Remember February 8, 2022, the third day of a depressive episode. Ten minutes ago, I cut the cable and now my phone has 50% of its battery. But I can't remember why now

Remember February 8, 2022, the third day of a depressive episode.

Ten minutes ago, I cut the cable and now my phone has 50% of its battery. But I can't remember why I cut it now, maybe another personality has entered my body.

In fact, it has not been a good meal for three days, after making a good meal, eating two bites does not want to eat again, so I drank some water, some coffee, ate a few oranges and sugar, and did not feel hungry.

Insomnia is getting more and more serious, for example, today, after two o'clock in the morning, I can't sleep, get up at five o'clock, paint, keep painting, keep deleting, keep changing, and finally be unsatisfactory.

I was very sleepy in the afternoon, lying down to prepare for a while, just closed my eyes and woke up, so I didn't fall asleep.

I started painting again, trying to draw the girl chasing the deer, but I couldn't draw anything.

I turned on all the lights and turned off all the lights again.

I don't know why I'm doing this.

I wanted to find someone to stay with, but there was no one to look for, and I didn't want to bother anyone else.

I don't know why I became this way that makes other people and makes myself hate.

I miss home, but I don't dare call home.

Everything is getting tough, when will I be able to get out?