The first time sexologist Li Yinhe saw her husband Wang Xiaobo, he was frightened and said bluntly: It looks so ugly! Wang Xiaobo replied with a smile: You are not so good-looking!
Perhaps after experiencing multiple social sufferings, you can understand Wang Xiaobo's feelings: for most people, life is a slow process of being hammered. We have desires on the road, want a stable life, hope for love, but every attempt is doubled by life to hit back, and eventually become a walking dead, suppressing the blood of the past.
When Wang Xiaobo was young, his health was not good, and in order to supplement nutrition, he ate a lot of calcium tablets. Later, he grew a tall 190CM tall, and the nutrition was finally made up, but his health was still not good.
In his 20s, Wang Xiaobo felt that he had a heart problem, and he seemed to have a premonition that he would not live long, so when he got married, he decided not to have children.
Li Yinhe is The wife of Wang Xiaobo, a doctoral supervisor at the Chinese Academy of Social Sciences, and the first research sociologist in China.
She and Wang Xiaobo met in 1977.
When Wang Xiaobo was preparing for the college entrance examination, he wrote a copy of "Green Hairy Water Monster". This Virgo conquered Li Yinhe, who was an editor at Time Magazine.
Li Yinhe was instantly impressed by the literary talent of this great talent, and she immediately took the initiative to contact Wang Xiaobo, hoping to meet his style.
The first time I saw Wang Xiaobo, which made Li Yinhe disappointed, at first glance I knew that I hadn't washed my hair for a month, wearing a crumpled suit, standing cramped at the door to greet her, Li Yinhe didn't expect that the "well-known writer" he fantasized about was so ugly, and there was no style of a famous artist.
But Wang Xiaobo fell in love with her at first sight and launched a passionate pursuit, and soon the two established a romantic relationship. But Li Yinhe's family was not satisfied with Wang Xiaobo, mainly because Wang Xiaobo was too ugly.
Wang Xiaobo is said to be "surprisingly ugly, with a face shaped like a twisted shoe." However, Wang Xiaobo only said a word to Li Yinhe, which dispelled her hesitation.
Wang Xiaobo said, "You don't look so good either. Li Yinhe listened, held the mirror, and then smiled.
As the saying goes, good-looking skin bags are the same, interesting souls are unique...
One of his favorite words: "I was twenty-one years old that day, in the golden age of my life." I have a lot of extravagant hopes. I want to love, I want to eat, and I want to turn into a half-light and half-dark cloud in the sky in an instant.
Li Yinhe is the first expert on the mainland to specialize in "sexology", after marriage she went to the United States to study for further study, and soon Wang Xiaobo also went through the accompanying procedures, and the two came to the United States to study together.
Even at home, their lives were not prosperous, but they found it even more difficult in the United States.
One day, Wang Xiaobo took out the only 50 yuan left in his pocket and said to Li Yinhe: "No, I can't go to the hotel to wash the dishes!" ”
Unexpectedly, Li Yinhe said: You are born to write books, you can create with peace of mind, rest assured, I will feed you.
In those years, Wang Xiaobo read a lot of Western philosophy, first Russell, then Western philosophy, and many "uncommon forbidden books."
He wrote Tales of the Tang Dynasty and completed a large number of the writing frameworks for the Golden Age.
Between them, just like Qian Zhong wrote "Siege of the City", Yang Dai was willing to be a concubine.
After the two returned to China, Li Yinhe became a professor at Peking University, and Wang Xiaobo was a part-time lecturer at Peking University.
Wang Xiaobo said: "My wife is a professor, and my bullshit is not." Mourning middle-aged, probably like this. ”
However, Li Yinhe has always firmly believed that Xiaobo's writing will eventually come out.
In 1991, the novel "Golden Age" won an award, with a prize of NT$250,000, and Wang Xiaobo decided to write full-time and stop doing other miscellaneous things.
But love is too beautiful, and the heavens are jealous.
On April 11, 1997, Li Yinhe was a visiting scholar in the United Kingdom, and Wang Xiaobo died of a heart attack in an apartment in Beijing at the age of 45.
When he died, there was no one around him.
Wang Xiaobo's death was very painful, and he struggled alone in the room for several hours. Wang Xiaobo's younger brother Wang Chenguang found an anomaly in the room where he died, "with his head against the wall, there were marks of teeth scraping on the wall, and there was wall ash on the ground, and he struggled for a while before he died in pain." ”
Before Wang Xiaobo's death, the "Golden Age" he immersed himself in creating was considered to be an "unpopular" work and was criticized by insiders. He once said helplessly: "There is a literary circle in this world, but I don't know where it is, and I can't get in." ”
What makes him feel most depressed is that there are many editors who praise this work and even regard it as a "masterpiece". However, in the era of sexual discoloration at that time, no one dared to help him publish.
Editor Zhao Jieping accidentally saw the original manuscript of "Golden Age" and asserted: "If this work can be published in the future, it must be an immortal work, a novel with depth, connotation and thought, and by no means frivolous." ”
Later, the editor and Wang Xiaobo pushed the tricycle to sell books, and did not sell a few copies.
Wang Xiaobo died of a heart attack, and on top of his funeral, there was no literary colleague to attend, because they were reluctant to attend the memorial service of an author who "wrote the Yellow Book".
Originally, the publishing house was still very worried about sales, but with the sudden death of Wang Xiaobo, the "Times Trilogy" also exploded, and book purchase lists from all over the country poured in like snowflakes, and luoyang paper was expensive for a while.
Wang Xiaobo's life truly embodies "loneliness before death, mourning after death". You are fortunate to witness this, a writer from the obscurity of his life, to the great pain of his death, and then to the luoyang paper is expensive today, and many of the sentences in his works have become the mantra of young people. Is this luck or misfortune? Perhaps only those who truly understand Wang Xiaobo's works will understand.
"The world is drunk and I wake up alone" This is Wang Xiaobo, Wang Xiaobo's works are also the antidote of the times, awakening people's desire for "freedom", winding paths, insight into human nature!
Reading Wang Xiaobo for the first time makes people laugh, reading it again makes people shocked, and reading it again makes people sober, this is Wang Xiaobo, a writer who remains sober in any era! If you also love to read, this trilogy must be treasured.
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Golden Age trilogy
