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Author | Han rabbit fungus
You may not have heard the story of a country girl.
Her name is Zhang Lin, and her friends around her call her "Lin Bao".
The 1 meter 58 tall man stands with a large truck 9 meters 6 long, which seems very out of place.
It seems that she has some difficulty even opening the car door, but she can easily control this "behemoth".
Loading and unloading, reversing the car and turning around, she is no worse than a man.
Lin Bao, born in 1996, has many labels that are not "beautiful":
Female driver, arranged marriage, domestic violence, children, divorced twice...
The labels were like the van in front of her, huge and heavy.
But Lin Bao was not afraid at all.
She domesticated the wagon into an obedient beast and drove herself off into the distance.
01
A few years ago, Lin Bao escaped from Whitewater Village.
It was a small mountain village in Yiliang County, Yunnan, surrounded by mountains, and the blue water was like a mirror, beautiful like a painting.
The fairyland-like hometown has brought countless pains to Lin Bao.
As long as Lin Bao can remember, she knows that her family is very poor.
After school, the students all went home to do homework and play, but Xiao Linbao had to go home to cut firewood and cut pig grass.
After a few days of junior high school, Xiao Linbao was forced to drop out of school because her family could not pay the tuition.
"No matter how many children my mother gives birth to, she will give birth to a son."
Lin Bao's family has a serious "son preference" mentality.
As soon as there is food in the family, it is always the brother who eats first. My brother ate the rest and didn't want to eat it, so she had her share.
Dad always coaxed her: "Sister doesn't cry Ha, we don't watch him eat." ”
Since childhood, Xiao Linbao has not felt the warmth brought by her original family.
What made Lin Bao most unbearable was the "marriage" arranged by her parents when she was 15 years old.
Far from legal marriage age, she was "sold" by her parents to a strange man for 6,000 yuan.
The man was ten years older than she was and a coal miner.
In the "husband's" family, Lin Bao's value is only two-
Work and fertility.
After giving birth, she had to get up at five o'clock in the morning every day to do farm work, and breakfast was boiled water to make rice.
In the second year after marriage, Lin Bao worked outside with her husband's family, and the 30 yuan earned every day was confiscated by her mother-in-law.
What is even more excessive is that once her husband came back drunk and actually beat Lin Bao.
Lin Bao did not hide his patience and immediately called the police.
She ran to her brother for help, but unexpectedly, his brother actually sent her back as she was.
In the eyes of the Lin Bao family, the daughter who married out is like spilling water, where is the saying that she ran back?
When the husband saw that Lin Bao's mother's family did not care, he became more and more rampant and repeatedly committed domestic violence.
Lin Bao ran three times, asked her brother for help three times, and each time was sent back.
The worst domestic violence, Lin Bao was beaten to half a month and could not get out of bed.
Lin Bao couldn't bear it anymore, and there was only one thought in her mind—escape.
She took the 500 yuan saved from part-time work and fled to Hangzhou alone.
But the escape did not go well.
On the train, Lin Bao's bag and shoes were stolen. Penniless and barefoot, she spent 4 days alone in Hangzhou.
Lin Bao, who walked out of the mountains for the first time, finally had the opportunity to see the outside world.
Even if things don't go well, she is still full of hope for a new life.
She didn't know what it was to be tired and what was to be bitter, all she knew was that there was freedom here.
02
Lin Bao has worked in various kinds of jobs: hotel waiters, car washers, and female assembly line workers in electronics factories, with an income of three or four thousand yuan per month.
Outside of work, Lin Bao likes to share her daily life through short videos.
A man named Chen Xun often came to her to comment, and when they came and went, the two of them felt good about each other and began to communicate.
Chen Xun is a truck driver, and the first time they met, Lin Bao was deeply attracted to him.
"The way he drives a big truck, he's really handsome!"
Chen Xun learned of Lin Bao's past, and he said that he did not care about the past, only about their future.
Lin Bao was deeply moved.
For the first time, Lin Bao had her own love.
After only two months of acquaintance, Lin Bao and Chen Xun "flashed marriage".
On the wedding day, Chen Xun found a convoy of large trucks to send relatives, domineering and romantic.
After marriage, Lin Bao was not satisfied with being called "Sister-in-law", she also wanted to drive a truck and make money with her husband.
Chen Xun disagreed, "How can a woman drive and there is no man around?" ”
Lin Bao's attitude was very firm: "You are out in the sports car, so I don't want to stay at home and bring you a doll." ”
She was reluctant to be a housewife and insisted that she had financial resources.
Who says women can't drive well?
Lin Bao secretly went to the driving school to register and made an appointment for the subject one exam.
With her own strength, she did not hang up and successfully got a truck driver's license.
Even the coach couldn't help but marvel:
"She was the second female truck driver ever for our driving school. The youngest, the shortest, and the best on the test. ”
When Lin Bao happily took her driver's license to apply, she did not expect to run into walls everywhere.
"I found three car captains, but I don't want me."
The reason is simple - women who drive trucks are so rare.
When people think of truck drivers, they tend to think of strong men. Look at the 1 meter 58 Lin Bao, which is completely contrary to it. "Girls, can you drive such a big car?"
