Married for 10 years, with a good husband and mother-in-law, but I am still not happy

1.

At 7 o'clock in the morning, my mobile phone rang, and when I took a look at it, my mother-in-law called again. I felt a rush of irritability welling up in my mind, but I couldn't help but answer the phone.

My mother-in-law asked me and Liu Tao to go home for dinner at night, and said that the little uncle's family also came back, and said that they all came back to eat at night, and there were many people who were lively.

After barely coping with a few words, I hurriedly hung up the phone, and then saw my husband still humming a song with a happy face, but I only felt extremely harsh, and the anger in my heart really stabbed my lung tube in a daze, making me want to smash the thing at hand.

However, when he was angry again, he still had to go to his mother-in-law's house with a smiley face at night.

Sure enough, at night, when I arrived at my mother-in-law's house, my sister-in-law said on the left, and there was more laughter at home when I had a child, and the earlier I gave birth to a child on the right, the better, otherwise my body would recover slowly.

From time to time, my mother-in-law echoed a sentence, and even my husband nodded, saying that it was still good to have a child.

I really couldn't stand it, and directly said to my husband: "Liu Tao, if you really want children so much, let's go to divorce tomorrow, you change your wife to give birth to you as soon as possible, I will not delay you." ”

After this sentence was spoken, it was like pressing the pause button, and the original joyful atmosphere instantly froze, and even the voice of the little uncle coaxing the child was much smaller.

After a while, the father-in-law sighed and said, "Wang Xin, what are you talking about, Tao Zi wants to be so unconscionable, I can't spare him." All right, let's all eat. ”

As they sat at the dinner table, they continued to laugh casually, as if nothing had happened.

I was suddenly very sad, and the idea of divorce could not be suppressed and grew wildly in my heart.

2.

I have been married to Liu Tao for almost 10 years. In good conscience, he was a very qualified husband.

In his perception, I am his wife, as long as it is within his ability, I can do whatever I want.

Not happy at work? Then resign, his salary can afford to support his wife.

Bored at home? Just hang out for a few days and have fun.

Worried about not getting along well with your in-laws? Then move out and live, and reduce contradictions.

Don't want to cook? Go out to eat, if you don't want to go out to eat, then go to your in-laws' house to rub rice.

As for housework, finding an hourly worker is not enough, and it is not a big deal.

So much so that after being married for so many years, I haven't worked hard, and when I'm not happy, I'll go out on a trip.

My mother often said that I have been pitted over the years, and I don't have eyes for a long time. When my relatives saw me, they said the most: "I am glad that you have fallen into the nest."

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In the words on the Internet, that is, in my previous life, it is estimated that I saved the galaxy, so in this life, I can meet such a good man.

But where in this world is there total happiness? I am extremely happy in the eyes of others, and now every day is a torment, if I can, I would rather divorce. I really don't mind leaving this wonderful man.

In fact, the reason for all this is very simple, we do not have children.

It's just that we don't have children, not because I have physical problems with Liu Tao, but because I can't get over the hurdle in my heart.

That thing had become a thorn in my heart, buried deep in flesh and blood, and stung from time to time. Until now, whenever I think of a child, that thorn makes me feel pain.

We used to have a child.

I seem to be able to recall that when I first found out that I was pregnant, that happy mood, every fetal movement I remember clearly, and after doing four dimensions, even if it was a color super single taken across the belly, I can clearly see that he has a high nose bridge, as if it is the epitome of my nose.

However, my fate with him only lasted until this picture, and it came to an abrupt end.

3.

In fact, when we first got married, we didn't plan to have children so soon. The child was an accident, which disrupted our plans, but since it came, we gladly accepted it.

But from the very beginning, my fetus was not very well conceived. When he was more than two months old, he also had a heavy bleeding and stayed in the hospital for more than a week before he saved the child.

When I was discharged from the hospital, the doctor also told me that I must keep a happy mood, not too tired, and if there is any discomfort, I must come to the hospital immediately.

Liu Tao always said that this child is estimated to be a debt collector in the future, or a small bean sprout began to toss his parents.

Once, he also said this in front of his mother-in-law, and after being fiercely twisted by her mother-in-law, he only dared to say it occasionally.

