In the late summer of 2007, on a viaduct in Toronto, Jiang Guobing, a doctor of nuclear physics at Purdue University and a doctor of chemistry at the University of Toronto, jumped down and ended his life at the age of 43. This news instantly detonated the Chinese circle, and also made Jiang Guobing's colleagues at Tsinghua University still sad, what kind of story is hidden behind this?
Jiang Guobing is a native of Jiang Hu Village, Mawan Town, Tianmen, Hubei Province, and when he was born, New China was only 13 years old, and the country was poor and his family was even poorer.
Like most people in that era, Jiang Guobing, who had endured lack of clothes and hunger since childhood, was very hard-working and firmly believed that knowledge could change fate in the wider world.
From childhood to adulthood, Jiang Guobing was an excellent student in the class and was properly "someone else's child."
In high school, Jiang Guobing entered the village boarding school, and at that time, when the whole dormitory was snoring, he was still in the quilt and lit a flashlight to read.
When there were many mosquitoes in the summer, Jiang Guobing put on a long coat and trousers, put his feet in a wooden bucket filled with cool water, and studied calmly and peacefully.
At that time, he seemed to be very calm no matter what he encountered, and his spirit of learning quickly spread throughout the school, and the teachers and classmates were deeply encouraged and called it the "barrel spirit".
Under the insistence of hard work, in 1979, Jiang Guobing was admitted to the Department of Physics of Tsinghua University as a science champion in Hubei Province.
This incident made the small village in the remote countryside boil, and the neighbors lit firecrackers for Jiang Guobing and brought all kinds of delicious food from his not-so-wealthy home.
Everyone thinks that in the future, Jiang Guobing may write a shocking stroke for China's aerospace construction, and Jiang Guobing himself thinks so.
During his undergraduate studies at Tsinghua University, Jiang Guobing still adhered to the spirit of hard work and self-improvement, and achieved excellent results.
Four years later, Jiang Guobing stood out from the fiercely competitive postgraduate examination and became one of the two master's students majoring in nuclear physics at Tsinghua University.
After graduation, Jiang Guobing naturally stayed at Tsinghua to teach, and became an associate professor at Tsinghua at the age of 31.
If such a life continues, Jiang Guobing can spend his life smoothly in teaching and educating people, and may even make greater contributions to China in the later aerospace field.
However, Jiang Guobing, who is not willing to be mediocre, still longs for a larger world - to go to the international level.
In 1996, Jiang Guobing, who received a full scholarship from Purdue University, crossed the ocean and received a doctorate degree from a university that trained top scientists such as Deng Jiaxian.
Such a degree, not to mention at that time, is also a high-end talent, if Jiang Guobing returns to China to continue teaching at Tsinghua University, perhaps the family will live a good life.
But Jiang Guobing's wife, Lu Cairong, longed for life abroad, and in that era, many people thought that immigration and studying abroad was a cool thing, and it was the enthusiastic dream of that generation.
Jiang Guobing also hoped to be one of them, but at that time, his mother was old and hoped that he would return to China to develop steadily.
With his wife and children on one side and his parents on the other, Jiang Guobing was caught in a dilemma.
Lu Cairong was very insistent, she took her children to Toronto first, where she found an accounting job, and Jiang Guobing returned to China alone and continued to teach at Tsinghua for more than half a year.
In fact, Lu Cairong, a person with a child abroad, has understood that life in Toronto is not as good as she imagined, and at that time, foreign countries were not friendly to Chinese, and it was difficult to find a job, so she moved the idea of returning to China.
At this time, Jiang Guobing, who had been separated from his wife and children for a long time, decided to go to Toronto to find his wife and children and reunite with the family, he thought: "I am a Tsinghua professor, and I am a doctor of Purdue University, am I still worried that I can't find a job abroad?" ”
Jiang Guobing resigned from Tsinghua University and went through the immigration procedures for the whole family.
At that time, foreign countries blocked technology against China, and Chinese immigrants were strictly prohibited from engaging in related fields.
Therefore, when Jiang Guobing brought his proud resume to the interviewer, he was met with a cold refusal: "Jiang, you are very good, but our country does not need people in the field of nuclear physics." ”
Unable to find a job for a long time, Jiang Guobing could only work in a paint factory, and the huge pressure of life and the grim reality made Jiang Guobing unable to lift his head.
Pride did not allow Jiang Guobing to extend his hand to his classmates and former colleagues who were also overseas to ask for help.
Life was like a stuffy jar, almost shattering all of Jiang Guobing's dreams, but at this time, Jiang Guobing still felt that as long as he studied a doctorate in Toronto, he would be able to soar.
Reality once again gave Jiang Guobing a slap, although Jiang Guobin later obtained a doctorate in chemistry from the University of Toronto as he wished, and also successfully graduated.
But Toronto is still unwilling to accept Jiang Guobing, a foreigner, even if he is a double doctor, the resumes he has thrown are still sinking into the sea.
The once savings have been used up by Jiang Guobing to buy a house, the once light and superiority are gone, in the blink of an eye, Jiang Guobing is 43 years old, but he is still just a painter with the false name of "Double Material Doctor".
The bitterness hangs over Jiang Guobing's heart every day, looking back on the past, half a life has passed, all of Jiang Guobing's ambitions have been polished, a person who is almost fifty years old, can he achieve anything?
Jiang Guobing thought so and drove to the overpass on the edge of Toronto.
Overlooking the bustling city and the vast world, there is no place for him to use a double doctor? It turns out that without the blessing of the motherland, I can't get the recognition of the world, why live like this?
Jiang Guobing couldn't think straight, he didn't call his wife, he didn't think of his children, he only felt that the world was vast and cruel, it was better to die.
Jiang Guobing thus jumped off the overpass, ending a life that could have been radiant and rich.
No one knows what he thought at the moment of his death, whether there was regret and regret, people just sighed, lamenting that sometimes "choice is more important than effort", sometimes hitting the south wall to turn back.
Or maybe, there is nothing wrong with cherishing what is in front of you, because the world you yearn for, when you really step in, will become a deadly swamp, leaving you trapped in it and unable to extricate yourself.
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