01
When I met Xiao Wei, I was at a low point in my life.
A year ago, my husband was seriously injured in a car accident, when my son was in the third year of junior high school, and my daughter was not yet two years old.
Heaven sent a catastrophe, and I was heartbroken, and I longed to go with him. But there are old and young, and I don't even dare to shed tears for another day, bury my husband, quickly pack up my mood, and straighten up and go to work.
This year, I kept spinning like a top, just to earn a few more grains of rice, I boiled myself into an "iron lady", and I couldn't even take care of food when I was busy.
Xiao Wei appeared at this time.
That day I was replenishing energy in the bakery downstairs of the company, when a tall man walked up to my seat and stopped: "Su Yuxuan? ”
Then he sat down in the seat across from me and said I was his sister's tablemate, that I had seen me a lot as a child, and that the last time I had seen me was at his sister's wedding.
As soon as he said this, I flipped through the circle of friends at the same table, and I put the fragments of memory against himself.
After the greeting, Xiao Wei very abruptly advised me to look forward, and the days of suffering would always pass.
I guess he knew about my family affairs, so he smiled lightly, didn't say much, and looked down to stir the coffee in front of him.
He cleared his throat, how do you laugh so bitterly, you have to add more sugar to your coffee.
Later, we often met, and it turned out that their company moved upstairs to our company. I also knew some things about Xiao Wei, and I felt a little pity for the same disease.
Xiao Wei and his college girlfriend graduated 5 years later, and finally paid a down payment for a house to get married, but his girlfriend died of cancer. He was decadent for a long time before he returned to work and life, and he is still single.
His parents were anxious about his marriage, and the two years had become more and more urgent.
I also advised him: "35, it is not a small boss, you can consider a lifelong event." ”
He looked at me with a smile: "I'm getting ready to do anything... Open your mouth to confess. ”
I just got a work call, waved at him and walked away.
02
Unexpectedly, that night, I received a voice message from Xiao Wei, saying that he wanted to pursue me. I subconsciously covered my face, feeling hot.
I am running sales, the external image is not bad, and the psychological quality is also excellent. Although there is no shortage of suitors around me, I always politely refuse and laugh it off.
My husband has only been gone for a year, and I don't think about that at all, and I really don't have feelings for those people.
But I actually reacted to Xiao Wei's words, and I tried to take a deep breath, trying to smooth out the panic.
Xiao Wei sent a voice again, how to know without trying? Be my girlfriend.
The voice that came out of my heart was, no, no, no, I can't promise him, you are not suitable. You're 5 years older than him, you have kids, still two. Your family burden is too heavy, he is not married, he should find an unmarried girl.
But what I said was, let's try it.
Xiao Wei was very excited, and explained that he had arranged a program tomorrow and asked me not to go anywhere and wait for him at home.
The next Saturday, early in the morning, he called me and asked me to hang out with him, and a bunch of friends took a road trip.
I hesitated, feeling that I was not reserved enough, and I agreed to be a little rash, so I wanted to use the child's management as an excuse to push back.
My in-laws lived with me, and after my husband passed away, they have been helping me with my little daughter so that I can let go and work hard in the workplace. When they knew someone was asking me out, they encouraged me to go out and walk around, saying they would take good care of the children.
I appreciated my in-laws' open-mindedness and promised to give myself a chance. So, I dressed up a little and bravely went out.
03
Who knows, Xiao Wei's friends applauded when they saw me, it turned out that my sister was so young.
It seemed that maintenance and exercise had made me recover well, so I smiled politely at them.
Xiao Weimei opened the door of the co-driver for me and whispered when he fastened my seat belt, I was really afraid that you would not come.
A group of four cars drove to a characteristic homestay outside the city, floating empty, but also quite comfortable.
At dinner time, a group of people sat down around the rectangular table one after another, and Xiao Wei actually walked up to me with a large bouquet of roses, knelt down on one knee, and asked me if I would like to marry him?
From courtship to marriage proposal, only one day apart, this speed? But I looked into his eager eyes, and the enthusiastic booing of his friends, and accepted his flowers anyway.
He was very happy, held my hand tightly, sat next to me, and then kept picking dishes for me, pouring me drinks, and knocking the cup down and wetting my clothes.
Friends joked that he was too indifferent, he used to be a group of people serving him, I didn't expect that he would also bring tea and pour water for people...
The intensity of that night was another beauty in life.
But after returning from the trip, I completely calmed down, or solemnly said to Xiao Wei: "At that time, I promised to come down, but I just didn't want you to get off the stage in front of your friends." The reality is here that we can't get married. ”
Xiao Wei immediately assured him that he was playing the real thing, and ran to get married.
