When it comes to talented women in the Republic of China period, many people first think of women such as Lin Huiyin, Bing Xin, Zhang Ailing, etc., all of whom have certain outstanding contributions to literature, and their talents are also different. And there is another woman here, whose talent and beauty are not lost to Lin Huiyin, but because of some flaws in her emotional life, her talent is buried, leaving the world with most of the ridicule and insults. She is Lu Xiaoman.
Lu Xiaoman's life, like other talented women in the Republic of China, is not an ordinary person's child. Her father worked in a bank, she lived in Shanghai as a child, and after the age of 6, the family moved to Beijing, so she had both the delicacy of Shanghainese and the openness of Beijingers in her bones. Such a personality also had a very great impact on her later life, and was the culprit that directly led to her bad life.
When other women were married as wives, Lu Xiaoman was still studying in school, and the cultivation of the senior academy for more than ten years made Lu Xiaoman very excellent. She can play and sing, opera and piano; she especially likes to draw, oil painting and ink painting are not bad; she also knows two foreign languages, and at the age of 16, she often participates in the work of receiving foreign visitors. These talents laid the foundation for her future lifestyle, accustomed to the style of high society, and it is really too difficult to be an ordinary person again.
Since the age of 18, Lu Xiaoman's three words have resounded throughout various social circles. She was young, pretty, elegant, talented and learned, a walking treasure girl who was attractive everywhere she went. At that time, Lu Xiaoman seemed to have become the most popular celebrity in Beijing, and men were proud to have talked to her, and women were still full of jealousy and envy even if they were wary of her.
When Lu Xiaoman was 19 years old, although his parents were cultural people, they still could not escape the habit of Chinese parents, so they chose a son-in-law for Lu Xiaoman, who was particularly satisfactory to them, and did not ask Lu Xiaoman whether he was willing, so they let the two get married. And all the encounters behind Lu Xiaoman, in fact, began with this marriage that did not follow her wishes.
Lu Xiaoman's husband was sincere, at that time, he was a general on the famous Zhen side, Wang Geng, who was not low in status, his ability was outstanding, he was not old, and his appearance was also handsome. At first, Lu Xiaoman should still be satisfied with this airborne husband, and the two also had a short happy time after marriage. However, how could Lu Xiaoman, who was mixed in the social circle and lingered on the stage of fine wine, be willing to be a military sister-in-law who was safe and guarded by himself?
In the second year after the new marriage, Wang Geng was transferred to the northeast, where the environment was harsh, and most of the year was ice and snow, and ordinary people really couldn't stand it. Wang Geng hoped that Lu Xiaoman would go to the northeast with him, after all, it was the newlywed Yan'er, and he was reluctant to marry his wife. But Lu Xiaoman really did not like such a cold and lonely place, she directly refused her husband's request, preferring to stay in Beijing alone.
At that time, Lu Xiaoman was only 21 years old, although he was a wife, he was actually just a little woman who had just opened her heart. In the days without Wang Geng, Xu Zhimo appeared. A person's marriage is like a fiction, a person has just been emotionally injured; a person is beautiful and knows that the painting can sing, and a talent is high and romantic to the extreme. These two people meet, just like Mars hitting the earth, feeling sorry for each other and admiring each other.
Lu Xiaoman desperately fell in love with Xu Zhimo, and Xu Zhixu also felt that heaven had mercy on him, and after losing Lin Huiyin, he sent a beautiful woman who did not lose to her. Two people fall in love, regardless of the world's eyes, warm and sincere. And that stupid and uninformed Wang Geng even told Lu Xiaoman that if he felt bored alone, he could go to his friend Xu Zhimo more and let him chat with her to relieve boredom.
Lu Xiaoman was 22 years old, and in the third year after marrying Wang Geng, he resolutely divorced him, although Wang Geng did everything he could, but the soldiers also had the dignity of soldiers, and he chose to let each other be separated with dignity. Then Lu Xiaoman and Xu Zhimo successfully married on the day of Qixi in the following year. The combination of the two angered Xu Zhimo's father, causing him to almost break off relations with Xu Zhimo from then on. He also suffered from Liang Qichao's sarcasm, and even when he witnessed their marriage, he also made a mockery that the two were two marriages, but there should be no three marriages.
