On the day of my wedding, I got into the car crying, others crying because I didn't want my parents, and I cried because I couldn't dominate my marriage.
Outside the car window, my mother also kept wiping tears and said to me: Girl, my parents are sorry for you.
At that moment, my grievances were flooded, and I couldn't pay attention to the instructions of the seven aunts and eight aunts outside, quickly raised the glass window, and covered my face and cried bitterly.
I don't hate my parents, who let themselves be born in this not rich family, this is their fate. I can understand their difficulties, I only hate my own cowardice, incapable of changing all this.
Looking at the asphalt road leading to the bus station, I thought about running away from marriage, but I quickly dispelled this idea, I ran, what about my brother and sister-in-law? How did my parents face this situation?
I closed my eyes weakly, allowing the tears to blur my eyes again and again.
Since I was a child, I knew that my family was poor, and I was eager to spend two halves of a penny, so after graduating from junior high school, my brother and I both dropped out of school.
My parents were very conservative people, after dropping out of school, my brother stayed at home to help his parents, and I followed my fellow villagers to work in the big city.
Because I didn't have a degree, I had to find some job washing dishes in a restaurant. After a few years, the money did not make much, but because the hand was soaked in cold water for a long time, there were small blisters, which were extremely itchy.
At the suggestion of a friend, when I was preparing to change jobs, my mother called and asked me to quit my job and go home with important things to do.
After arriving home, my parents gathered around me and said, Girl, your brother is also old, there is a marriage object, but people want a dowry of 100,000, the situation of our family You know, where do we go to find so much money?
Saying that my mother also wiped away tears, I was suddenly overwhelmed. Dad said: There is a family in the neighboring village, his son has a crush on you, willing to advance the dowry of 50,000 yuan, then your brother will be engaged first, and when you are also engaged to the other party to give the other fifty thousand to all, your brother can get married.
Looking at Dad's a little hesitant, but very firm expression, empty sleeves are a rare peace of mind, I can't say a word for a moment.
My mother took my hand: Daughter-in-law, we know that we have wronged you like this, but our family is on this condition, sooner or later you will have to marry, marry a good condition yourself do not have to work so hard, your brother and daughter-in-law can not delay.
I did not refute it, although reluctantly, but had already expected such a day. Since I was a child, my parents have been good to me, but my family is really poor, let alone 100,000, even 10,000 families may not be able to come up with it, and I can fully understand my parents' decision to make such a decision.
My father is disabled, in the early years was shocked by electric shocks to lose his arm, so that the already poor grandfather's family is worse, medical treatment has cost a lot of money, coupled with disability, dad married daughter-in-law that is more difficult.
The local girls were all discouraged from my family, and seeing that they were getting older, grandpa followed the villagers to the field to bring back a second-daughter-in-law for my father, and this person was my mother.
My mom looked at my dad's empty sleeves and didn't say a word of reluctance, saying that as long as people are good and diligent, everything will be there.
This made the grandparents simply overjoyed, in order to make more money for the family, the grandfather worked very hard. When my grandfather was building a house for others, due to the quality of the planks, my grandfather collapsed from the wooden boards more than 1 meter high, and his head touched the steps, and the person was gone.
The other party gave 500 yuan to count the matter, Dad was angry, looking for theory, but was beaten by the family, and the mother evacuated the anger in Dad's heart again and again: What kind of family are we? What kind of people are people, and if they continue to make trouble like this, it is equivalent to an egg touching a stone, and it will always be us who suffer losses.
This sentence completely woke up Dad, and from then on, the well water of the family did not violate the river water. Because of the departure of her grandfather, coupled with the fact that she was so angry, she quickly fell ill and died not long after.
My brother was 5 years old and I was 2 years old. At an age when I am young, I only see that my parents do not have a smiley face all day, but I do not know the bitterness in their hearts.
Even if life is tight, my parents' love for me has never been stingy, and I have slowly learned to be considerate of my parents. In the blink of an eye, more than 10 years have passed.
Since my parents opened this mouth to me, it shows that they really can't do anything.
In order to achieve my brother's marriage, I finally agreed to the marriage, and a month after my brother got married, my wedding date also arrived.
I thought I had accepted this in my heart, but on the wedding day, I still cried bitterly, and the makeup artist helped me make up my makeup when I got out of the car.
Facts have proved that this kind of unequal marriage is doomed to be unhappy.
After marriage, my mother-in-law made every effort to make things difficult for me, saying at every turn that I was bought by their family at a great price, and that I could enter a family like theirs, which was already a blessing cultivated in the previous life, so I don't know what to do.
I knew I was wrong and could only respond with silence. The husband has a lot of playfulness, and the family's affairs will not be taken care of at all.
After getting pregnant, the mother-in-law did not relent, and the big winter let me wash clothes in the yard, saying that women were not so squeamish when they were pregnant. I think that when she was pregnant with my husband, she was about to give birth, and she was still planting seedlings in the field.
For myself and my children, I can only endure and endure. Unexpectedly, after giving birth to a daughter, my in-laws' attitude towards me was even more miserable.
