[All goodbyes are premeditated]
The year Ah Yun got married was a winter, and I took a special leave of absence to participate. Yun and her husband are classmates, going around or last together, both of them are in town, so the banquet is also in town.
It rained lightly that day, and I remember it very clearly. The rain in Fujian winter is a little cold on the body, cold like a cup of cold tea under the belly, the whole body is cold. The door of a hotel in the town was full of joy, all dressed in red, and the beauty of the bride could not be hidden. I happened to meet Lan, and after saying hello we went in.
Lan and Yun were in the company I didn't go to, and they had a particularly good relationship. They are not highly educated, but they are hardworking, capable, and able to endure hardships. Lan Xin's eyes are more, always flashing his words, deliberately concealing or deliberately revealing what information, Yun da grinned, what to say, the nature is more straightforward.
After going to the hotel, I sat at a table with Lan, and then Yun finished entertaining the guests and her husband and came over, and we sat together. We talked a lot about that day, and we remembered that Lan's face was not very happy, as if attending Yun's wedding was a shameful thing, she didn't eat much, she kept holding the gesture, and then left early. I went with Lan because I had to go to work in the afternoon.
I remember the embarrassment on Yun's face that day, and the discomfort of her husband. When you are at your youngest age, you are overstretched, and naturally you can't speak boldly. Lan Lin said a word before saying goodbye, how yun married so badly, and his dissatisfaction was all on his face and did not treat me as an outsider at all. I smiled and said, fate is something that no one can say clearly, isn't it? I could see that Lan didn't take me to heart and walked away with disdain, I was like a trash can that had been used and thrown aside.
Later, Lan's shadow had never been seen. After many years, Yun told me that she had played with Lan so well before, and how to ignore her after getting married. I suddenly remembered what Lan had said before that farewell, and it turned out that all the goodbyes had been premeditated for a long time.
Lan later contacted her former boss to work at a kindergarten, and she only had a junior high school education, so she only cared about profits when climbing up. After she entered that kindergarten, she never contacted the cloud again, as if the cloud was like a shadow she had once been, an incomprehensible shadow, and she abandoned the cloud as if she were abandoning herself.
The cloud is like a child, an abandoned child. Still wondering why you were abandoned? Obviously, I didn't do anything wrong, but I suffered such treatment. But at that time, I saw it clearly, and I understood the logic behind it.
Cloud has since regarded me as my best friend, because I am tolerant enough, because I never discriminate, and because I am honest.
I know that a person cannot forget his past, and he will eventually be beaten back to his original form. It's the law! Just like you are glorious again, after you return to the village, you still have to be your former self, that is your source, the most real you.
Those friends who have been abandoned, don't worry. God pulls the bad out and brings the good to you.
