01
I became pregnant when I was 18 years old, and the child's father was a boyfriend I met in the factory.
At that time, I only felt that love was very beautiful, someone cared, there was a feeling of being pampered, and at the request of my boyfriend, I quickly developed an intimate relationship with him.
I didn't know how to do contraception, and in less than half a year, I accidentally found out that I was pregnant, and I only remember knowing that I was scared when I was pregnant.
After my boyfriend found out, he decided to let me give birth.
Because we were not old enough to get a marriage license, he and I only set up a few tables at his house to get married.
After I got married, I lived in his house, quit my job in the factory, and his mother came to take care of me.
It can only be said that at that time, I was still young, still very naïve, never considered my own life, and I was pregnant with a child and married in a vacuum.
02
During my pregnancy, my boyfriend often ignored me and often did not even return home.
I couldn't stand being in love until I was pregnant, his attitude towards me changed so much, and the gap in my heart made me constantly argue with him.
He was also impatient with me and tried to insult me, push and shove me, the worst of which was when I was seven months pregnant and I had an argument with him and he pushed me down the second floor.
Fortunately, I pulled on the armrest, only to twist my ankle.
At that moment, I was desperate for this person, and since then, I have wanted to leave this home countless times.
Later, I successfully gave birth to a daughter.
I could tell they weren't happy with me, what they wanted was a son.
03
In those years, in addition to my daughter, my life brought me a little joy, and other times, it seemed to me to be gray.
I thought that my whole life would pass like this, and if I brought up my daughter, I might be better in the future.
He and I have never had a marriage license, although we always quarrel, but I have never left, maybe people have been in an environment for a long time, and it takes courage to leave.
Until one time, he was drunk, not only saying that I gave birth to money-losing goods, but also saying that he had a woman outside.
I angrily asked him if he was telling the truth or nonsense, and he saw that I resisted and moved his hands on me, and my daughter was even more frightened and crying next to me.
And he raised a slap and hit his daughter.
At that moment, I couldn't stand it anymore, I could do anything to me, but my daughter was my life, and I would never allow my daughter to be bullied.
After a sleepless night, I decided to leave with my daughter.
The next day, he did not stop in the slightest, but instead sneered and said, you are such a second-hand goods with money-losing goods, who wants you, where can you go.
04
After a few days of wandering, I found my aunt in the city, stayed at her house temporarily, and asked her to help find a job.
Later, under the introduction of my sister-in-law, I started to do domestic work.
In the beginning, I worked part-time jobs, and although I didn't make much money, I was hardworking and many employers had a good impression of me.
Because the children were not brought with me, I could only take them with me when I was doing part-time work.
But I was also worried that other people would mind, so I always let the child stand outside the door waiting for me, and sometimes, some employers were very nice and would let the children sit in the house.
Although this job is tiring, I am satisfied to be able to take care of my children at the same time.
Maybe it really is in response to that sentence, the early birds have worms to eat.
Because I was serious and willing to do it, one employer decided to hire me as a live-in nanny.
But I didn't expect that I would become the mistress of his house.
05
His name is Ah Xiang and he is 46 years old.
After working part-time at his house for several months, I learned that he and his wife had long since divorced and had a son who had gone with him.
He is in the grocery wholesale business, which is a small asset and has no worries.
He negotiated with me to give me 4,000 yuan a month, let me be a nanny, eat and live, and my children can also live with me.
Hearing this, I was a little surprised, I never thought I would be so lucky, I felt that I had met a noble person.
Later I learned that it was he who had taken a fancy to me.
He said that I was not afraid to work at a loss, and I didn't talk much, but every time I talked, it always made people feel comfortable.
06
After becoming a live-in nanny, he would always let me take the money to buy some fruits and meals that I liked to eat and that my children liked to eat.
He would also help me find primary school for my children and would take us for a walk around when I had time.
There have been many times like this, and I know his intentions.
At first, I just felt that I didn't believe that I had given birth to children myself, and there was no culture, how could a small boss look up to me.
But he said that he had also been divorced, was older, and had children, and that there was nothing unworthy of him, and that as long as it was right, it was the best.
I hesitated for quite a while, but he also said he could wait and wasn't in a hurry.
People around me knew I wanted to live with him and advised me to think it through.
They said that men are 20 years older than me, and many living habits are incompatible, and when I am older, I am more affected. Some even said he was just looking for a free babysitter.
But now I have figured it out, marriage is a matter of two people, cold and warm self-knowledge. I have an interest in him, he has a heart for me, even my children can accept it, and life is simple and happy.