten her like this: "If you don't obey, we will throw you out."
So she did not dare to disobey, she initially felt that her parents were upset because of poverty, so she did not blame her parents, she always wanted to make a lot of money to change her family, change the poverty of the family, let her parents have money, her parents loved her, she desperately wanted to find back the father's love and mother's love that had been missing since childhood, and to find the missing sense of security.
Because of this, she always pleases others, she hopes to use her own strength to make the family rich, but she does not have this ability, so she is miserable, depressed, she sees some people suffering, but the money she donates is very insignificant, so she is miserable and depressed.
Depressed people really can't see others suffering, because they are bitter, and seeing others suffering is like seeing themselves, and they can't help but cry.
Depressed people are very kind people, so she is a kind person, grew up in a patriarchal family, suffered a lot of psychological trauma, but she is still as good as ever, even if she was deceived she is still as good as ever, the kind always like to ask too much of herself, always push the fault of others to herself, punish herself with other people's mistakes, so she is depressed.
She struggled outside for more than ten years, although she did not make a lot of money, but also made a lot, but most of this money was given to the family, she thought that she could use this to get the father's love and mother's love that she had missed since childhood.
She was wrong, the patriarchal mentality of the family did not change, and her parents not only did not say that she was filial, but also said that she deserved it, saying that the money she gave was far from enough for her parents to give birth to her and raise her.
She cried, she cried very badly, she was not only crying for not getting the love of her father and mother, but also crying for her inability, she had been thinking that if she gave enough money to the family, the family should love her, so all the money left on her body was sent back, even the money for eating was gone, fortunately, the company packed food and housing, otherwise she really did not know where to live.
She is almost 40 years old, she has not yet lived herself, she has not yet married, she is still a lonely person, her home is only a small house rented outside, her parents' home is only her parents' home, even if she gives more money to the family, she has no place to stand in the original family, but she has kindly believed that her parents love her, hate her only because she is poor, so she wants to make a lot of money to let her family love her.
Her compassion is excessive, she has not been loved at home, she is not safe, so she is always miserable, always depressed, always depressed.
She has always been depressed, sometimes heavy and sometimes light, and she has a very kind heart, but no mercy for life!
I hope she gets rid of depression and lives out of herself, even if it is selfish.