#越追求和父母和解, the more painful # did too long to be a good child my middle-aged rebellion after I gave birth to a son at the age of 30+ the wave of the general came the first target is myself

#越追求和父母和解, the more painful #

Have been a good kid for too long

My middle-aged rebellion was after I gave birth to my son

At the age of 30+

The waves are coming

The first target is their own parents

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I watched my parents as a child

Always with adoration

But then it was discovered that they were cognitively and behaviorally

Has its own limitations

Love for yourself is not so pure

There are so many damages at the same time

A lot of times it's called being good for me

Sometimes it really hurts me

But the harm caused by rebellion

It is often eight hundred self-inflicted wounds of a thousand

It is also understood that adults then blame the original family for the injury

Itself is a manifestation of immaturity

So he began to pursue reconciliation with his parents

I hope my parents can give themselves a word of sorry

I also imagined a warm picture of loving my parents in my mind

And understand this as reconciliation with parents

This road has been a long walk

It was also painful to walk

Because with anticipation

Always want parents to see

And be able to embrace the heart

The little girl who wasn't so loved and satisfied

A lot of effort was done

There have been quarrels and quarrels

There have been bowing heads and communicating

But discovery is always in vain

There was finally a big outbreak last year

That time I put so many years of disappointment in my parents

Tears, anger and grievances poured out

I thought my mother would be able to see that

But I didn't expect my mother to cry more fiercely than I did

While crying, he also blamed

Count the bad things I've done to her

So the two-way rush that was originally expected

Unexpectedly, it turned into a more tragic crying scene than anyone else

Both people long to be seen and recognized

But they all turned into accusations and complaints against each other

Love and kill each other

But after the disappointment of that day

I suddenly understood a truth

What is reconciliation with parents?

Does reconciliation mean that you have to love your parents?

Is there another interpretation

That is

Parents really can't love themselves as much as we think

Their love is with hurt

After no longer pursuing reconciliation with parents who love each other

I was suddenly relieved

There may be a reconciliation

It's about loving and killing each other

Suddenly understood

In fact, reconciliation itself says

Not a relationship with someone else

It's reconciliation between yourself and yourself

No more requests

Just to accept

When accepting the interpretation of this settlement

I found myself much more relaxed

Originally

Healing is never given by others

It is the gentleness and strength that grows inward by oneself