We met in a country known as a gentleman, elegant and romantic. We talk about nature and laughter about life in a university full of humanistic atmosphere. What a wonderful and enjoyable time. But we didn't seem to be able to meet at the right time, and we were ultimately unable to get together.
This is the story between Xu Zhimo and Lin Huiyin in my eyes. But a few words can not tell the subtle feelings in it, can only tell the story between Xu Zhimo and Lin Huiyin here.
In the 1900s, many children with the ability to live in the family basically chose to study abroad or traveled around the world. Lin Huiyin, who was sixteen years old at the time, traveled to Europe with the help of his family. While playing in England, the young Lin Huiyin met xu Zhimo, who was twenty-four years old.
At that time, Xu Zhimo was a young man, full of talent, and wrote a good poem, so the personable Xu Zhimo and the gentle and quiet Lin Huiyin met in England. During that period, Lin Huiyin and Xu Zhimo had close contacts, and both of them had a very high evaluation of each other.
Xu Zhimo gradually fell in love with Lin Huiyin, and gradually had the idea of divorcing his wife Zhang Youyi. But at that time, Xu Zhimo was already the father of a two-year-old child. In the eyes of others, Xu Zhimo's ideas deviated from the moral code. But Xu Zhimo didn't care at all, his eyes were full of Lin Huiyin.
In the book "Preface to the Tiger Collection", it is written that Xu Zhimo had "no connection with poetry at all" before the age of twenty-four, and it was his encounter with Lin Huiyin that inspired his new poetry creation. This also paved a good foundation for him to become the representative poet of the modern Crescent School.
But after that they were separated for various reasons. During this period of separation, Xu Zhimo wrote a collection of poems that revealed the nostalgia and remembrance of This Britain, that time, and Lin Huiyin.
In the relationship between Lin Huiyin and Xu Zhimo, we have to mention a character - Zhang Youyi. The marriage between Zhang Youyi and Xu Zhimo is typical of parents. Xu Zhimo had never loved Zhang Youyi from the beginning, and even looked down on her out of some intellectuals.
But Zhang Youyi never said a single bad word about Xu Zhimo, even when she came to England thousands of miles and heard the news of divorce, she would simply leave. Zhang Youyi was not as popular as Lu Xiaoman and others, but she was a strange woman who would live her life decisively and crisply.
It is said that after Xu Zhimo and Lin Huiyin left, both of them wanted to run in their respective directions. Lin Hui, with the help of his family, went to the University of Pennsylvania to study architecture. During the four years they separated, Liang Sicheng and Lin Huiyin married and the two continued to develop in the construction industry together.
At that time, Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng could be described as a good story, and also left a classic sentence - "I want to answer this question with my whole life, are you ready to listen to my answer?" ”。 During this time, Xu Zhimo continued to write poems and publish poetry collections, and was also invited by people from all over the world to teach in various universities, and at the same time, Lu Xiaoman met and fell in love through the introduction of people.
Four years later, Xu Zhimo heard that Lin Huiyin was going to give a speech. So I took a plane to see Lin Huiyin, who knew that the plane crash. Xu Zhimo did not succeed in seeing Lin Huiyin in the end.
When we others look at the feelings between Xu Zhimo and Lin Huiyin through words, we always feel a hint of ambiguity. But when we look back at the literature written by Xu Zhimo at that time, we will speculate about the change in Xu Zhimo's feelings for Lin Huiyin. "I am a cloud in the sky, occasionally cast in your heart—you don't have to be surprised, you don't have to rejoice—and in the blink of an eye, it disappears."
In one poem, I sensed a hint of hesitation in Xu Zhimo. Where does this come from? Maybe it's family, maybe it's age. It is also these external factors that make the two finally agree to break up, and the relationship is just friends. It seems that the relationship between the two is more than friends, but only friends.
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The Biography of Lin Huiyin