The first half of life floats in the sun, and the second half of life sinks in the darkness.
In 2009, the sixty-year-old Sheng Hailin waited for her daughter to come home as usual, who knew that a phone call made the mother of the flower armor collapse in an instant: your daughter Tingting died unexpectedly.
1. Daughter
Sheng Hailin, born in 1949 in a military family, was influenced by her family from childhood to adulthood, and this girl also had the temperament and morality of a soldier.
After graduating from high school, she did not continue her studies, but joined the army for training, where she felt the freedom and glory of life.
In her twenties, the leaders found that she loved medicine very much, so they let her enter the school system to study this subject, paving the way for her future life.
Sheng Hailin thus reached the age of 28, in this year she met Wang Lingfeng, who was also from the military, and the two fell in love at first sight and soon had a marriage contract.
In the days that followed, Sheng Hailin worked in the hospital to care for patients. And her husband Wang Lingfeng is a college teacher, so the life of a male cultivator and a female weaver makes the two very satisfied, and the only flaw is that there are no children.
In September 1979, Sheng Hailin went to the hospital to check and found that she was finally pregnant, the arrival of the child made her feel that her life had reached a new stage, she was happy to inform her husband, the two people actively learned the knowledge of young children, in preparation for the upcoming little life.
8 months later, the daughter Tingting was born under the loving eyes of two people, for this daughter, Sheng Hailin can be said to have taken a half life, but she has no complaints, as a mother, this is an honor.
The daughter is the only source of happiness for the two people, once Tingting said that she liked music, Sheng Hailin spent a lot of money to buy a piano, as far as possible to give her the final education.
What parents can give for their children is shocking, as long as the children are doing well, even if they do not get anything in return in the future, they will resolutely do so.
Fortunately, Tingting did not live up to the expectations of the two old people, from childhood to adulthood, she was very smart, and she did not delay in learning, everything was the appearance of "someone else's daughter".
After graduating from university, Tingting entered a library and later met her husband Xiaojiang through the introduction of others.
The family status of the two families is much different, and Sheng Hailin did not agree to the marriage of the two people at first, but the man's daughter liked a person, and with the idea that as long as the daughter lived well, the two old men still agreed.
After getting married, Tingting's relationship with Xiaojiang has been very good, and in 2009, Sheng Hailin reached the age of 60 and officially retired from the hospital, and then it was time to enjoy the joy of heaven.
In the eyes of the elderly, the happiest thing is to see the children's family harmony, after having grandchildren can help with children, such an ordinary life is full of peace and tranquility.
However, bad luck still came, on the fifth day of the first month of this year, Tingting and Xiao Jiang returned to their hometown for the New Year, both of them were poisoned by gas, and before they could enjoy the life after that, they left in a hurry.
At this moment, Sheng Hailin was still waiting for her daughter's return, who knew that a phone call had made her life suddenly meaningless.
After receiving the news, Sheng Hailin fell into a dream at that moment, the sky was spinning, her mouth was shaking, and a few seconds later she asked in a tone that was almost fatal: Is it really my child? Is it Tingting? Could it be that the name is wrong?
The other end of the phone urged: Yes, yes, please hurry up and go through the formalities.
Perhaps too sad, Sheng Hailin suddenly fainted out of breath, and when she got up from the hospital bed, she thought she had just had a dream.
It wasn't until she saw her husband's expression that she realized it was all true.
My daughter is dead, and I don't even have time to say goodbye to her, and then look at her smiling face.
The little bits and pieces of her daughter's childhood from childhood to adulthood were suddenly like a marquee, playing one scene after another in Sheng Hailin's mind.
With the disillusionment of another family, Xiao Jiang's parents cried: We are also a son!
Second, parting
When the cold daughter kissed her hands, a kind of pain and reluctance that she had never felt before struck Sheng Hailin, and she felt that the merciless doom blew through everything, and everything was cold, only her own heart still had residual warmth.
For the next few days, Sheng Hailin could only curl up on the bed motionless, and her consciousness was also groggy, as long as she was slightly awake, she would think of her daughter's appearance in front of her.
According to the survey of relevant personnel, the house where the two children lived was not well ventilated, and the kitchen was sandwiched between the two rooms.
The two men cooked and bathed, and the gas was poured into the second bedroom, and they did not even notice that they were suffocating.
Whenever I think of this, the words described become a scene, and Sheng Hailin, who has collapsed, can't stop crying.
She repeatedly looked at photos of her daughter's birth, trying to find evidence that her daughter was still in a trance.
It wasn't long before Sheng Hailin was relieved from her grief, and at the same time she had a bold idea in her mind: another daughter!
Sheng Hailin's husband was frightened, he thought that his wife thought that the pain was excessive, causing mental problems, but Sheng Hailin always insisted on this statement, and his mind was very clear.
But after all, it is already 60 years old, natural fertility is impossible, and when she first gave birth to Tingting, Sheng Hailin still fell ill.
There is no way but to adopt one child.
She asked many relatives one after another to see if they had any stepchildren, but now that life is rich, who will give up their children fiercely.
Then Sheng Hailin asked many orphanages, and the other party replied that the healthy children had been adopted.
The 60-year-old mother once again fell into the bottom, and after much thought, she suddenly thought: Since science and technology are so developed now, and I am a doctor, why not use technology to regenerate another child?
