01: More than twenty years ago, Shi Yuan was excellent and luminous
The Shi Yuan in Gu Qingyu's memory is "sparkling".
Wearing a white shirt all year round, a pair of thin-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose, thin and tall, unspeakable bookish atmosphere.
Excellent grades, but not nerdy.
He speaks fluent and standard English, as well as Russian and Japanese. Even the piano is extremely easy to play. At first glance, it is the children of "big families".
His great-grandfather was a government official during the Republic of China period, and his grandfather was a businessman with a good family background.
The cultural heritage that should be there and the economic foundation that should be had were not lacking in Shi Yuan at that time.
The children raised in such an environment are almost the most outstanding beings among their peers.
What is fatal is that Shi Yuan is not only excellent in himself, but also has a good family lineage, and even treats people and things, which is a rare and appropriate.
If you have to use any words to describe it, it must be the light and the moon, right?
Such a boy is naturally secretly crushed by girls. And Gu Qingyu at that time was attracted to Shi Yuan in this way.
This attraction has been placed on the tip of the heart for more than twenty years.
At that time, Gu Qingyu and Shi Yuan were excellent to each other, and the young boys and girls were the age when the love sinus first opened.
They both have a good feeling for each other, but they are still young, and love is like a new seed that has broken ground. They carefully placed it in their hearts and protected it.
The hazy layer of window paper, the two did not dare to poke, nor could they bear to puncture.
Tacitly falling in love with each other, it is probably shi yuan and Gu Qingyu who were the most proud of their youth, and the sweetest little luck, right?
But this youthful love, before it could blossom, was interrupted.
Twelve-year-old Shi Yuan was picked up by his parents and left Shanghai. At that time, the young man's heart was full of confidence in himself and the future.
Even if he went far to the remote northwest, he was full of ambition and full of spirit. Looking at Shanghai and looking at Fudan University is like a thing in the bag.
Shi Yuan at that time was really too good. And has been taken care of by fate, this strength, this confidence, let him have no worries about the future.
But his self-confidence, his pride, was immediately wrapped up in fate. Falling from the sky into the gutter is only a few years of effort.
Shi Yuan's sixteen-year-old was desperate.
Grandma died, uncle went to Africa, as a hometown of Shanghai, no one can receive Shi Yuan.
But at the age of eighteen, he was even more desperate. His fate also took a sharp turn at this time. A few sleeping pills from his mother made him lose touch with Fudan.
From then on, life is even more to the end.
A Shi Yuan, who had the dream of a famous school, in the end, actually went to secondary school. All this seems to be a shameless joke made by fate.
The failure of the college entrance examination shattered many of Shi Yuan's dreams, including the love seed that he and Gu Qingyu sprouted for a long time, but never waited for the flowering seed.
Shi Yuan and the Shi family have been going downhill, swirling in the muddy water. And Gu Qingyu, the Gu family, has always been taken care of by fate.
There are spacious houses, there are savings, and there is decent social status. In the face of such Gu Qingyu, where does Shi Yuan have the courage and courage to fulfill his original promise?
Not appearing in front of her, not letting her discover her own downfall, let Gu Qingyu's heart still remember the Shi Yuan of the former glory and the moon.
I'm afraid that Shi Yuan is the only thing he can do, and the only thing he wants to do, right?
02: The reunion of Shi Yuan and Gu Qingyu is a mistake and a joke at the mercy of fate
Shi Yuan never thought that there would be a reunion day with Gu Qingyu.
The hesitation of fate and the oppression of life made Shi Yuan go farther and farther away from the former Shi Yuan.
Gu Qingyu, who was placed in his heart, had become a distant dream that he could not hope for.
And Gu Qingyu?
In the more than twenty years that Shi Yuan disappeared, she went to a prestigious university and entered a well-known enterprise, and the people she met were like carps crossing the river, and the people who chased her were the successors of the former servants.
But the person in front of you, no matter how good, no matter how appropriate, compared with the person in your heart, it is always a little bit interesting.
"I've seen the best people, and whoever I look back at is probably a landscape." This loss made the excellent Gu Qingyu single until the age of thirty-six.
She followed the appearance of the teenager Shi Yuan and looked for a boyfriend.
But what's the use of being like that? In the end, it is not the source of shi.
So for so many years, Gu Qingyu has been keen to find a "white shirt" boyfriend, but half of it, and broke up without warning.
Although she didn't say anything on her lips, she clearly dug up a place in her heart for Shi Yuan.
What's more, she also had the luxury of hoping that just like Eason Chan said in the lyrics, Shi Yuanneng suddenly appeared on the street corner.
The beauty of the young Shi Yuan has made Gu Qingyu remember for more than twenty years. Under the impact of the years, not only has it not faded, but it has become more and more vivid.
Gu Qingyu can't put it down here, it's "except for Wushan is not a cloud." Shi Yuan, on the other hand, was an almost desperate "confession of destiny."
