Gu Qingyu and Shi Yuan had a big quarrel, and Gu Qingyu slammed the door and went out alone to find a hotel outside.
Shi Yuan packed his luggage, and then sent a message to Gu Qingyu: "You go home, the person who should leave is me." ”
Shi Yuan dragged his suitcase alone, moved out of Gu Qingyu's big house, and returned to the old house like the Shi family's pigeon cage, and a neighbor quipped to him: "Driven out by his wife?" ”
Shi Yuan helplessly squeezed out a bitter smile and did not answer, in such a crowded and dilapidated alley, Shi Yuan's figure was so lonely and lonely.
Shi Yuan vaguely felt that his marriage to Gu Qingyu could not be maintained. He once naively told Gu Qingyu that he wanted to give her happiness, and this quarrel after the two of them got married made Shi Yuan see clearly that it was he who did not measure up to gu Qingyu.
The hidden pain of Gu Qingyu and Shi Yuan's marriage
Li Anne said that Gu Qingyu is a "highly educated, high-income, high-value" wife, and Shi Yuan will definitely have pressure when she marries her. After all, Shi Yuan had no place to take it in except for a handsome leather bag.
Secondary school education, ordinary small tour guide, no house and no car, millions of foreign debts, and an old mother who is plagued by illness; such conditions, marrying a wife are difficult, Shi Yuan is "lucky" to reunite with Gu Qingyu, the first love of Qingmei Zhuma, Gu Qingyu does not care about his conditions, and he also wants to marry him.
Shi Yuan and Gu Qingyu, separated at the age of fourteen, have not met for more than twenty years, thirty-six-year-old Gu Qingyu has a successful career, but the feelings have not landed, because she can never forget Shi Yuan.
Shi Yuan was touched by Gu Qingyu's "deep affection", he vowed to treat Gu Qingyu kindly, the two hurriedly obtained a license to get married, and the life after marriage was much more difficult than imagined.
Strong women and weak men, Gu Qingyu is very generous to Shi Yuan, materially never bothered with Shi Yuan, she does not want a bride price, even the marriage room is out of her own; Shi Yuan and her marriage, not to seek money, Gu Qingyu the better he is, the more depressed he is, because he can't eat soft rice with peace of mind.
In order to maintain his beautiful first love image in Gu Qingyu's heart, Shi Yuan even had to hide from Gu Qingyu even if he worked part-time to earn money to pay off debts; Gu Qingyu could only secretly help him behind his back in order to take care of Shi Yuan's self-esteem.
Gu Qingyu had never been so concerned about a person, she spied on his reselling of second-hand piano information, and found someone to buy it herself; monitoring the movement of his work, even Shi Yuan took the tour group to dinner, Gu Qingyu also had to follow the past.
Gu Qingyu said to Shi Yuan that she could help him pay off his debts, because she didn't want to see him work so hard, Shi Yuan rejected Gu Qingyu's kindness, as a man, he didn't even have a house, which already made him very frustrated, if even the foreign debt had to be repaid by Gu Qingyu, he could only look up even more.
The two people were obviously thinking about each other, but when the words came out of their mouths, it seemed to change the taste.
Gu Qingyu felt that Shi Yuan was stubborn and too calculating; Shi Yuan felt that Gu Qingyu was on top and always embarrassed him. The two could only carefully manage the marriage, like a guerrilla war, Shi Yuan and Gu Qingyu were miserable.
The first love has achieved positive results, but after marriage, everything is not satisfactory, and the reason why Shi Yuan and Gu Qingyu's marriage is in trouble is because the conditions of the two are very different in all aspects, and after putting aside the filter of the first love, they do not match at all.
There's a good passage to say:
"Only the love of equal strength can have the confidence to grow old with a white head." When the self-worth of both sides is the same, when the three views of both sides are the same, only then do they have the courage to continue to talk. ”
Gu Qingyu revealed his true face
In order to make Shi Yuan's living burden less heavy, Gu Qingyu privately helped his mother-in-law pay off the 500,000 yuan of surgery fees, tricked Shi Yuan into saying that it was done by a charity, Shi Yuan believed it to be true, felt like a dream, and the sudden good luck made Shi Yuan feel good.
When I first saw everything Gu Qingyu did to Shi Yuan in Heart Residence, I thought that she loved Shi Yuan too much, and would be so him, until I saw the two separated for two months, I found that Gu Qingyu had never really loved Shi Yuan.
Gu Qingyu stubbornly stumbled shi yuan for more than twenty years, and after the young Shi Yuan left, Gu Qingyu also talked about several boyfriends one after another, but they were just shi yuan's stand-ins. Gu Qingyu forced them to wear white shirts and black-rimmed glasses, because the teenage Shi Yuan was dressed like that.
