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I once saw a question on the Internet: When was your hardest time? How did it survive?
There is a high praise answer:
The hardest time is every painful late night and then waiting for dawn. Because the day is better, the late night is difficult...
The philosopher Thomas Carlisle said: No one who has cried bitterly in the middle of the night has no right to lament life.
From youth and innocence to maturity and stability, each of us has our own sufferings that we must endure and difficulties that we must endure.
As Zhang Ailing said: "When a person reaches middle age, he often feels lonely, because as soon as he opens his eyes, he is surrounded by people who want to rely on him, but there are no people he can rely on." ”
But after the collapse and venting, life still has to return to its original position.
The suffering and doom of adults is only self-transit.
After graduating from college, Xiaoting went to a foreign trade factory to do procurement.
Because I just graduated, there was a lot of financial pressure, and I paid three times the rent and paid it all.
The materials needed by the factory are always in a hurry, and the predecessors who take her are busy themselves, and Xiaoting is not embarrassed to always trouble others;
In order to get started quickly, overtime is the norm. Every day, Xiaoting's nerves were tight, and every night when Phi Xing Dai Yue returned to the dormitory, she didn't even have the strength to take a bath.
One day three months later, the engineer called and asked Xiaoting: I let you newly develop xx materials how come there is no news for 3 days, are you responsible for delaying the production progress?
At that moment, Xiaoting almost did not tense up, and the hand holding the phone shook very badly, and she explained to the other party without any confidence.
That night, working overtime until 12 o'clock, Xiaoting returned to the dormitory and collapsed on the bed, and the tears flowed out silently.
The next day, with red and swollen eyes, he continued to work, got the first batch of newly developed materials, and hurried to the workshop.
Back at the office, Xiaoting took a long breath and picked up the phone to continue calling the next supplier.
In the eyes of relatives, she works in the big city, has a decent job, blows air conditioning, and works nine to five, and pays a decent salary.
As everyone knows, behind this "decency", there is the tension of rent, the pressure of performance, and countless nights of inhumane crying.
Li Haofu said that the collapse of the campus era is really not a collapse To experience a workplace collapse to understand the hardships of adults.
Man, always have to grow up.
There is no easy word in the adult world.
Even if life abuses us a thousand times, when the sun rises after dawn, we must dry our tears and compete with the chai rice oil and salt in life.
My mother's good friend divorced because of a quarrel with her husband and ran to my mother.
When I checked my son's diapers in the middle of the night, I faintly heard a low sobbing sound coming from the living room. I was startled, and after listening carefully, I realized that it was my aunt who was crying. She cried carefully and suppressively, and seemed to be able to hear the sound of pounding her chest.
Faintly heard her and my mother's cries. It turned out that the aunt herself was tired and tired to run a vegetable shop, and the husband who drove a taxi for her son to go to college, usually the husband was not good at driving, often on the pretext of no business to stop and play cards; the money taken back was less and less, not to mention, and entangled with the women in the card field.
She cried for a long time, so long that I couldn't sleep in bed, so long that I almost couldn't resist pushing the door and pretending to go to the toilet to stop this crying.
But I finally didn't do it, and I lay in bed thinking a lot and seemed to understand a lot of things. No one can fully control their own life, and no one's life is completely smooth.
And adult crying is secretly carried out in the dark of night. It was as if this crying was an unseemly act.
The crying in the middle of the night at that moment was the unspeakable humiliation of the aunt, the crying and struggle that did not want people to know, the powerlessness of the husband, the guilt and miss for the son, and the unavoidable compromise of life.
The next day I got up to make milk for my son, and I heard my aunt say in a loud voice to the mobile phone, "I'll come to the store right away, the 20 pounds of cabbage you wanted were ready yesterday..." After saying hello to my mother, I left.
I couldn't help but sigh to myself. The woman who cried bitterly under the covers last night, as if she had never appeared, wiped away her tears at dawn and continued to run for her life. This effort to preserve self-esteem is poignant and admirable.
On that dark and long night, I spied on a person's sadness and helplessness, and also inadvertently bumped into another side of life:
No matter what kind of crying experienced last night, the city still wakes up in the morning; the adult world no matter how many things are experienced, how many emotional things are, no matter how big the emotions are, but the breadwinner has to live
Life is not just for yourself, but also for the people who love yourself and the people you love.
Schopenhauer said that all beings are suffering.
In the adult world, no one is easy.
Graduation can not find a job, gray face back home, facing the chaotic room, there is a bunch of unsubmitted resumes, they can not cook, looking at the few remaining mobile phone balances, not willing to eat 20 yuan of takeaway, had to buy 3 pieces of instant noodles to make a living.
Exhausted, stayed up for 3 all-night project results, the computer suddenly crashed, the document said no, it was gone...
The newborn baby has a high fever, the husband is unwilling to take leave and is reluctant to perform full attendance, but your boss lets you travel to get customers at this time...
We live in an era of rapid development, and too many dark moments may one day fall like a storm, catching you off guard and anxious.
Cai Kangyong once interviewed Jackie Chan on the show, just because he asked a question, "Are you tired of making movies?" Jackie Chan, who has always shown himself as a tough guy, cried uncontrollably for 15 minutes.
The collapse of adults, silent hard resistance. Celebrities are like this, and we ordinary people are even more so.
When you finally can't stand it and want to cry well, crying will always make people feel undignified and expose their weakness. So you can only hold on, wait until the night is quiet, the crowd recedes, borrow the cloak of the night, lie on the bed, and let the tears pour out of your face unscrupulously.
At that moment, you feel like you've used up all your strength, you have no morale, and you just want to lie flat.
At that moment, there is no need to flaunt bravery and strength, no need to show high emotional intelligence, I just want to admit it.
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The night is short, life is long.
The tears will dry and the cries will dissipate. It was dawn and we got up as usual to wash up and pack up our makeup. Continue to immerse yourself in the sea of questions, seek jobs everywhere, earn money to treat diseases, and give "Party A's father" a smiley face.
It was you who buried your head and wept last night, and it was you who was sonorous and powerful at this moment; how brave the sun rose last night, and we ushered in a new day.
The writer Wu Dongfang said: Life has never dried up because we have watered with tears. The past that pains us and makes us cry will one day become our unique treasure.
So, my dear, don't be upset about your fragile self last night, and being able to cry proves that you are unwilling and still have fighting spirit. Just dry your tears and keep going, and the night will be one point less. Survive and you can see the bright sunshine.
Believe that those who cannot defeat you will eventually make you stronger.