At the end of the day, the crowd poured into the subway station at night.
Each face carried a similar indifference and exhaustion.
The body mechanically walked through the crowd, and a voice sounded in the heart, summing up this busy but fruitless day:
"All relationships are like work, every moment of sobriety is working."
"Nothing happened and no one liked me."
Who stole my life and made it into a 9.1 Korean drama ?
My Liberation Journal.
The Korean dramas with 9 points on the top 9 will appear several times a year, which is not unusual.
What is strange is that I have never had such a viewing experience in domestic dramas.
As about the workplace, domestic dramas are most likely to be smart and independent heroines framed by colleagues, appreciated by their superiors, and promoted and in love.
In this drama, the heroine Lian Meixi is beautiful but has no charm.
Colleagues talk about dinners, travel, nail art, she is not interested in any of them.
Pulled to a party, she beats her spirits to try to blend in, only to find that no one pays attention to her presence.
Unable to complete the social KPI, she was always interviewed by the company's happiness assistance center.
I had to form a "runaway club" with two middle-aged men who fell alone together.
It was supposed to be for an errand, but suddenly she wanted to take it seriously.
Because she felt like she was imprisoned, she wanted to do something to break through the siege and be liberated.
Just like talking about family, our period drama has a succession of life blows, life dramas are always inseparable from the tearing and reconciliation with the original family, and urban dramas are stuffed with chickens and dogs jumping in the middle class buying a house and female birth.
In this drama, parents are busy working, and children are busy going to work.
The family eats at the same table, but there is nothing new or considerate to talk about.
The biggest meaning of home is the place to eat and sleep, and there is no big contradiction between family members, but don't expect warm care.
The same about love, domestic dramas repeatedly jump between high-sweet sugar and sadistic lungs.
In this drama, Ming Ming Jin Suyuan has a delicate sweetness that cannot be hidden by shabby dress, and Sun Xijiu even if he does not say a word, his eyebrows and eyes are full of seductive sexual tension.
But they were stunned that they couldn't say a few words in one episode.
It is rare to be in the same frame, either eating in silence or passing by, or looking at each other on the bus.
Let the audience their hearts for their sex life.
This is the sense of silence and distance that domestic dramas cannot tolerate.
Even compared with the Korean drama itself, "My Liberation Journal" is also a clear stream.
Instead of relying on eye-catching strong settings and strong plots, it gently and shallowly captures a life mood and state - the tiredness that cannot be shouted out by daily experience.
It is so common, so common that everyone will experience it, and it is afraid to appear pretentious to speak out, and everyone tacitly acknowledges that this is a normal emotion.
After a long time of accumulation, it slowly evolves into a disease of the times - extreme indifference to people and things, loss of enthusiasm for life, and loss of hope for the future.
Just like the three sisters and brothers of the Lian family in the story.
Living with his parents on the outskirts of Gyeonggi Province, he spends more than three hours a day in the city to work.
This means that the company's team building has to leave early, the love in the same city has failed, and if you want to have two drinks with friends, you have to pinch the watch to catch the last train home.
Life is going to work, going home, two points and one line.
All that remaining leisure is wasted on a variety of means of transport.
It is hard to rest on weekends, but also to be a filial and sensible East Asian child, to help the toiling parents to work in the fields.
The korean countryside, which is full of summer sunshine and lush greenery, does not rely on the idyllic imagination of what years are quiet.
It only means hot weather, sweat steaming out of the body, physical work that has to be done after a short break.
In this village with an exodus of people, nothing major has ever happened except for the floods in the summer and the death of the old man.
Like every East Asian family, the father seems to have never been happy, the mother always sighs because of the child' affairs, and she can't earn a few dollars by working hard.
Beneath the surface of a calm and unwavering life is the never-ending enslavement of man by labor and work.
As Duras said, "Love is the heroic dream of a tired life."
People in the play also think, talk about love, love life will not be so boring.
The eldest sister, Lian Ji, has been working in a company for 14 years, doing the same job every day, scolding the same group of people.
As she grew older, she feared that she would reincarnate indefinitely in such days until she died.
She used to pick and choose men, and she vowed to find someone to fall in love with before winter.
But the boss only skipped her after all the sisters in the department, and every blind date would end in failure.
She didn't know what her problem was, and everyone was still talking about her own set of strange and outdated love theories.
She tried to perm her beautiful hair and spend a lot of money to cut her eye bags, thinking that these were the beginning of change, but the romantic encounter was still slow to come.
The second brother, Lian Changxi, just broke up with his girlfriend of many years.
The reason is not at all that the girlfriend chats with other men, nor the bits and pieces of details that she can't rent in the city.
