Little students, good evening, I haven't shared my recent situation with you for ten days, right? I've recently been caught up in an emotional storm, and the emotions that come with me every day make me intrigued and even triggered

Good evening, little student, haven't I shared my recent situation with you for ten days, right? I recently fell into an emotional storm, the emotions that came from every day, made me suffer from internal friction, and even triggered stomach problems, as well as waist pain, femur headache, knee pain, eye pain, headache, all these places that made me painful, emotions could not come out, had to let the body compensate, so the whole body was tossed by me very tired, very tired, very tired, almost can be said to be scarred, and now I am sitting on a plastic bench in my house, it is the kind of plastic bench with a little concave surface, because the concave surface is not easy to clean, So after I washed it, I laid out a gray-black courier bag on it, and it was simply fixed with tape, and I sat here, and the two cuffs were hard blocks after the mud was dried, thighs, knees, chest, abdomen, all the places within the reach of the naked eye were mud, and on my right arm was a chicken, the second born on Christmas Day last year, the eldest two days ago also died, I was in a very bad state, there was no fire in the house for a week, it was particularly cold, the cabbage in the house was frozen, So I didn't clean up and clean the body of the boss, but directly put it together with the third, it was a white, hand-grabbed cake, plastic steamed bun box, washed clean, made a small coffin for them, so to speak, is it going to feel very pretentious? It's just two chicks, but when I write the above sentence, I can't help but grieve, every life deserves to be respected, including the chicks, including myself. In the ten days when I was wrapped up in emotions, every time I was trying to suppress my desire to take my life, until today, I found that I couldn't suppress it at all, and directly broke out, it was I who began to do something that pointed to light life, ended some relationships, and also repaid the money that could be repaid first, and also thought of the books, items, donations, and gifts that I didn't use around me, and the courses I was doing now, because it still takes some time to deal with follow-up problems, just to be able to finish this season's mindfulness course. There is no going back, just like that! After writing this paragraph, I was silent for a long time, thinking of many people, but also thinking of the second, I had to send it to my neighbor's house to raise, the only one of the three chickens, I was very worried that it would not survive. In front of me, there was an electric pot that had been boiled with spicy hot pot, dirty and not yet cleaned, a handkerchief, a bottle of disinfectant gel that dried quickly, a piece of imitation fish scale rag, a pack of draws, a large box filled with 60cm mermaid dolls, a ball of yellow nylon wool, a labor protection glove, the one in the right hand, and a handkerchief that I sewed by hand, a notebook, a pen, a mobile phone charger, connected to an outlet, next to the yellow yarn, and two bags of wool, Next to the socket was a half-hooked doll sweater, next to the sweater was a lump of pink thread, in the distance was a crochet, next to the wool bag there was a table, on the table was a beret, and a bag of 12 colors of colored clay, I made a human head and a bull's head out of the colored clay yesterday, a corner of the table, with a skinny belly waist thrower, the other corner lay the body of the mermaid doll, the leg side of the mermaid doll, were scattered two half-dried black socks. Just when I was using voice to text, the second was next to me, twittering, and then the converter will convert its twitter into other words, it is very interesting, when I write about the light life of the paragraph, the chicken call of the text converter conversion is fart, at that time it made me amused, maybe everything has a spirit, such a coincidence, quite amusing. I did experience unusual things today, I experienced extraordinary things every day, maybe it was a superposition of the emotional storm of these ten days, and today it exploded. After the explosion, the things that should be handled still have to be dealt with, after dealing with things back, start writing a manuscript, with mindfulness, when mindfulness is about to end, Sister Shang asked me a question, I see your circle of friends said once and for all, I am particularly curious, how can it be done once and for all? Then I shared my unusual experience today with everyone, willing to come to me to learn mindfulness, are partners with psychological backgrounds, the last hour, is the healing they brought me, I never thought, just four sentences, can make me cry can not stop, the classmate who took me to do this exercise said that she herself is like this, she is the person who came over. I am particularly grateful, I brought this time of mindfulness course, before the end, and received two classmates to recognize me, Miao Miao said, Yu Juan, you are now doing consulting guidance more and more professional, today you do this paragraph for me, I think very good, the whole person is much lighter, XiangYao said, although I do not have such an experience as you, but I see you, is a particularly calm, powerful, generous hosting style, strong thinking logic, Mandarin is positive, the voice is good and you, you have so many advantages, the environment trapped you for a while, But you won't be stuck all the time. Today there is a video of Wu Zhihong teacher, which talks about a person called almighty narcissism, a person in the almighty narcissistic period, often very harsh on themselves, I either do not do, to do the best, a thing is difficult to do so perfect, so there is a lot of internal friction, and even others can not empower me, good words can not come in, self-criticism can not be removed, tired. So to get out of almighty narcissism, what is the other end of almighty narcissism? I feel that my knees are particularly sore now, and the second brother is crouching near my wrist, a strong twitter, presumably because I am typing and shaking my arm, it is unstable. It may also be that it has reached the point of sleep, because I am still on the light, it can not rest, the forehead also has some pain, I just typed, put the head on the edge of my house, the wood used in the kang seems to be fruit wood, after more than thirty years of use, the plate is particularly smooth, the texture is clear, the color is dark brown, there are also many injuries, strip potholes, a lot of may still be when I was bored to cut down, looking at the second is going to sleep, I should also sleep. I'll talk to you here today, little students, good night, and still wish you well.