"You're a baby girl, you're still so young, I'm afraid you didn't buy a driver's license, right?"
In the voice of the outside world's doubts about the "female driver", Lin Bao's family is looking for it and asking it one by one.
Finally, after interviewing a courier company, the other party was willing to give her a chance.
"I want to prove that we female drivers are really not road killers."
Lin Bao often drives night cars.
From 11:00 p.m., drive for eight and a half hours, arrive at Quanzhou Transit Station in Fujian Province, take a break and continue to depart, and return to Wenzhou.
When you are sleepy, you will chew a bite of chili noodles, and when you are hungry, you will insist on eating a fast food at the transit station.
Due to the long-term travel on the road, rarely go home, Lin Bao can only wash, wash clothes, or even take cold showers in the service area.
Sleep with her plush toys on your back, lie on the steering wheel and squint for a while, rest and go on the road.
Trucks became Lin Bao's "home".
Starvation, staying up late, inconvenient access to the toilet, sitting for long periods of time... This skinny little girl never cried tired.
Day after day, Lin Bao relied on her own efforts to raise her monthly salary to more than 10,000 yuan.
The road is long, but there is always a beam of light waiting for her.
Husband Chen Xun ran from Quanzhou to Jingzhou, three days a round trip, the couple just saw each other once a week.
This is the spiritual driving force of Linbao's daily sports car.
When we reached the rest area, two large trucks stopped opposite each other.
Lin Bao and Chen Xun each jumped out of the car, ran to each other, and hugged each other tightly under the illumination of the headlights.
Sweetness and happiness are about to overflow the screen.
There is bread, there is love, and Lin Bao at this moment is free and happy.
03
Years ago, Lin Bao escaped from her ex-husband's shadow. At the same time, she lost her children.
When she returned to her hometown again, she had a hard time finding her son, but he did not know her.
"Do you know who I am?" Don't you recognize me? ”
"Oh, I'm Mom, you called me..."
Looking at the child's expression, Lin Bao cried.
The boy twisted his face, stiffly shouted "Mom", and then asked, "Where is the phone watch you said you bought for me?" ”
The child had no feelings for her.
Lin Bao knew that she was absent from her child's childhood, and she owed her child too much, too much.
The class bell rang, the son returned to the classroom, and Lin Bao was lying by the window and was reluctant to leave.
At this moment, the boy, in the sound of reading aloud, while reading along, wiped the tears with the back of his hand...
The word "mom" was too foreign to him.
The boy had long been accustomed to a life without maternal love, but when the role of "mother" suddenly came one day, the boy's heart could not be tightened.
"I'm not a qualified mother."
"I have the ability to give birth to him, but I can't raise him..."
Lin Bao's heart was full of self-blame and pain.
She hated that she had not been able to take her child with her, and now she wanted to do her best to make up for the regret of not being with her child all these years.
When her son was out of school, Lin Bao bought toys and snacks and came to the house to find him.
She taught her son to ride a bicycle, took selfies with him, and showed him videos of herself driving a big car.
The picture of mother and son getting along is warm and moving.
"To have a child to hold is to be comfortable!"
Lin Bao, who has always been strong and capable, revealed the most gentle appearance when she was a mother.
When Lin Bao offered to bring her husband to meet the children, Chen Xun refused.
What Lin Bao did not expect was that Chen Xun did not even allow Lin Bao to visit the child.
"He has nothing to do with you, what else are you going to see?"
After Chen Xun learned that Lin Bao had spent 200 yuan to buy a small bicycle for his child, he was furious and asked Lin Bao to get the bicycle back.
The man who once threatened to "not mind your past" now forced Lin Bao to cut off the feelings of mother and child whose blood was thicker than water on the grounds that "I was not allowed to raise children for others at home".
He had never imagined how cruel it was for a mother.
Lin Bao, who has always been independent and autonomous, cannot accept her husband's feudal ideas, let alone his macho behavior.
The contradictions between the two became irreconcilable, and the number of quarrels increased.
Zhang Lin and Chen Xun decided to divorce.
04
The two people, who are also truck drivers, eventually chose to separate because of different directions.
When she first got married, Lin Bao made a birthday wish-
With Chen Xun and the two of them, they worked hard to buy a small house as soon as possible.
Now, Lin Bao has changed his goal - "I will buy a car and a house on my own efforts, and I will not rely on anyone." ”
Lin Bao also made a decision to bring her parents to the city to live.
No matter how they had treated her, she had now decided to let go.
She also has to redouble her efforts to earn money to get her son into a good college.
It was dawn, and Lin Bao was on the road alone again.
The scenery outside the car window quickly regressed, just as the people and things that Lin Bao had experienced were also speeding through her world.
Her eyes were fixed firmly ahead.
What the scenery in the distance looks like, you have to go to know.
She held her head high and sang loudly:
"Bow your head, expect the daylight, and accept all the mockery. Toward the wind, embrace the rainbow, bravely move forward..."
Clutching the steering wheel of the van, Lin Bao is bravely driving toward freedom.
Resources:
Documentary "Above Chai Rice Oil and Salt" Episode 2 "Lin Bao" Taizhou Evening News: "Lin Bao, a post-95 female truck driver: Life is full of hardships, applaud yourself"