Even my mother came to serve the confinement, my mother-in-law brought us the steamed dumplings, my mother cried as soon as she ate it, she said that they hurt me, I thought I would find a rich in-law, I could get married to live a good life, but I did not expect that my mother-in-law did not put me in my eyes at all.
After getting out of the confinement, my mother took me back home, and in front of my father and brother-in-law, my mother sighed and finally did not mention a word.
My mother and I both knew that with my father's temper, if we said it, we might be in trouble.
After returning to my in-laws' house, my husband also supported his parents and scolded me for not hitting me, and I was trembling and trembling when I held my daughter.
Finally my husband began to stay up all night, I knew that my fate with this family was coming, so I proposed a divorce, and my mother-in-law said in a loud voice: This family has you two eating well, do you dare to mention divorce? If you want a divorce, my son doesn't want you.
I took my daughter out of the house with me, carrying only a few hundred dollars.
I called my mother to tell her that I was divorced, and my mother choked up and said: Girl, your mother can't take you home, you also know that now your sister-in-law is in charge of the family, and the divorced daughter can't go back to her mother's house. I hope you don't resent your parents...
After hanging up the phone, my tears fell like beads with broken threads, and at that moment I didn't know where to go, but I finally realized the helplessness of calling every day unspirant.
But looking at my daughter in my arms, I could only wipe away my tears, grit my teeth, and go to the suburbs not far from home, and find a basement to live in. Under the introduction of a friend, I found a handmade work of stringing beads to survive.
My mother felt sorry for me, and every three or five times she brought me food and clothing, and every time she came secretly and quietly went back.
After three months like this, I never thought that one day my sister-in-law would come to me.
After my daughter fell asleep that day, I was sitting in a chair wearing beads, when my sister-in-law suddenly broke in, blushing, followed by my breathless brother.
When I saw this situation, I giggled in my heart, thinking that she knew that my mother had helped me and came to me to settle the account. I quickly explained: Sister-in-law, this matter does not blame the mother, blame me for not being angry, I promise not to let the mother come again in the future.
Unexpectedly, my sister-in-law said to me solemnly: Lihua, such a big thing as divorce, how can you hide from us? Do you really think of us as a family?
My brother also echoed: Yes, you are a woman with a child, how to live? Quick, follow us home.
I couldn't believe it was my brother-in-law's words, and I was overwhelmed.
When my sister-in-law saw the situation, she directly found a big bag to help me pack up my clothes, and I cleaned up with my brother and sister-in-law and took my daughter back to my mother's house.
On the way, my sister-in-law said to me: If I hadn't seen my mother sneakily carrying food every three or five minutes, asking her if she was in a hurry, and today I bumped into her again, and under my repeated questioning, she told me the truth.
You a woman divorced and do not go back to her mother's house, what is going on outside, it is really willful, the mother is also true, such a big thing can really be hidden.
I listened to my sister-in-law's words and choked up, and my sister-in-law gently took me into her arms, and in this instant, all my suffering was like finding an exit, turning into tears and gushing out instantly.
When I was about to get home, I saw my mother standing at the door from a distance, saw me back, and immediately greeted me and said: Girl, just come back. You have to thank your sister-in-law. Mom and Dad have kept their duties all their lives and never wanted to cause trouble for others.
Today, your sister-in-law can break these folk customs and take you home, how much pressure is it! We must understand ento as human beings, and you must be filial to your brother and sister-in-law in the future. Our family has such a good daughter-in-law, it must be the ancestors who smoked green smoke.
I turned to look at my sister-in-law and said thank you sincerely to her. Unexpectedly, my sister-in-law said: If you want to say thank you, that is also my thanks, thank you for your kind parents, if it were not for the 100,000 yuan dowry money, my father might not be alive.
My sister-in-law continued: My father has a very serious kidney disease, the operation fee is more than 80,000, and it seems that our family conditions are good, but in fact, since my sister-in-law entered the door, she has changed the law to ask my parents for money.
When my father found out about this disease, he didn't have much money in his hand, and my sister-in-law didn't take the money out, so I had to ask for a dowry of 100,000 yuan, which pulled my father back from the ghost door.
I didn't expect that because of this money, I buried Lihua's happiness, and I felt guilty that it was too late, how could I be disgusted?
My mother suddenly burst into laughter, wrapped her arms around my sister-in-law's shoulders and said: My two good girls, as long as our family works together, the days will definitely get better and better.
My brother was laughing silly, and I guessed he must have known about it. My dad also came out of the house and looked at me deeply: Divorce is such a big thing, let's help you come up with an idea.
I just laughed, the weather today is windy, but I feel an incredible warmth, which is probably the power of love.
Soon after, my sister-in-law found me a factory job, and my daughter was taken care of by her mother, and the family was happy and considerate of each other, and life was very smooth.
A year later, my sister-in-law also introduced me to a boyfriend, who was also divorced and honest. Because we have both tasted the misfortunes of marriage, in this time together, we are both honest and relative, and we have a lot in common with each other.
After half a year together, we got married. That divorce also became a past in my life, but the fact that my sister-in-law took me back to my mother's house became an indelible shining point in my life.
It not only illuminates my way forward, but also reminds me from time to time that I am a person with a mother's family, parents who love me, and brothers and sisters-in-law who tolerate me.