I feel like I have been deceived, my name is Shi Jing, 42 years old this year, the family is happy to have two daughters, my husband also loves me, but I actually like to cheat! What I do to myself really is

I feel like I have been deceived, my name is Shi Jing, 42 years old this year, the family is happy to have two daughters, my husband also loves me, but I actually like to cheat! I really hated what I did, but I couldn't help myself, and I destroyed the house with my own hands.

My husband and I have been married for more than ten years, the relationship has been very good, there is no unpleasant thing, my husband will buy me a lot of gifts every holiday anniversary, since I met a brother who is 10 years younger than me, this has changed.

Because of the epidemic, I stayed at home to play games on the Internet to watch videos, until one day I met a man with a good voice in the game, so the two of us often teamed up to play games, and slowly the relationship became abnormal, we added our respective contact information, and the words that often chatted revealed a little ambiguity.

I knew I was mentally cheating, and I knew I had a family and couldn't do that, but I was still addicted to it, liked to talk to him by voice, play games, we only saw each other's photos and videos online, we didn't meet because of the epidemic, and then until he offered to meet for dinner, I was moved.

I met this guy who was 10 years younger than me in reality, and what I didn't expect was that he was more handsome than in the photo, we were eating steak in a Western restaurant, when he ordered a bottle of red wine, we ate and talked, everything we talked about, my liking for him increased wildly, and that night I had an absurd plot with him.

Afterwards, I felt very guilty in my heart, and I constantly condemned my behavior in my heart, and whenever I saw my husband, I was ashamed, and I decided to cut off all relations with a boy and no longer have contact, so my life gradually returned to calm.

Later I went to a cake shop as a clerk, just when everything was developing in a good way, but because of a dinner and messed up, that day the boss invited us all to dinner that night, because I did not stand still when I got up, I fell on a handsome clerk next to me, he put his arm around my shoulder and looked at me, when I looked at him, I actually had love in my heart, this idea was quickly cut off by me, I went to wash my face to make myself sober, What I didn't expect was that as soon as I came out, I saw him standing to the side and said to me, "Are you okay?" Or I'll send you back, it's almost over before it's too early. ”

I didn't reject him, so he sent me home, and then our relationship became a little abnormal, he knew that I had a husband and children, and I knew that he had a wife, and we knew better that we would not choose to divorce because of each other.

Until one day, because of the weather, he sent me away again, I had a very bad idea about him in my heart, things developed more bloodily, and I actually ... Derailed...

Later I left the cake shop, want to go anywhere at home to meditate, reflect on it, just a week after I made up my mind, the mobile phone suddenly launched a voice invitation to me, I picked up the mobile phone to see, is a colleague I knew in the unit a long time ago, we did not talk at all in addition to conveying work matters, this day he actually asked me to watch a movie!

I understood his thoughts, I refused him and told him, don't look for me again, I have a family with a husband and children, I don't want anything bad to happen with you, and when I finished, I deleted him categorically.

The funny thing is that I met him again downstairs at my house that day, he said that he came to see me specifically, and said that he would not disturb me, just thought of me, wanted to see me from a distance, did not expect to find him, this remark actually made my heart float again, I constantly cursed my own thoughts in my heart.

But just after a bunch of his ambiguous words, I went to a movie with him, and after dinner went straight to the hotel. . . .

Afterwards, I was extremely annoyed, feeling that I was the real Pan Jinlian, being merciful to people everywhere, the key is that I found that I was addicted to it and could not extricate myself, I would still think about them from time to time, what is wrong with me? Do I need to look at psychological problems? In this way, my family was destroyed by me, I don't want to end up divorced with my husband, and I don't want my daughter to know about my cheating, what should I do?

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@Xiaoyu has something to say

I think it has a lot to do with your own desires, if you can't control yourself, your family breakdown is inevitable, if you want people to not know, unless you can't do anything about it, you should understand it, right? I hope you're doing it yourself!

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