"Poor Girl" will chase good articles in the near future, and the more you look at it, the more you go up

My name is Guo Xiaoxiao, female after 80, born in a second-tier city in northeast China. The post-80s generation can be said to be a very sad generation, born with family planning, so there are no brothers and sisters, the advantage is to be closer to cousins. Because there were so many people in the previous generation, there were 60-70 people in a class, and the teacher did not have the energy to manage so many people.

Catching up with the privatization of domestic production, a large number of workers are laid off, parents are going to beg for a living, our generation has no one to care about, almost all of them are free-range, the advantage is that everyone has learned to be self-reliant. It was not easy to graduate from college and catch up with the unallocated, college students had to find their own jobs, so they began their entrepreneurial career after the 80s. In summary, the world is fair...

My grandparents were farmers, my father was my grandfather's youngest son, and I had three brothers and three sisters above. When he was a child, his father followed his grandfather into the city, his grandfather worked in a textile factory, the second aunt and the third aunt were in the city to be married, the eldest aunt's family married far away in the northwest, and the uncle's family stayed in his hometown to farm. This led to Dad's unfamiliarity with farm work, but fortunately he inherited Grandpa's specialty. When dad became an adult, he took over his grandfather's textile work, and he was a serious worker, with labor protection and dependence.

Grandpa is a scholar, grandpa can read from an early age, it is said that he can use it for two purposes. Grandpa's family used to be a large landlord and had a big house, which is now included in the cultural relics protection. My grandmother was a child bridesmaid, and she was sold to my grandfather's house at the age of four or five. Grandma followed Grandpa through the turmoil of those years, went to the countryside to work, and later the intellectual youth returned to the city, and Grandpa also taught himself at this time, took the adult college entrance examination, and became a math teacher. Because there are many children in the family, despite the high salary, life is still very poor. Grandma married her 15-year-old grandfather at the age of 18 and had 10 children in her lifetime, only 8 of whom lived. The two dead are boys, the third uncle heard that he died of diarrhea when he was 5 years old, I heard that he was smart and clever and very cute, when he was about to die, the grandmother held and cried very sadly, the third uncle let the grandmother put him down, said that he could not die in her arms, the grandmother just put down, the third uncle left, the grandmother was very sad until later. Another is the little uncle, the little uncle is the one that no one cares about, but I have always cared. Because my uncle and my mother were born when my grandmother was 40 years old. When the living conditions are poor and there are many children in the family, they plan to give birth to sons to the grandmother's family, and the grandmother's three daughters have no sons. Give birth to a daughter and give it away. As a result, a son and a daughter were born, but the medical conditions were poor, I don't know if it was twins, the mother cut the umbilical cord after birth, when the grandmother said that she felt that her stomach was sinking, and then found that there was another, the brother-in-law was born white and fat, but it had been suffocated. Grandma said that there was no feeling of sadness at that time, and it didn't matter how much the child felt. Grandpa looked distressed, so he asked his uncle and uncle to take a shovel to bury outside, and my mother stayed.

Mother above 2 brothers and 5 sisters, no one cares from childhood, and did not catch up with the ****, the family does not have to do any work, even the clothes are washed by the sisters, the youngest five aunts are 5 years older than the mother, the uncle is 25 years older, all this leads to the mother will not clean up the house, will not wash and cook.

At that time, it was not popular to buy and sell, and my sweaters and pants and hats and necks were all woven by Sangu from childhood to adulthood. Cotton clothes and pants are made by Grandma. My grandparents were very kind to me, although they preferred sons to daughters, and they were not as good to me as they were to my 3 cousins, but compared to the other cousins, I was more than enough than the bottom.

And my childhood was raised at both ends of my grandmother's house and my own home. The family lived in a bungalow, and all day long they followed a group of boys through the streets, digging mud, smoking ice monkeys, playing snowball fights, and eating roast dragonflies. When I was 7 years old, I couldn't keep up with school, I was naughty all day, I had short hair, people I didn't know thought it was a kid, and people I knew would say, this is a tomboy.

After a semester passed, the teacher persuaded my parents to send me to boarding school or down for a year. The neighbor's brother was studying at the sports school in the provincial capital, and the neighbor suggested that I be sent to the hospital, and the mother was distressed by the child and was reluctant to suffer and disagree. When I was 8 years old, my father's unit textile factory was yellow, the workers were persuaded to quit, and my mother and father rented a stall to do a food business, that is, to sell some small food, beverages and drinks. After a year, the family was rich, but I was thin again, and I couldn't eat on time, and there was no last meal.

Go to grandpa's house in the summer and winter, you can get better. Later, relatives also persuaded Jean to send me out. So I was sent to sports school when I was 10 years old. It was a small turning point in my life. Originally, I was active, although my health was not good, but after 2 years, all kinds of sports were very good, and I had a fondness for the benchmark. Because of my size, I was sent to the provincial shooting management center at the age of 12, and after entering the shooting center, my love for archery can be said to be unprecedented.

I inherited my father's specialty, entered the national team at the age of 17 to participate in archery competitions, won the national women's championship at the age of 20, won the World Cup Italy knockout round at the age of 21, and won the World Cup Croatia women's knockout round in the same year.

The starting point of my life, the peak of my life, I feel the joy on the podium, watch the national flag is raised, and imagine the beauty of the future. As a result, all this was shattered by an accident, and the plane I was on back to China crashed.

The plane was bumpy up and down, the radio had been playing notes, fastening the seat belt, not moving around, the cabin was very quiet, even everyone's breathing was much lighter. The plane was getting bumpier and worse. The oxygen mask fell, everyone hurriedly listened to the radio belt, and I thought, Is my beautiful life gone? Am I just going to die like this? Unwilling? At the highest point of such a life, it is estimated that it will be a legend in the future, and maybe it will be reported on TV: Guo Moumou won the world championship and reached the peak of his life, and as a result, he was jealous of talent, took a plane crash, and died young...

Slowly someone in the cabin began to cry, I thought it was good that I was a business, if I died, the state should lose a lot of money to the family, it should be enough for the family, the parents are not old, and it should be possible to have a second child.

The planes are getting more and more bumpy, the luggage inside the airport is beginning to fall one after another, and various alarm sounds are sounded, and the noise of chaos is one after another. I don't know when I fainted.

When I woke up again, I found that it was dark around me, my hands and feet could not move, I struggled to move, moved again, and the only thought in my heart was to get out of here quickly. In this dark place, there is no movement, only movement and movement. Then I felt a headache and the strong squeeze made me almost faint. Suddenly, I felt like I slid out along a pile of wet and slippery ones, and the qi in my body blurted out with the squeeze of my abdomen, and I heard the baby's cry and the woman say that she was a, and I felt sleepy, and I was confused.