#每天面对一个冷暴力男人是怎样的感受? # Experience first-hand that every day is a torment, and I don't know which day I will go crazy.
We separated since last June because I just can't stand the cold violence of men, do you know what he does to me every day? I used to come back from work every day and rush to buy vegetables to cook, make a meal and wait for him to come back from work to eat together, he was more than 10 o'clock every day before he left work, and when I waited for him to come back, he lay on the couch without saying a word and played with his mobile phone to tell him to eat, he said he had eaten outside, I was suddenly angry, because I was hungry waiting for him, not coming back to eat, you said hello, and I didn't care about anything. At that time, I felt very wronged, but what can I do, people are also chosen by themselves.
Do you know why he did this to me? Just because he wants to buy goods to pull the car I do not agree, he said I do not support him, did not give him money, in fact I do not have the ability to support, I a month on our living expenses of our children's living expenses, what else is left, but he does not understand, talk to him he is silent, with cold violence.
Finally at the end of June he broke out, he complained about all my is not, I can't stand it, I ran away from home in a huff, just caught up with my job, carrying a suitcase to a friend, when there was no job and no place to live, he actually did not look for me, I helplessly found a job for half a year, in the middle we also used WeChat quarrel, he still mentioned divorce with me, and also kept mentioning divorce who paid more and how to leave and argue endlessly, that time I was almost depressed, not with friends, colleagues said, One day a friend took me out for a walk, and I suddenly figured it out a lot, I didn't think about him anymore, and then I went out for a walk as soon as I got to the weekend, and no one cared that I had to learn to heal.
Near the end of the year home for the New Year I thought I could put it down, when I saw the child's sensible and cute look, I was very afraid of divorce, I didn't know how much it hurt the child after the divorce, I was with the child every day to control my emotions and could not cry in front of the child, but her father sent me messages from time to time about the divorce. I was really in pain and very tormented, and several times the child asked my mother why you were crying, and my heart hurt even more, unspeakable pain.
Chinese New Year's Eve the day before he still came back, the expression is still as cold as ever, in the New Year's day we hardly talk, talking is I am begging him not to divorce, not for me also want to think about giving the child a complete home, but he still does not speak. On the second day of the new year, when the big people ate together and talked, they all knew that we were going to divorce and urged us to reconcile, and any dissatisfaction was said, we said it, but when he finally asked him to make a statement, he was silent again.
When I asked him alone, he actually said: "I have no feelings for me, how to get by," I was like a thunderbolt on a sunny day, I didn't know what to do, and there was only one thought in my heart that I couldn't let my child have no mother. I started crying and begging him again, but I still couldn't shake him, and I found that the more I begged him, the more he kicked his nose in the face, I didn't want to insist anymore, but I was not willing, all these years I gave everything, and the child was so sensible. The night before going to Shenzhen before leaving, we had our last interview, I compromised and said either give me the child or give me money, he said he only gave me thirty thousand you don't agree to sue, I really have nothing to say, let him sue and leave... Even if I don't have a dime to sue, I feel better.
Every night I washed my face in tears, feeling like a failure, how exactly I made a man so disgusted, how humble I had loved all these years. The more he begged him, the more insistent he was, until I arrived in Shenzhen he still sent me a message saying that he was going to sue for divorce, I would really collapse, with his poor family, plus his debt of more than 100,000 yuan to sell the car is not enough to fill the pit, the lawyer said I was too stupid, I really regret that I did not choose to get married.
What the hell am I going to do? My mother's family told me a lot of choices, but I found that none of them were satisfactory, and I was really on the verge of despair. In addition to helplessness, he can only accept the reality and wait for his summons.
Remind those who can't love only for themselves, to love themselves well, to strive to make themselves more and more excellent and stronger, and to hold the initiative in their own hands is called security.
