When it comes to the question of feelings, from ancient times to the present, it feels difficult to judge, and there is no absolute right or absolute wrong in feelings.
We see poor outcasts, but they seem to have done something chilling, the one who deliberately hurt others in his relationship, and we don't know how he cried late at night.
It is difficult to make decisions about feelings, but this is also its beauty and pain, and what I want to tell you in this issue is a lot of emotional disputes around the great writer Lu Yao.
Lu Yao was extremely successful in writing countless works in his life, but his lifelong emotional estrangement, love, affection, father-daughter love all left him, and why did Lu Yao, who finally succeeded, leave this world alone?
First, a marriage with a purposeful nature ruins a woman's life
There are many unhappy marriages in our lives, and the unhappiness of marriage may stem from the fact that it is a mistake from the beginning, and its origin may not be love, but from the helplessness of the times, the helplessness of human nature.
Lu Yao's marriage was obviously like this, on November 17, 1992, at 8:20 a.m., Lu Yao left this world in loneliness, but in the year when Lu Yao died and became terminally ill.
His wife came to Lu Yao's hospital bedside and signed a divorce agreement with him mercilessly, and linda was accused by everyone of such an act, believing that she was an ungrateful woman, and when she saw that her husband was seriously ill, she wanted to shake off the burden on her body.
At that time, Linda also showed an extraordinary fierceness, and after the divorce agreement was approved by Lu Yao, she moved out of the home for the first time, and even ignored her daughter, which really made people feel very cold.
For a while, Linda was insulted by many people, but no one knew how tragic Linda's life really was, and what she experienced.
Lu Yao's encounter with Linda is not romantic at all, and even has a little boring utilitarian purpose, Lu Yao is a young acquaintance of the year.
When he was in the countryside, he was handsome and erudite, and he was naturally loved by many rural local girls, but Lu Yao had a big dream in his heart.
He wants to finish his studies and wants to stand in a higher place, so he secretly sets a mate selection criterion for himself, not talking about love, just knowing the youth.
Because most of the local girls have no financial ability, only by marrying a young man, it is possible to complete their studies and let the girl continue to provide for herself to go to college. Indeed, after knowing Linda, she also sent most of her monthly salary to Lu Yao, who was still in college, as Lu Yao imagined, and saved herself money, completely drowning out the glory that this young girl should have.
The original intention of the marriage of two people is not love, this is originally a marriage that weighs the pros and cons, so the tragedy of the marriage of two people was buried early at the beginning.
It is a pity that Linda's previous life gave up too many things for Lu Yao and dedicated too much of her youth, but Lu Yao took all this as a matter of course.
He did not miss his wife's dedication to him, and he did not even give her too much care in life, according to Linda later recalled.
Lu Yao, as a writer, has a strange schedule, starting from noon in the morning, so the time for the husband and wife to see each other is very small, and they live in two worlds, and there is no possibility of communication at all.
In addition, Lu Yao, who is busy creating and socializing, simply does not have time to do the idle business in the housekeeper, as a woman, she has to take on most of the heavy work in the family, cope with various human feelings, and bear various expenses at home.
However, she did not get the slightest understanding and response from her husband, Lu Yao's manuscript fee was not much, in 1983 his salary was only 58 yuan three yuan, and the fee for his writing was not as we imagined, the manuscript fee for a "life" was only 1300 yuan.
But he is an extremely face-saving person who pays great attention to the quality of life, and he needs three yuan to smoke a pack of cigarettes, and two packs of cigarettes a day, so the economic pressure is naturally unwarranted on Linda's body.
Day after day, year after year, Linda couldn't stand the endless torture of this ordinary life, and she proposed a divorce to Lu Yao, but Lu Yao kept rejecting his requests.
His face and the dignity of a man, not allowing his wife to make such an appeal, the two people fell into the Cold War, Linda's divorce agreement from the 80s to the 90s, and finally got Lu Yao's signature from the hospital bed.
At this time, she was like a bird escaping from the cage, suddenly free, and finally ended these decades of bleak days.
Therefore, while everyone was angrily scolding Linda, Lu Yao's brother Wang Tianle also stood up for his sister-in-law and declared in "Suffering is His Eternal Companion," he wrote.
At the beginning of 1992, my sister-in-law Linda formally proposed to divorce Lu Yao, I have nothing to say about this, I also understand Linda very well, she does not know how many times she has proposed a divorce. As a woman, it is not easy to be the wife of a writer.
Women in the world are looking for a farmer and don't look for a writer as a husband. When a writer may give her life, but the writer's wife also has to endure all kinds of spiritual disasters that ordinary women cannot tolerate. At this point I don't hate Linda, nor do I hate Lu Yao.
