Severe insomnia, I can't believe that I can sleep well in my lifetime! Anxiety disorders and insomnia began in high school, and lasted for more than a decade. Since the beginning of the epidemic, it has become more and more serious, and sleeping well has been accompanied by anxiety and irritability, and it is alive like a walking dead.
Lying in bed, just about to go to sleep, and being "bombarded" by chaotic thoughts, I can't sleep. Even if I was confused, I was dreaming, and I felt very tired, just like I didn't sleep.
I have been ill for a long time, I once thought that there was something wrong with my body, so many years of tossing down, soup, pills to say less also have to be a few baskets, and even decided that I could not do without medicine for a lifetime. Fortunately, I was saved by myself, or rather by the Meditation Method, which not only allowed me to fall asleep and sleep well, but also completely changed my state of mind.
When the onset of the disease, I feel that I can't relax, I am easy to be nervous, I am nervous, my hands and feet will be like the feeling of the spread of the tide, I still have nightmares at night, I can't fall asleep immediately after being scared awake, sometimes it takes more than an hour to have sleepiness, and sometimes I can't sleep at all. When I was fine, I woke up several times a night, slept very shallowly, didn't sleep well, and was dizzy all day. Doctors diagnose anxiety.
After the outbreak began, my situation was even worse. Afraid of air viruses, feeling that breathing is difficult, chest tightness, breathlessness, dare not sleep, afraid of sleeping in the process of holding themselves to death (from sleeping badly to not daring to sleep, afraid of sleep). As long as the head touches the pillow, it is like opening the magic box, it is all a miscellaneous idea, the point is that it only reminds me of particularly bad things, the more I think about it, the more afraid I am, the more afraid it is, the harder it is to sleep!
The whole person is top-heavy, the eyes are dry and tight, the stomach is uncomfortable, there is no burp, it is uncomfortable. Slowly, I don't care about anything, I can't do my work, and my life is difficult to take care of myself.
Since the epidemic, insomnia has become more and more serious, and the strong fear of insomnia, I know that I am scaring myself, is simply a fantasy, always involuntarily fighting it. It wasn't until I carefully read Mr. Li Hongfu's book "Emotional Self-Help" that I truly and thoroughly understood: the root of my anxiety and fear and insomnia is psychological problems, which is caused by this sensitive and suspicious heart that is easy to tangle and entangled, which cannot be broken and cannot be put down.
I was able to completely come out of insomnia and practice the main meditation method. The meditation method uses the breath as a tool to purify and transform the mind through continuous concentration on the breath. While feeling the breath, for any irritability, disgust, nervousness, or physical pain, numbness and other discomforts that appear, do not participate, just a mind to concentrate on breathing.
When I started practicing, I always couldn't calm down and relax, and repeatedly considered Mr. Li Hongfu (emotional self-help), and found that relaxation and calm are convenient tools and sub-accessories to awareness, but not goals, and the goal should be insight (clear seeing, that is, awareness).
Observation method, I have been doing it for 10 minutes from the beginning like sitting on a needle felt, and now I can sit down smoothly for 1 hour, and the tempering is only clear to myself; every night I lie in bed, focus on the nostril breathing, no matter what I think, how irritable, I will always focus on the breathing, whenever I feel that I can't hold on, the sentence in the book will wake me up: This is all a disguise of anxiety and insomnia, as long as you continue to concentrate on breathing, this will pass.
Luckily I persevered! By week 5 of my self-healing practice, I was lying in bed, and I could feel the gentle force sinking from top to bottom little by little, and I knew that my sleep was back. But sometimes anxiety will hide cats with people, and when I think I can, it will be excited and active again... I am not afraid of it, I have been from countless lows, still focused on the breath, I do not know when I fell asleep, but i slept until dawn!
Not only was I able to sleep well, but I also found that I was not so real, and I knew how to live a natural life, and I thought: This is the most precious asset for me! I just grew up from grinding again and again, and through practice, I gained not only sleep, but also a healthy and peaceful state of mind!