Then I can't waste his time, fortunately, it only took two days from the occurrence to the development of things, I did not delay him, he should find the right girl to fall in love and get married.
Xiao Wei clutched both of my arms with both hands, causing me to hiss in pain. There was anger and confusion in his eyes, but he finally let go of his hand and turned away, leaving me with a stubborn back.
Although I feel a little lost, I also think it is good to be scattered like this, where do I have the heart to take care of a new relationship?
04
But a week later Xiao Wei still came to me.
At that time, I was very busy, and just after returning to the office after the meeting, Xiao Wei came to knock on my door. With a flattering smile on his face, he asked me to follow him downstairs to meet his parents.
I almost dropped my jaw, what is this operation?
This is an era of reservations, right? Telling the appointment in advance is the minimum etiquette for adults to interact.
Even couples can't give surprises when they meet, let alone meet their parents! I was in class, so how could I go with him to meet his parents?
I told him not to make a fuss and talk about it after work. But he sat down on the couch and held on like a gamble, as if such a demonstration would make me go with him.
I didn't want to argue with him, so I simply ignored him. The assistant came in and out of me several times to sign the documents, and each time secretly glanced at him.
I think this is not the way, you can't leave Xiao Wei's parents hanging with him, even if you leave aside your feelings with him, his parents are elders no matter how they say.
I coaxed Xiao Wei and took him out of the company, telling him that I was really busy and didn't have any thoughts to prepare to meet his parents. He asked rhetorically, am I so unpopular with you? Obviously very hurt.
I was afraid that the scene would get out of control, so I reassured him and asked him to explain to his parents first, saying that I was on a business trip, and we would talk about other things after work.
Seeing that I didn't say anything, he entered the elevator with confidence.
After Xiao Wei left, I was thinking about how to deal with this matter. Obviously he had no intention of abandoning me, and should have done a lot of work for his parents, otherwise he would not have invited them to come and see me.
After thinking about it, I went to buy gifts and went to his house with Xiao Wei after work. The haze on his face disappeared suddenly, and his eyes were thin with a smile.
For me to come to the door with a gift to apologize, Xiao Wei's parents behaved very decently, politely saying that they all understood my situation. They said that since Xiao Wei liked me, they didn't stop me, but they just hoped that I would marry Xiao Wei as soon as possible and prepare for another child.
I just came to apologize, but I didn't expect the Xiao family's parents to bring the topic to marriage and to having children, which really exceeded my expectations.
I want to tell them directly that I really have no intention of getting married. But looking at Xiao Wei desperately trying to make me look at me, I swallowed the words back into my stomach and sat down for a while to get up and say goodbye.
05
Before getting into the car, I told Xiao Wei again that we were not suitable, and it was impossible to talk about getting married and having children.
But as soon as he took me into his arms, he held me so silently that I was upset until my heart was soft and surrendered.
Those words that pushed him out, I couldn't bear to say them anymore. So they agreed to talk first, and even if they got married, they would have to wait until my son went to college.
He said lightly that he could afford to wait.
But the year after that, he still mentioned marriage to me at the first opportunity, hoping that I would not let him wait that long.
He has a home, a car, a job and a part-time job, but I know that falling in love and getting married are two different things. I couldn't marry him categorically, in other words, I didn't believe he could really accept it and afford to live with him in drag.
At the end of the year, I traveled to a city 200 kilometers away, and it took me seven days to clear the previous contract with the local agent. After the manager of the company's finance department replied that the reconciled receivables had been received, I returned to the hotel with confidence.
Tired and paralyzed, I fell asleep on my head, and when I woke up hungry, I wrapped up a coat and wandered out to eat a late night snack, and I didn't expect to see Xiao Wei in the lobby of the hotel.
He carried a large bag of things, said it was all my favorite snacks and snacks, and said that he would arrive in the afternoon, and when he saw me on the elevator with a tired look, he didn't bother me. He guessed correctly, I really slept from dawn to dark.
Listening to him talk about this, a layer of water mist blinded my eyes, and I knew I didn't want to miss him. I coveted his youth, his concern, his waiting, his shoulders to lean on.
Although our reality is separated by a big gap, but so what? We were in perfect harmony together, from body to heart.
06
I was sweet here, but just arrived home I received a call from the teacher, saying that my son did not want to study, it should be a little stressful to just enter high school, let us do a good job of psychological counseling for parents.
My son was at the top of my life, and I was naturally anxious.