It can be seen that the feelings of Lu Yao and Linda were weak, there was no absolute right, no absolute wrong in this marriage, no absolute winner, no absolute loser, and meeting the wrong person was the beginning of a painful life.
Second, he supported his brother on the road to writing, but he looked at him in a hospital bed
Speaking of the relationship between Wang Tianle and Lu Yao, it is even more confusing, the two people were once brothers whose blood was thicker than water, and Wang Tianle was like Lu Yao's agent.
From the year his brother began writing, he seriously supported his career, borrowed money for him, asked him to go around, negotiated with the publisher for him, but later the relationship between the two brothers also broke down.
Lu Yao once cherished his brother, and his masterpiece "Morning Begins at Noon", under the title of this work alone, it is written dedicated to my brother Wang Tianle.
However, after Lu Yao was hospitalized, sensitive Lu Yao found that some inaudible changes had taken place in his brother, and he had always hoped that his brother could take care of him and talk to him more.
However, because he himself suffered from liver disease, Wang Tianle was afraid that he would be infected, so he refused to come to the hospital bed.
And after every conversation with Lu Yao, he also had to go to wash his hands as soon as possible, these detailed actions stung Lu Yao's heart, and at the same time aroused the dissatisfaction he had been dissatisfied with his brother in his heart before.
After Lu Yao won the Mao Dun Literature Award, Wang Tianle borrowed money for him to raise travel expenses, but after receiving the award, he found that he was saddled with a lot of unwarranted debts, and he did not borrow so much money at all.
It is equivalent to saying that the younger brother borrowed a lot of debts in his name, thinking about the past, the two people looked at each other in the hospital bed, until Lu Yao's death, he never came to see his brother again.
Third, the little daughter who owes a lot has become the bondage of Lu Yao's life
Speaking of Linda, Lu Yao actually knew that he owed her, but Lu Yao was not an emotionless person in this world.
If he says who he loves the most in this world, then it must be that her own daughter is far away, and when she is terminally ill, he knows that there is no one to take care of him, so he found a nanny for his daughter.
When Lu Yuan wanted to come to see him, he also insisted on refusing Lu Yuan to come to the scene, because he wanted to leave the best image in his daughter's heart.
In the last days, the most common sentence in Lu Yao's mouth was that he came to this world on November 9, and even if he was ruthless and cold, there would always be a most tender place in his heart, which was reserved for his little daughter.
Lu Yuan always thought that her father's illness would soon get better, she knew that December 2 was her father's birthday, and he also prepared a delicate little gift for him, hoping that his father would like it.
But unexpectedly, on November 17, her father left her forever, and on the day of her father's death, she cried and opened the coffin, insisting on putting the gifts carefully prepared for her father inside, and Lu Yuan became the only concern and only bond before Lu Yao's death.
Lu Yao won the Mao Dun Literature Award for "Ordinary World", a literary work that praises ordinary laborers in a warm and realistic way.
While showing the difficult survival situation of ordinary small people, this novel strives to write their beautiful hearts and tenacious fighting spirits that overcome many difficulties. The masters of the work, Gongsun Shao'an and Sun Shaoping, are young people struggling on the poverty line, but they are self-reliant, relying on their tenacious perseverance to fight against fate and pursue their own moral perfection.
This book is like a magnificent epic, condensing the majestic social symphony, broad human heart, brilliant color of life and rich and solid suffering, the thick and solid life suffering of the elderly, the romantic and magnificent life imagination and vigorous action ability of young people, and the life thinking obtained from life, which has achieved such a text that is as undulating as the Loess Plateau and as magnificent and majestic as a river.
The protagonist, Sun Shaoping, is a poor rural youth, but he is also a rural youth with knowledge. Pragmatic and courageous to listen to the call of the spirit. Whether it is the high school life of eating sorghum noodle steamed bread and drinking leftover soup, or the peasant life of going to the land to farm, or even the working life after leaving the land, Sun Shaoping has the arrogance of the spirit and the restraint of the soul, and has experienced all kinds of sufferings that ordinary people cannot imagine, and he has grown up in suffering.
Every kind of suffering is so torturous, Sun Shaoping not only did not avoid them, but took the initiative to go to them. This cold disciple has reaped valuable spiritual values - worrying about the world and being self-reliant. At every stage of his growth, the instruction he received came from books, which broadened his horizons and healed his suffering.
As the author Lu Yao said, the ordinary world, ordinary people, ordinary life. We can't get lost in ordinary life, behind the ordinary there is passion, ideological willingness to be mediocre, life is satisfied with the status quo is the real ordinary. The meaning of life lies in the fact that you can create the beauty and excitement of this process, and the value of life is that you can calmly and excitedly appreciate the beauty and tragedy of this process. Believe in yourself, ordinary you can create an extraordinary life in the ordinary world.