One wanted to see, one hid from seeing, and no one expected that the two people who had missed more than twenty years would reunite in that unbearable scene.
The arrangement of fate caught them off guard.
Gu Qingyu's eyes were full of shock and disbelief. There are doubts, there are disappointments, and there is a little anger that I have not been able to detect.
And Shi Yuan?
Every pore of his, every movement, was shouting at his confusion and uneasiness. The disappointment in Gu Qingyu's eyes made him even more eager to escape immediately.
Only by truly understanding Shi Yuan's embarrassment could he fully appreciate the despair of pulling Gu Qingyu out.
Such a reunion is really terrible.
In the face of Shi Yuan twenty years later, Gu Qingyu's first reaction was "collapsed house". But disappointment is disappointment, after all, it is the white moonlight that has been placed in the heart for so many years.
Where can I say to let go, I will let go?
At this time, Gu Qingyu was contradictory, on the one hand, she could not accept the fact that the current Shi Yuan "no longer glowed", and on the other hand, she could not "eliminate" the Shi Yuan in her heart.
In the struggle, she still held out her hand to the frustrated Shi Yuan. Gu Qingyu's "no abandonment" made Shi Yuan, who was trapped in the mire, seem to see the dawn that had been missing for a long time.
An unbelief, unclear, like a dream of love in the girlhood.
The other is full of joy, full of gratitude, and more full of expectations for a new life. So two people got a marriage license.
Can this marriage be happy?
Disillusionment is inevitable.
After marriage, Gu Qingyu forced himself to accept the shiyuan that no longer shone, forced to accept his downfall and embarrassment, and forced himself to accept the less decent Shi family's parents.
The more she was so compulsive, the more far-fetched she became.
In front of Shi Yuan, in front of the Shi family's parents, Gu Qingyu is like an actor who plays with a script. It looks perfect, but there is a hint of "fake" everywhere.
No matter how hard Gu Qingyu tried, he still couldn't accept the current Shi Yuan, couldn't he?
Without her own being aware of it, Gu Qingyu had been trying to slowly "transform" the Shi Yuan in front of her into the previous Shi Yuan.
And Shi Yuan also reacted at this time, Gu Qingyu liked and remembered, and it was always the self who would shine when walking in the crowd before.
This feeling of powerlessness made Shi Yuan fall into a deep despair.
In order not to let Gu Qingyu "more disappointed", he could only straighten his waist in front of Gu Qingyu to the greatest extent.
The property before marriage is fair, and after marriage, he does not reach out to her, which is the only "decent" that Shi Yuan has left in front of Gu Qingyu.
03: "Stealing Gu Qingyu's plan for half a million", Shi Yuan's behavior completely crushed their marriage
In the eyes of many people, Shi Yuan's excessive self-esteem in front of Gu Qingyu is the same as that of his mother.
But have you found that Shi Yuan can only be so arrogant about self-esteem in front of Gu Qingyu?
Shi Yuan worked as a tour guide in order to live, and endured insults from tourists. When married, endure the double condemnation of conscience and morality.
When the wedding celebrant, "jumping" like a beam-jumping clown on the stage. As a training course teacher, he knew that Boss Shi had arranged a "fake diploma" for him, but he still chose to be silent.
In the face of life, Shi Yuan's self-esteem has long been consumed by reality.
His self-esteem, in front of others, can be given up for income. But why, in front of Gu Qingyu, should it be so true?
Others forced their debts to the door, but he still gritted his teeth and did not reach out to Gu Qingyu.
Why?
There are probably two reasons for this.
In Shi Yuan's view, Gu Qingyu was the "Spiritual Pure Land" in his heart, the green onion fantasy of his youth.
His other dreams, his self-esteem, under the pressure of fate, had been thrown to pieces. Gu Qingyu here is already his last insistence.
If even this self-esteem is gone, then the source of the past, the metaphysical persistence of the past, will become a ridiculous bubble.
The other is that Shi Yuan knows what Gu Qingyu likes Shi Yuan.
He couldn't restore a past source to him, he could only let his current self as much as possible, and not let her down too much.
Even if it is necessary to use lies, even if it is necessary to do something against his conscience, he will not hesitate.
Understanding this layer, and then looking at Shi Yuan's behavior of stealing Gu Qingyu's plan for half a million, is it a bit clear?
The debt collection over there urged Shi Mother to have a heart attack, and here Shi Yuan desperately wanted to save the marriage and did not want to disappoint Gu Qingyu.
He would promise Gu Qingyu to steal the plan from home, which was really not surprising at all. Life has forced him into a corner, and marriage has forced him into a corner.
No matter how you choose, there will be a loss.
He could only minimize the damage.
Asking Gu Qingyu not to tell Gu Qingyu about his despicable deeds was already Shi Yuan's most humble prayer.
But what Shi Yuan didn't know was that Gu Qingyu had installed surveillance at home, and his theft of the plan would be clearly visible in the surveillance.
The marriage he was trying to maintain was about to collapse in an instant.