But I know that he is still looking forward to this child in his heart, and he tells me a lot about the future, and every picture has the participation of the child. Although this child is still a small bean sprout, he has even imagined which university to go to and what industry he will go to in the future, and those ideas always make me laugh.

However, in the end, I still lost the child.

That night, Liu Tao's game addiction made me go to sleep first, and he played the game for a while before accompanying me.

Liu Tao likes to play games, when we are in love, he often plays games all night, and I sometimes nag that it is not good to stay up late. But he always said that he does not smoke, drink, do not clubbing, do not gamble money, always keep a hobby.

Looking at his righteous appearance, I could only reluctantly give up persuasion.

But after I got pregnant, he didn't play games much, even if he played games occasionally, that is, sitting on the edge of the bed and playing for a while, he said to accompany me as much as possible, afraid that I would want to drink water in the middle of the night, or something uncomfortable.

Usually, when he says this, I will go to sleep first, and he will obediently come to sleep after he is addicted. But that night I didn't know what was going on, I always felt a panic in my heart, how dare I not sleep alone, so I pestered him not to let him play games, let him sleep with me.

He was entangled in me and lost several rounds, a little impatient, reached out and pushed me, pushed me down on the bed, and then said angrily: You sleep by yourself, don't bother me. Then he pushed open the door and went to the living room to continue playing the game.

I was so angry that I pulled the quilt and went to sleep.

But I don't know why, I feel like the more I sleep, the colder I am, I want to call my husband to come and hug me, but I feel that my eyelids are swollen and my mouth is like being stuck by something, and I can't open it no matter how hard I try.

And then I don't know anything.

When I regained consciousness again, I was lying on a hospital bed, my lower abdomen was still hurting, and I subconsciously touched my stomach, but I could no longer feel the presence of the child.

Liu Tao sat on the side with a face and buried his head in his arm. My mother and mother-in-law were there, but they were sobbing quietly.

It turned out that in the middle of the night, I was bleeding again, and I was in shock because I was bleeding too much. By the time Liu Tao found out that something was wrong and took me to the hospital, the child was no longer there. The doctor said that if it was a little later, it was estimated that even I would not be able to save it.

This time the bleeding, not only the child is gone, my body is also a bad loss, not to mention work, as long as the amount of activity is a little large, it will be uncomfortable or even faint.

I was in the hospital for almost a month before I was told I could go home. However, it is also necessary to continue to maintain and prevent sequelae.

I filed for divorce after I was discharged from the hospital. But Liu Tao did not agree, and the beard hugged me and cried, saying that he was sorry for me, saying that he would never play games again, and he would definitely try to be good to me in the future.

In the end, we did not divorce, but this child still became a knot between me and him. Even though he quit playing, he became more mature, more responsible, and treated me well for years.

But I didn't dare to get pregnant again, and even began to have non-stop nightmares, dreaming about the child, and the night that was getting colder.

4.

After this incident, the in-laws were full of guilt for me, and I even felt as if they were full of caution in their attitude towards me, as if they were afraid that I would not be able to think about what to do. As for having children, no one will mention it.

But with the birth of the little uncle's daughter, this calm was slowly broken. My mother-in-law began to test me from time to time, asking me when I would have a child, and even my husband would occasionally joke about having another one.

Until this evening, they almost clearly advised me to conceive another child. But I don't want to, I'd rather get a divorce.

My husband once again failed at my insistence and promised that he would communicate well with his mother and would not talk about it again. I breathed a sigh of relief, but my heart was empty.

After almost half a month, my mother-in-law suddenly called me and asked me if I could go to her side to give her a handle, it turned out that the mother of the sister-in-law was suddenly hospitalized, and the couple rushed to the hospital and put the child in the mother-in-law's house, but the little guy couldn't stay idle for a moment, and the mother-in-law couldn't cook.

My mother-in-law could only call me for help, otherwise the grandchildren would go hungry. It just so happened that my husband was not at home on a business trip, and I had nothing to do at home alone, so I packed up a few clothes and rushed to my mother-in-law's house.

When I arrived, the little guy was pouting his ass and "exploring" around the house, and the mother-in-law was washing her freshly wet pants on the balcony while paying attention to the safety of the little guy.

