#Impressions #—New Year 2 do things love to desert, some feelings are actually not worth recording thinking about becoming their partners or want to record 2022, away from Ben Four and one step further, should be more and more

#Reflections # — New Year 2

Doing things likes to desert, some feelings are actually not worth recording

Thinking about becoming your partner or wanting to record

In 2022, it is a step closer to Ben Si, and it should be more and more confused, but I am still confused, there will still be confusion, but I still feel that I am growing every day, and I feel that I am really a little old at a certain moment

1, before Grandpa was healthy, the New Year was very different from this year, six children often gathered together, Grandpa was ready to eat early, I thought silently about those grandfathers solid, sincerely, when Grandpa took porridge alone, meat on the side of the grandpa where they ate silently, to me constantly said that the baby is not interesting, encourage and comfort Grandpa, the mood in my heart is really mixed, and I suppressed the tears.

2, sometimes the kindness, in fact, is your own kindness, with the mother, the second widow, the neighbor roasting fire chat until twelve o'clock in the evening, I also know that I was kind to let my mother to take care of bao Bao seems quite ridiculous, but also let the mother be wronged. In-laws, mother-in-law her own sister does not take care of, they are really smart people among smart people...

3, the jealousy between relatives, the heart of comparison, I am always kind enough to tell relatives and friends to remember to buy at least HuiRong insurance, how to consider buying a house, which financial products to choose... Haha, it turns out that my kindness is also a joke in their eyes, no wonder Brother Lin often says that I am too enthusiastic. In fact, I always advise myself to be nosy but I can't do it.

4, their own family affairs, not too tired to take care of the body and how to make more money, do a good job of financial planning, child education funds, the elderly and even our various expenses. It is especially important to invest in financial management, run the family well, and have a relaxed mentality. (Reading some related books in the New Year is still somewhat rewarding)

5, junior high school particularly good classmates contacted, they partyed, there are also high school classmates Zhejiang back to about. No interest, even if you think that the friendship is so deep that you miss the old and care more, it is just your own feelings, things are not human, some feelings have no return, in addition to the family, a few relatives of the main second widow, grandfather, girlfriend three or four, brother three or four, other just like that, some can actually be strange to the point that there is no Weibo sisters let me worry.

I remember that the class day began from reading, almost twenty years of class leader that day repeatedly said that it was extremely moving, there is no second friend so, people and things worth caring about, there are really not many, affectionate and long-term really make themselves incredible. For example, buying milk cereal for the second grandfather, buying clothes every year, every time they go back to give them money, they keep sighing, they don't say that I have forgotten for so long. But for example, the second widow grandfather was so good to me, back to my hometown, my grandfather was not in good health, and he also went to buy duck eggs for us to be late, at that time, he thought that there was no grandfather busy preparing specialties for us after he was busy, and he did not have the heart to bring it, this year we returned to Chengdu with nothing. In the past, Bao Ye was there, and Bao Ye would also prepare various kinds for us.

6, how in the city, complex world, sober and self-conscious, do not lose yourself, Goujia Bay leek land next to me alone to hold an umbrella to see a large area of land, think for a while, but also have to say that as an ordinary person, what can you change? Nothing can be done, how much ability do you have, can only say that you can do your best, the times, understand the times, follow the times, the influence of the times is subtle, huge, that day the library read some such as "Deng Xiaoping's Collected Works", the great achievements of history, they created the times. A mediocre person like me, can understand the times one or two, follow the times to live their own lives is already remarkable, can be in a chicken feather, trivial and bitter life, through the problem to see the essence, constantly looking for some ordinary happiness, try to do some insignificant public welfare is already the greatest respect and effort for their own lives.

Simple and simple, full and happy life is enough. And time and thinking to become friends, other people and things, love to the best of love, the rest are done subtracting.

Confidants in life, especially soul confidants, don't look for them, there are many in books that are enough. That day, I read Shen Congwen's prose again, haha felt that a lot of Old Shen's thoughts were like me. Looking at the experience of a hundred years of loneliness written by others, I also found that some people feel the same feelings as me and feel wonderful.