After marriage, forced by Xu Zhimo's conflict with his family, the two left Beijing and went to Shanghai. Xu Zhimo is deeply in love with Lu Xiaoman, and in the first few years of marriage, in order to save her from a little suffering, he was almost responsive to her. Lu Xiaoman likes to dance, so let her go; Lu Xiaoman likes pomp, then the driver and the maid are invited; Lu Xiaoman is stained with smoke, although he is a little annoyed, he also desperately tries to make money to make her happy.
Moreover, the two can also be regarded as Qinse and Ming, who have created a lot of opera and literary works together, and for a time they have become the companions of the gods in everyone's eyes, and they all think that maybe they are right to be together.
However, the combination of the two is not so much to say that they met the right person at the right time, but rather that they just met each other in the empty window period. Although he is attracted by the appearance of a momentary talent, he is not the one whose soul fits after all. After two or three years of marriage, the two people have constant contradictions, often three days a small quarrel, five days a big quarrel. Xu Zhimo wanted to run around several cities desperately to make money for Lu Xiaoman, he was very tired. He wanted to flee.
Therefore, Xu Zhimo returned to Beijing to teach, during which he asked Lu Xiaoman to go to Beijing with him several times to do his own creations, but he was rejected. Lu Xiaoman seemed to have been under the spell and began to live alone again. She may have been shaken in her heart, but the colorful nature of the social circle is too addictive to her, and Shanghai is much more luxurious than Beijing.
When Lu Xiaoman was 29 years old, Xu Zhimo left her forever due to a plane crash on the way to Beijing. For a time, all kinds of insults and accusations poured into her. Everyone thinks that if it weren't for her indulging in enjoyment every day and making Xu Zhimo tired of making money, Xu Zhimo wouldn't have an accident. If she hadn't been unwilling to follow Xu Zhimo to Beijing, and had to let him toss back and forth between Beijing and Shanghai, Xu Zhimo wouldn't have an accident. The crowd's rejection of her has reached the point where she will not be allowed to claim Xu Zhimo's remains and not allow her to attend his funeral.
Lu Xiaoman was very depressed for a while in the face of Xu Zhimo's unexpected death, she was deeply in love with Xu Zhimo from beginning to end, but if she loved someone, she must turn herself into the other party's favorite? Is that still her? She didn't choose to compromise, was she wrong?
During this period, Lu Xiaoman slowly sorted out Xu Zhimo's various literary works, and compiled his various handwritten notes into a book and published them one by one. It was the only thing she could do for Xu Zhimo.
When Lu Xiaoman was 36 years old, he was still with Weng Ruiwu, but only together and did not marry. She once said that this was a thank you to him, thanking him for taking care of herself for so many years, and she had to face up to this relationship. But she couldn't let go of Xu Zhimo, and she didn't fall in love with Weng Ruiwu, and Quan should be grateful to him.
In the decades that followed, Lu Xiaoman lived a miserable life, suffering from illness, financial constraints, no friends, and even accepted the help of Xu Zhimo's ex-wife Zhang Youyi. But she still loves life, and lives hard and determined. During this period, he also wrote several books, painted countless paintings, and became a painter at the Shanghai China Academy of Painting, but the social circle went less, and the opera was not sung much. After experiencing love and hate, Lu Xiaoman is no longer like a blooming rose like when he was young, beautiful and charming, and full of thorns. She became quiet, indisputable.
In 1965, Lu Xiaoman was 62 years old and finally came to the end of his life. Her life was not as vigorous as Lin Huiyin's, nor was it as big as Zhang Youyi's. She finally walked in the world with a maverick posture and never changed for anyone. Perhaps her biggest regret is that she can't be buried with Xu Zhimo after death, and the only man she loves in this life has become the only pain in her life.