This "ridiculous" idea at the time cheered Sheng Hailin up, she found many hospitals, actively communicated her ideas, but they were rejected.
Sheng Hailin's age is too old, and the conditions in all aspects are not available, and she cannot afford to consume physical strength alone.
No one can shake the obsession of a mother, Sheng Hailin did not give up, she analyzed the preparation required for childbirth, thinking that she has medical knowledge, as long as the care is done at all stages, there will be no such big problems at all.
But the doctors still unanimously replied: even if you don't want to die, the children born are born with weak constitutions, and the survival rate is too low!
Sheng Hailin did not believe it, after several turns, she found the hospital that delivered her, and she promised that she would take all the responsibility and would not implicate the hospital in anything that happened.
Under her repeated soft and hard bubbles, the hospital reluctantly agreed, provided that as long as there was an accident, it would end immediately.
Third, miracles
After the hospital promised her, Sheng Hailin entered the preparation stage, she first confirmed the risks of all stages with the doctor, and then exercised according to the actual situation.
In the next five months, Sheng Hailin has been supplementing with appropriate nutrition and exercising regularly, which has reached the qualification of doing test tubes.
At this moment, she put all her energy into childbirth, and did not consider the problems faced by the child after birth.
Undoubtedly, after the operation, Sheng Hailin suffered a lot of diseases, and even made her insomnia all night, for an elderly person, a few days can not sleep and collapsed.
Fortunately, after the help of the doctor, it was stabilized and the fetus was successfully saved.
On May 25, 2010, Shen Hailing finally gave birth to two twin daughters after difficulties and obstacles.
Due to the particularity of the situation, the two children were admitted to the intensive care unit as soon as they were born, and the nursing fee reached 200,000 yuan in just a few days.
This is not counting the future cultivation costs, because Sheng Hailin is weak, and it is unlikely to take care of it while making money, so she can only find a sister-in-law to take care of it, and she has to pay double money.
At this time, Sheng Hailin knew how difficult it was to raise two children, at first she thought that with her and her husband's half-life savings and a monthly retirement fee of more than 10,000 yuan, who knew that the reality was so cruel that it was not enough.
Fortunately, Sheng Hailin's story of having a child at an advanced age has been widely disseminated, and many media have invited her to give relevant speeches across the country, and the remuneration is very impressive.
In addition, because Sheng Hailin herself is a doctor, there are many medical institutions that ask her for training and also run everywhere.
Although income has risen exponentially, Sheng Hailin runs around 200 days a year, 365 days a year, and you can imagine how difficult it is for an old man.
During this period, she could only ask one sister-in-law after another to take care of two children, and once, a month's sister-in-law was incompetent, and only told Sheng Hailin a long time after the child had been ill, which frightened her to take the opportunity to go home immediately to stabilize the child's situation.
Whenever she was too tired to stand up, when she thought of the smiling faces of the two children, she felt that Tingting had returned, and she would pick up her spirits and rush to the next speech.
At the same time, Sheng Hailin did not neglect the cultivation of children, piano, dance, flute, swimming, cooking, any child interested in it did not fall.
In 2016, her husband unfortunately suffered a stroke and was paralyzed in bed, which aggravated the pressure on Sheng Hailin, who pushed off a lot of speeches and went home to take care of her relatives.
Waiting for the child to grow up slowly, the pressure of society is also coming, whenever Sheng Hailin goes to school, others will cast a strange look: Why is your mother so old?
Who knew that the two children did not have the slightest timidity, nor did they have privacy depression, but said: Although my mother is old, she is very beautiful. This made Sheng Hailin's heart very moved.
Life will continue, Sheng Hailin has become the pillar of the family, the child peed her pants at night, she needs to get up immediately to replace them; the same is true of her wife who wets her pants.
Coupled with the shortness of various parents, it has long exceeded the limit of Sheng Hailin's endurance, but she has never given up on the idea.
Whenever he looked at his wife's sad look, Sheng Hailin's husband would stop crying and feel remorse for his illness.
In 2019, her daughter also had a serious illness, and the hospital issued a critical illness notice, which made Sheng Hailin's heart like a knife, thinking that she would have to experience the pain of a white-haired person sending a black-haired person at this age.
Later, in an interview with reporters, she said: I regret it, if there is a chance to choose again, I will not want it again.
After ten years of work, Sheng Hailin has saved more than 7 million yuan, and she said that this money is left for her children's examinations, and it will not be a problem until graduate school.
The two daughters are also smart and cute, not worse than other children, which makes the tired Sheng Hailin have some relief.
Now, 11 years have passed, the two children are 11 years old, Sheng Hailin is 71 years old, and whenever the night is quiet, she will reflect on the past and wonder if she is too paranoid.
Thinking that if she didn't have these two children, she would have no hope now, which made her back chill even more.
She didn't dare to think about what to do with her child after she lost it, she just wanted to live a few more years and watch her child grow.
summary
For Sheng Hailin, the Internet is full of various voices, some people praise her as a great mother, and some people think that she has hurt two children.
However, as outsiders, we should respect everyone's ideas.
When Sheng Hailin lost her daughter, no one but herself could empathize.
Her obsession with her daughter has created a miracle and left herself a way out.
Although she is older, I hope that the rest of her life will be happy for a long time, and there will be no more twists and turns.