Every failed love affair made him see clearly that he was a bad man.
I have not been promoted after many years of work, and good things always can't turn myself, and I even have to look at my father's face to buy a car.
In this way, he is obviously unable to grasp his own life and bear the expectations of others.
Before he got out of the predicament, he did not dare to start a new relationship easily.
The little sister Meixi is a typical high-sensitivity and low-self-esteem personality in the relationship, always attracting some wang bastards.
Lending money to her ex-boyfriend does not dare to chase debts, obviously it is someone else who owes money, she is like the one who did the wrong thing.
From childhood to adulthood, the ability to learn is mediocre, the ability to work is mediocre, and the ability to fall in love is also mediocre.
She scored only 20 points on her life exam paper.
In order to escape the unbearable feeling of finding herself in interpersonal interactions, she deliberately closed her inner desires.
Lack of interest in anything, not completely fond of anyone.
In the play, she continues to output mournful quotes -
"I'm not unlucky, but I'm not happy either."
"The time to be in a good mood is no more than two hours a day, and the rest of the time is spent bracing hard."
"Everyone is dying, and I don't understand why everyone is so happy."
But her mourning is not like the pessimistic world-weariness of a depressed patient, deliberately venting some negative energy, but a sober statement to the heart, and yes, it is indeed an existential crisis that plagues us.
Until a mysterious Mr. Ku appeared in her life.
Silent all day, drunk day and night, no one knows where he came from, no one knows his name.
After an emotional breakdown, she finally plucked up the courage to confess:
I want to be filled with my heart once, so you adore me.
Love alone is not enough, worship me.
It is difficult to say that Mei Xi is really in love with Mr. Gu at this moment.
Witnessing him drinking, hurting, and self-destruct again and again, Mihi saw that they were the same kind of people, and their hearts were the same emptiness.
Worship adds to the loneliness of not asking for anything in return than love.
Contemporary people's love, full of portal views, pros and cons weighing, men and women wear masks to love people with reservations, such a love talk will only make our evaluation of "people" lower and lower, Meixi does not want to repeat the same mistakes.
The reason for choosing a depressed man who seems to be an alcoholic to outsiders is to use the firm support in the trough to prove the weight of this relationship.
Love has become her life-saving straw against nothingness, and it is the lightness of life that she cannot bear, and she can grasp her own anchor.
Even if I look at the fatigue and nothingness of contemporary people, I don't think this is a funeral drama.
In ordinary life, there are still lovely people.
Like the duan zi hand as Lian Changxi, some desperate facts were spoken by him, and there was always an unexpected effect of god spitting.
The fairy friendship that grew up together from childhood is helpless without choice in his mouth.
His father suppressed him with the posture of the head of the family, and his mother urged marriage and childbearing at every turn, and he treated him in his own way.
At first it sounds quite rebellious, but it makes sense to listen carefully.
Have you learned?
Entrepreneurship can't borrow money, he complained: "Why don't the people I love have money?" ”
Who expected this bitter physique to be used by him to curse the nasty workplace seniors.
The pain and torment of life seemed to be invisible by his self-deprecation.
More importantly, there is hope in the immutable landscape.
Just like the billboard that constantly appears in the play - "Today you will have good things happening", it pins on people's secret expectations for life.
In episode 4, there was finally a rare climactic passage.
Between work, Mei Zhen's hat was blown by the wind to the other end of the canal.
Mr. Gu rarely took the initiative and showed a real skill.
Only to see him leap in the air, almost "flying" to the end, and picked up the hat back.
The sudden wind, the superhuman bouncing force, is like a magical moment that appears out of life.
Mr. Ku created an opportunity for MeiZhen to worship him.
On the night of the confession, Mr. Ku coldly rejected Mei Xi, saying that he did not want anything to happen to anyone.
And this leap is the beginning of his acceptance of others, and it is also the beginning of his transformation.
The two people are like two plants that are about to wither, hugging each other through the cold winter, looking forward to the emergence of new shoots in the spring of the next year.
Good things do not happen naturally, it actually begins when people take the initiative to break the barrier and isolation from the outside world.
For example, Mr. Gu has this change because on a rainy night, he vaguely wants to end his life with a leaking power line, and Mihi braves the rain to rush him into the house and save his life.
It is this "self-made sentimentality" that connects two lonely and empty hearts.
Perhaps in the eyes of some people, the exhaustion and powerlessness of revealing reality is equivalent to spreading negative energy.
But who says only positive, outgoing, positive people and things deserve to walk in the sun?
When we face the darkness of our hearts, we may find the light that is alive.