In 2015 to prepare for the judicial examination, when the child was more than six months old, just after taking maternity leave to go back to work, the unit leader suddenly announced that each person preparing for the exam will be given a month's leave, if the exam can not be done, next year to give another leave, and then the exam can not be allowed to take leave on this reason. Just baby I was in the postpartum lactation period, the huge changes in life and body for a while unacceptable depression period, closed for six months to face the adaptation period of society again, and constantly contradicted the cold war period with the lover, at the same time, because of physical reasons are always mastitis, the most painful time to hit the head against the wall, at that time serious lack of sleep, reading during the day, interpolation feeding, reading after feeding at eleven o'clock at night, seeing a point to feed again, and then sleeping, feeding at four o'clock, getting up to endorse. Seeing me like this, the in-laws also began to help, during the day to take the child downstairs, one day, the child's cry with the wind into the house, I saw from the window the in-laws struggling to coax the child, the child struggled wow wow crying, the in-laws were busy, three people sitting alone in the small garden downstairs, I thought that if I could not pass this exam, I was most sorry for the child, sorry for everyone. Then I read a book while shedding tears. Because when I gave birth to a child, it was late autumn, and then I began the cold winter, during the maternity leave, I basically did not go out except for my in-laws' house and my mother's house, all my thoughts were on the child, and then I picked up the jerky law, I would not even break the sentence, and the legal theory could not even read the literal meaning, so I forced myself to read it over and over again, read through and then read the next sentence, do the problem when tired, and go to the computer when I was sleepy. When there are still more than ten days left in the exam, I really collapsed, I can't always get my own scores, I don't know what I insist on for, whether it makes sense to stick to it, what am I doing? Confused, hopeless, overwhelmed, collapsed to the extreme, broken jars broken, and then I threw the book away, held the child back to my mother's house, did not want to eat and sleep for a day, the next day I wanted to understand, is not to know what I have to insist on, is no result I also insist, is to insist on itself, no matter the result, regardless of success or failure, regardless of gain or loss, is to adhere to its own persistence, just go to learn, just go back, do not want anything, and then hold the child back to the mother-in-law's house, really can't resist letting yourself sleep at noon, It wasn't so hard for myself, so I did it for thirty-three days, and then the family discussed, and my mother-in-law and mother accompanied me to the exam and took the baby. The process of the intermediate examination is not to say, in order to save time to live near the examination room, the hotel has poor conditioning and poor sound insulation, and the child does not adapt to the fever and suffers with the crime. Fortunately, the final result was passed. Looking back, this is probably the thing I'm trying the hardest at the moment, when you use all your strength and overdraft, you are actually relieved of the results, because you are worthy of yourself. Looking at the many people around me, I know that not everyone has worked hard to get the corresponding results, and I am truly grateful to God for this! I also often wondered, if that time did not pass, whether it would continue, I feel that it will be, not dead heart, ah, but can no longer use so much strength [cover your face]
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