Gu Qingyu never gave up inquiring about Shi Yuan's whereabouts, the two unexpectedly reunited, Gu Qingyu turned the river and the sea in his heart, never forgot, and finally had an echo.
After marrying Shi Yuan, Gu Qingyu was eager to give him everything she had, she would be wary of her sister-in-law Feng Xiaoqin calculating the property of the Gu family, but she was not defensive against Shi Yuan, 1 million foreign debts, 500,000 medical expenses, Gu Qingyu can happily take it out.
Gu Qingyu's kindness to Shi Yuan was almost to the point of suffocation, she tracked Shi Yuan, pleased her mother-in-law, and was eager to raise Shi Yuan in a glass cover; but this life did not last long, Gu Qingyu exposed her true face.
Shi Yuan went to work at Aimeng Company, which was a turning point in the marriage relationship between the two, and Gu Qingyu's attitude towards Shi Yuan took a sharp turn, gradually from favoritism to the point of disgust.
Shi Yuan only has a secondary school education, originally was not qualified to go to this kind of large company, the other side of the executive chose Shi Yuan, only because he is Gu Qingyu's husband, there is use value.
Gu Qingyu directly showdown to Shi Yuan, he can go to work because of her, Gu Qingyu put the words on the table to say, Shi Yuan's self-esteem is very hurt, he thought that the company is looking at his conditions, will admit him.
Gu Qingyu was not good at forcing Shi Yuan to give up this job, but she showed her dissatisfaction, she thought that Shi Yuan could understand her meaning, but she did not expect that Shi Yuan was still hired.
Gu Qingyu has a strong sense of superiority, for her, such a small position, there is not much money, but it is really not cost-effective to threaten her work with an annual salary of several million. She would rather shi yuan than go to work, or use the rival company as a gun.
However, Gu Qingyu ignored that for her, the drizzle-like income, in Shi Yuan's eyes, was the highest position he could reach, and the values of the two were not equal, which would deepen the misunderstanding.
Gu Qingyu began to treat Shi Yuan with a strange yin and yang, and in front of Shi Yuan, he sprinkled qi on his family, and Shi Yuan saw that Gu Qingyu was not happy because he went to love Meng, but Gu Qingyu refused to admit it.
In fact, Gu Qingyu's heart has long had opinions about Shi Yuan, she did not expect that the man she married would be so unclear, complacent for a small position, everywhere revealed stinginess and humility, completely without manhood.
Shi Yuan did a part-time job to be an English teacher, Gu Qingyu also felt superfluous, Shi Yuan himself did not have teaching qualifications, risking to earn so much money, why bother.
Gu Qingyu can't look at Shi Yuan's work, whether it is a tour guide, or those messy part-time jobs he does, Gu Qingyu tongtong feels that it is pediatrics, it is difficult to climb the elegant hall, after all, compared with her as a large enterprise executive, Shi Yuan is doing neither decent nor oily chores.
Shi Yuan worked very hard in life, in order to pay off the foreign debt, to treat his mother," he had to work three jobs a day, teach books, become a celebrant, and do foreign language translation, even if he was too tired to eat, he fell asleep as soon as he sat on the subway, and Shi Yuan did not think of relying on Gu Qingyu.
But Shi Yuan's seriousness and persistence, in Gu Qingyu's eyes, is nothing more than self-pleading, Gu Qingyu advised him not to do part-time work anymore, she is accustomed to demanding each other with her own standards, as everyone knows, the work she dislikes is the guarantee on which Shi Yuan relies for survival.
Gu Qingyu's first love dream was shattered
Gu Qingyu's kindness to Shi Yuan has always been her self-righteousness, Shi Yuan clearly stated that she did not accept her alms, but she secretly threw money at Shi Yuan behind her back, and Shi Yuan was very depressed after learning the truth.
Gu Qingyu personally tore open Shi Yuan's unbearable side, she monitored Shi Yuan, tracked Shi Yuan, and wanted to use this way to approach Shi Yuan and understand Shi Yuan; after seeing Shi Yuan bowing his knees to please Shi Yuan, Gu Qingyu could not accept such a gap and could no longer pass the level in his heart.
The young Shi Yuan, in Gu Qingyu's heart, is flawless, he is versatile, loves elegance, is clean and generous, warm and kind, proud and decent, and hardly has any shortcomings.
Shi Yuan, who is nearly forty years old, likes to smoke and play mahjong, no longer plays the piano, no longer understands music, behaves rudely, bends down for money, smiles at tourists, and is full of the breath of small citizens.
Gu Qingyu experienced the feeling of shattering his first love dream again and again, and the Shi Yuan in front of him had long been beyond recognition.
