I really can't hold back the words in my heart, and I can't talk to other people, I can only nag under the headlines, I know that some people will scold me when I say this, but I really feel bad in my heart not to say it. They all say home

I really can't hold back the words in my heart, and I can't talk to other people, I can only nag under the headlines, I know that some people will scold me when I say this, but I really feel bad in my heart not to say it.

They all say that every family has a difficult scripture to read, and my family's scripture is a bit thick, and there is no way to elaborate from beginning to end.

My family's economic conditions are not very good, that is, the grass-roots people. The money earned in a year is also a subsistence, there is almost no surplus, in a fashionable word is ~ moonlight.

Today he went home to talk to his dad and came back to tell me: His dad said that from next year onwards, he would give him 1,200 yuan for the New Year every year. (It turns out that the New Year is five hundred, not counting the other things given to them)

To be honest, the money is not too much, I can give it tightly to my own family expenses, but I can't get through this pass in my heart.

After I got married, he went to work in other places, I pulled my eldest daughter who was less than one year old to plant the land, spray pesticides, harvest, field management, mother-in-law even if she played cards at home, she would not help take care of the children, and the father-in-law also said that she could not let her mother-in-law see the children, and what if his daughter-in-law was tired? Just as my mother-in-law watched me go to the ground with my children all day, my husband came back and complained, saying that I didn't need their help to take care of it.

When I was harvesting wheat, I braved the rain at night, and it was not until 10:30 p.m. that the wheat was received home, and the children were taken care of by the people in my village, and the in-laws and the eldest sister's family were all put away before it rained, and no one asked me if I wanted their help, where did the children go.

When the eldest girl went to kindergarten in the autumn, she needed to pay 95 yuan, there was no transfer at that time, there was no WeChat, there was no man who made money at home, mainly there was no money, only me, no, and the second daughter in my belly, there was no way but to go to the father-in-law's construction team to work, 15 yuan a day salary, for my eldest daughter to earn money to go to school.

My two daughters didn't wear a single piece of clothing that my grandparents bought, didn't take it out to play once, didn't buy a piece of candy, and I couldn't stand it.

What I can't stand is that my mother-in-law will make rumors about me at any time and anywhere, saying that the house was built by her, and let us live when she wants us to live, and blows us out if she doesn't want us to live.

She said this because I gave birth to two daughters, and they were not satisfied with not having three children.

I was angry that when they were young and tough, they didn't help me a bit, they all went to help their girlfriends and aunts. At that time, he also swore to me that they would help whoever they wanted, I couldn't control it, and when they were old, if I didn't care about them, I would sue me, as long as I married his son for a day, whether they did it right or not, I would have to serve them, and the house would not give to his son, and he would not give it to anyone His son could not control, so he had to let his son serve them. Now that they are old and need to spend money, I wonder, why don't they go to the people they like? Okay to lick your face and I want to?

Every time I think about this, I am so angry that my heart is blocked, so I write it out today to vent my depressed mood. Whether you scold me or feel sorry for me, my heart will feel better, otherwise I can't control my tears and trembling legs.

In my hometown, they were looking for me every three to five years, which made me bitter and unable to say. My tutor told me they were my parents and to be respectful, but they took me straight to the hospital. As a result, many doctors said that it was a disease caused by gas, and I took a lot of medicines that could not be better. When I had to move out last fall, they looked like they couldn't get me into trouble, and they were asking for money and blocking me.

If you don't give, some people will say that I don't have much money, as for it? But the people who say that I will not always understand, am I concerned about money? It's that breath, it's a disease I can't cure until now!

Belching, blocking the panic has not stopped since my husband arrived home, I know, I have reached the stage where I can't say something, I can't do something.

What am I going to do? [Crying is silent]

Taking care of other people's emotions, who can take care of my emotions?

Some people will say that things have been so long, it should be past. Yes, I can only say that you have passed, and the obstacles in my heart have not been my past? After all, it is not you who have been wronged.