When he saw me come in, the little guy crawled to my feet and shouted at me "Aaaah", as if to say hello, so cute that I couldn't help but touch her little face.

I played with the little one for a long time, and when it came time to sleep at night, she still didn't want to be separated from me. I simply told my mother-in-law that I would sleep with my little one at night. The mother-in-law is a little uneasy, after all, I have not taken a child, and my health is not particularly good.

But the little guy seemed to understand the adult's words, and he drilled into my room, crawled onto the bed, turned his head and smiled at us.

In this way, during the day, the little guy would pat the door and say "aaaah" to me that he wanted to go out and play. At night, after Grandma had wrapped up the diapers and not wet, she would sneak into my bed and sleep with me.

The mother-in-law always said jealously: If there is and urine, come to your grandmother, and if you have delicious and fun, come to your uncle, you are a conscienceless person.

The little guy just grinned and shoved the little cookie into my mouth.

My sister-in-law stayed at home for more than a week before returning, and I also brought more than a week's worth of children. Strangely enough, I didn't have another nightmare this week, even though I was tired.

The little guy saw his parents and jumped happily, shrinking into his mother's arms and refusing to come down again. I watched the interaction between the two of them, but I only felt a pang of pantothenic acid in my heart.

After washing up this night, I lay alone in the bed, suddenly very unaccustomed, obviously so many years, as long as my husband is not at home, I am sleeping alone, but this will feel how uncomfortable.

I lost sleep until late, and then I fell asleep in a daze.

I don't know how long I slept, a knock on the door, woke me up, opened the door it turned out to be the mother-in-law knocking on the door, behind her there was still standing holding the child's little uncle.

It turned out that the little guy slept until the middle of the night and suddenly had to come to me, and the brother-in-law had been tired for more than a week, and this was even more tossed.

There was really no way out, so my brother took the child and gave it to my mother-in-law, and asked the mother-in-law to send the child to me. The mother-in-law was a little unhappy, saying that I was not in good health, had been sleeping with the child for a few days, and should also let me have a good rest.

But the little guy was not happy, he wanted to cry with his mouth flat, and his mother-in-law could only surrender, and when he cried in the middle of the night, no one had to sleep, let alone me.

In the end, I had to knock on my door.

5.

I immediately let go, and my mother-in-law also took the child from the little uncle's arms and put her in my bed, and the little guy was immediately happy, patted the bed at me, and signaled me to sleep with her.

When I turned off the lights again, the little one was almost asleep. Looking at the sleeping child, I suddenly wanted to have a child of my own, male or female, and I would definitely take good care of him and give him the best of everything.

When I got pregnant again, my husband would not say anything excited, and my mother-in-law kept nagging, asking my husband to take good care of me and make sure that I was safe this time.

Even the little one looked at my stomach with a novelty, and occasionally a "younger brother" or "sister" popped out of his mouth.

The process of pregnancy is painful and joyful.

Because of my previous experience, I was very careful throughout my pregnancy, and every time I had a maternity check-up, I was still afraid that the doctor would suddenly say that there was something wrong with the child.

My husband also tensed his nerves, eager to guard me all the time, as long as he could push away the work. There is really no way to be at home, then I must let my mother-in-law or my mother come and guard me, I am afraid that something will happen to me.

However, this pregnancy was unexpectedly smooth, and even because I followed the doctor's advice and maintained proper exercise throughout the pregnancy, the doctor also recommended that I have a smooth delivery.

In this way, after getting pregnant in October, I gave birth to my son safely, he did not have a tall nose bridge, but he had the same double eyelids as me, and he was a good fox eye.

When I was transferred to the ordinary delivery room, my husband looked at me affectionately with his reddish eyes and said, "Wife thank you for being willing to have a child for me, I swear that I will do my best to be good to you two, I will block all the wind and rain, and make you two happy." ”

Wrapping my arms around my newborn son and looking at the man in front of me, my heart was suddenly filled with thorns that had been rooted in my heart for ten years, as if she had been pulled out with my husband's words, so that the wounds in my heart could finally heal.

I took my son's tender little hand and put it in the palm of my husband's hand, then smiled at him and said, "Well, I believe you." ”