The meeting between the parents of the two sides made the contradiction between Gu Qingyu and Shi Yuan reach its peak, Shi Yuan's mother was once a qianjin from a large family, and after the family fell, she was still proud and arrogant, and she did not look up to Gu Qingyu, who was born in a small household.
In front of Gu Qingyu's old father, Shi Yuan's mother mocked the Gu family as an upstart and unworthy of the Shi family, Gu Qingyu returned home with a cold face, and had a verbal altercation with Shi Yuan. Shi Yuan did not coax Gu Qingyu, but said that he was not worthy of Gu Qingyu, because of his inferiority, even when he quarreled, Shi Yuan was afraid and shrinking.
Gu Qingyu could not love such a Shi Yuan, she began to snub Shi Yuan, hurt Shi Yuan, and even pretended to go to work, but went out with her former suitor Zhan Xiang to climb the mountain and eat hot pot.
Gu Qingyu was hospitalized with spicy stomach pain, but the actor said that he was unwell at work, and the nurse's words debunked Gu Qingyu's lies, and the nurse also thought that Zhan Xiang was Gu Qingyu's husband.
Compared with a rich man like Zhan Xiang, Shi Yuan is even more inferior, he said that Gu Qingyu's choice of Zhan Xiang is also normal, Shi Yuan's complaint is out of his jealousy and jealousy of Zhan Xiang, Gu Qingyu no longer cares about Shi Yuan's real thoughts.
After Shi Yuan moved away, Gu Qingyu did not contact him again, and when the family asked about Shi Yuan, she lied that Shi Yuan was on a business trip and tried to maintain a stable state of marriage in front of outsiders.
Only for Zhan Xiang, Gu Qingyu confessed that she and Shi Yuan have been separated for more than two months, Zhan Xiang chased Gu Qingyu for many years, and finally got the news that she was going to divorce, and couldn't help but think of Gu Qingyu, Gu Qingyu did take a lot of initiative in Zhan Xiang.
The two ate together, went shopping together, Feng Xiaoqin said that Zhan Xiang's long lamp has always been lit for Gu Qingyu, Gu Qingyu knows that Zhan Xiang has intentions for himself, but in the absence of divorce, repeatedly ambiguous with Zhan Xiang, her fierce heart for Shi Yuan, and the intention of the past, formed a sharp contrast.
Gu Qingyu's father went to her home to check on the post, wanting to see if his daughter and son-in-law had separated, Gu Qingyu asked Zhan Xiang to help, and filled her house with many men's clothes and daily necessities.
Zhan Xiang hung his clothes in Gu Qingyu's home, and the bottles and cans for washing were filled with Gu Qingyu's handwashing table, and Gu Qingyu said that he would borrow them for a while to prevent his father from making a surprise attack.
Gu Qingyu asked Zhan Xiang to bring his luggage over, which not only implied that Zhan Xiang could pursue himself again, but also interrupted Shi Yuan's desire to return.
Gu Qingyu had no love for Shi Yuan, only cruelty and disgust. Innocent first love, after all, is torn apart by reality.
If Gu Qingyu really cared about Shi Yuan, he would not let him misunderstand three times and twice, if Shi Yuan moved back again and saw that his home was full of things to exhibit, how would he feel?
Gu Qingyu did not retain Shi Yuan, and even deliberately dragged out the time of separation, because the separation time reached a certain level, it would be sentenced to divorce, Gu Qingyu wanted to let the divorce happen naturally.
epilogue
Looking at Gu Qingyu's behavior towards Shi Yuan, she realized that her love was too illusory, and her love was never the real Shi Yuan, but the beautiful first love she thought she had.
Gu Qingyu was deeply in love with the advantages of the young Shi Yuan, and when she found that Shi Yuan was different from what she imagined, she was extremely disappointed in Shi Yuan and had no interest.
Margaret's Lover begins with a passage:
"I know you, and I will always remember you. At that time, you were very young, and everyone said you were beautiful, and now, I am here to tell you, for me, I think you are more beautiful than when you were young, when you were a young woman, and I love your battered face more than when you were young. ”
The shortcomings of being able to love a person are the ones who truly love that person. Love and like are different, like can be very one-sided, very short, and love is a kind of tolerance, is an appreciation, is a kind of understanding, but also a kind of trust.
Some people say that many times, I like a person because of his strengths, and I fall in love with a person because of his shortcomings. That person's shortcomings make you suddenly understand that no matter what this person looks like, you can accept it; that person's shortcomings also make you begin to understand that true love is to be able to accept everything from him.
Gu Qingyu thought that she had strongly loved Shi Yuan for more than twenty years, so that she still could not fall in love normally until she reached middle age, in fact, she did not realize that what she loved was never Shi Yuan itself, but the youth she could never go back to.
Because the feeling of first love has always been more memorable than the first love person.