Remember February 11, 2022, the sixth day of self-healing efforts to fight depression. I have flowers, but I don't talk to them. Insomnia, loss of appetite, sadness, these problems are not alleviated

Remember February 11, 2022, the sixth day of self-healing efforts to fight depression.

I have flowers, but I don't talk to them.

Insomnia, loss of appetite, sadness, these problems have not been alleviated, and seem to be deepening. But I don't struggle anymore, let it go.

Get up early today and get up to paint. I have two NetEase cloud numbers, one on the computer and one on the phone. I found the same playlist and played it at the same time. The single name of the song is the sea of stars, I am waiting for you to come. Pure music, the first song is the stars falling into a dream. I put my phone in the distance and pretended someone was listening to a song with me.

About I've really accepted the fact that it's no big deal, a lot of people are depressed and self-redeeming.

Coming out or not coming out is a person's life, not good or bad. Because there is no fairness in this world.

Many years ago, many people said to me, "If you don't die, you will be blessed." At that time, I actually knew that I would never get better like this.

You see, some people have tried their best just to survive, and who has the strength to live a better life?

But I don't recognize it, why? I went to Mohe to chase the aurora, to Lhasa to listen to the sound of the scriptures, to Huashan to see the sunrise, to Huangshan to see the sea of clouds, to Urumqi to listen to the first snow of 2002, to go to the Mongolian steppe to ride a horse, also to Sanya to see the sea, to Jiangnan through the smoke and rain, to the Central Plains to see the ancient capital, to go to the Gobi Huangsha to see poplars, to go to the Forest Sea snow field to pick pine cones.

From south to north, from east to west, even if it is a step and an injury, I have walked through it.

But now, I don't want to fight, just like that, too tired.

There are no flowers in this world that belong to me, and I am honored to have passed through their bloom.

No thoughts, no thoughts, you have to go on.