It was Xiao Wei who accompanied me to school to pick up my son. My son's body was already stretched, one head above mine, but at this moment he shrugged and begged me to take him out of school.
I was so distressed that I agreed to him. But the high school curriculum is very tight, I don't want him to fall behind too much to make up, so I first discussed with him that we should take a few days off first, and I still hope that he will quickly recover his combat strength and go back to school, but I am worried that he will resist and do stupid things, so the whole person is restless.
Xiao Wei asked me not to be too anxious, and also took a leave of absence, and then drove our mother and son to let the wind out.
When the five days were over, my son told me that he tried to go back to class, and if it still didn't work, I hoped I wouldn't blame him.
It was already a good sign that he could propose to go back to school. I suppressed the joy in my heart, reached out and held my son's face, and promised him that my mother would wait for him outside the school and let him not be afraid.
Fortunately, my son did not come out after entering the school, and I fell on the steering wheel and buried my head and cried.
My son later told me that he listened to Xiao Wei's words, high school learning and playing games is almost the same, that is, to upgrade and fight monsters, do not exaggerate the strength of others, do not fear that you can't do it, it is a grandfather who has passed this level. He thought he had to be a grandfather.
This added another point to my recognition of Xiao Wei, although he did not have children, but he had a good way of dealing with children.
It's different to have such a man around me, and I wish he had stayed with me all the time.
07
When Xiao Wei mentioned the marriage to me again, I was overwhelmed and asked him to arrange a time to take him to see his parents.
Xiao Wei smiled at the corner of his mouth: "I will have a son and a daughter immediately after I get married, and thinking about it is like dreaming." ”
And I felt like my dream was waking up.
On the twenty-third day of the lunar month, Xiao Nian, on my birthday, Xiao Wei came to the door as promised.
I introduced my parents and ex-in-laws to him, and he seemed calm, but it was clear that his whole being was dimming little by little.
I knew it was always coming.
Although we had been dating for more than a year, I never let him come to my house.
My husband was accidentally killed, and before he swallowed his last breath, he looked at me and the two children, big and small, and tried to raise his finger to his parents. I understood what he meant, so I nodded desperately. We all got along well under the same roof for many years, and I didn't want to leave any of us alone.
After the loss of my only son, my mother-in-law's health deteriorated, but I still lived with my children with them, which gave them great comfort. They also recognized me as a daughter, but often guiltily said that they were dragging me down.
If you are a relative, why drag it down? I was willing to do so.
I adopted them as parents, and they will live with me for a hundred years, and that will not change now.
After three days, Xiao Wei tentatively asked me, can I move out and live with him? If I had been living with my ex-in-laws, I hadn't forgotten my husband at all. He could compromise on everything else, except that he couldn't, not wanting to live in the shadow of another man.
I know that sooner or later there will be such a day, so after taking a deep breath, I happily returned to him, Xiao Wei, let's break up.
08
In fact, as Xiao Wei said, he is a compromise attitude in many things. Man has always been the most fickle animal, and temporary compromise is instinctive, and where compromise there is a time limit.
When they were dating, Xiao Wei heard that I didn't want to have any more children and he promised not to. But for the Parents of the Xiao Family, looking forward to a daughter-in-law, how can they not look forward to their grandchildren?
Xiao Wei temporarily compromised not to have children in order to get married, and it was difficult to ensure that he would not regret it after marriage, because men rarely did not want to have their own offspring. After all, my two children are mine now, and they are also mine and my husband's.
Xiao Wei finally couldn't compromise on the fact that I would always live with my ex-in-laws, and he said that my husband's shadow was over. In fact, as long as he thinks so, my children and I can be regarded as the shadow of our husbands.
I've been watching the fire for a long time, but I've been stalling for time, because I covet Xiao Wei's kindness to me. After my husband left, I was alone in this society, looking up at all the people who depended on me, and I also wanted to grab a person and lean on it. I hesitated to let go of Xiao Wei too soon, but I still didn't want to.
Some people are destined to accompany them for a journey, and Xiao Wei and I are.
Two years later, my son was admitted to college, and we entertained our guests at the hotel.
So coincidentally, I saw Xiao Wei and his bride at the door of the hotel next to me, receiving blessings from relatives and friends with a happy face.
Originally, I wanted to give Xiao Wei a big red envelope and wish him a good hand, but after thinking about it, I still gave up. It's not that I don't want money, but I don't want to add chaos to his life.
After the breakup, we became friends back and interacted as lightly as water.
Xiao Wei had asked me to be sure to attend his wedding. However, I didn't go and he didn't call me again and give me messages.
I know I'm not going right because we're all pragmatic adults.