Pictured| Yu Xiuhua
introduction
One morning in October 2015, a small rural woman who stumbled even walked to the local people's court and handed her divorce papers to the staff. For this reason, her parents cried red-eyed: "A good family, how did it disperse like this?" ”
After some netizens heard about this, they also set off a storm and complained for his husband: "As soon as she became famous, she betrayed her original marriage and harmed the honest people who worked hard to earn money outside to support their families." ”
For many arguments, she, who is nearly 40 years old, responded lightly: "My divorce has nothing to do with money, has nothing to do with feelings, and has nothing to do with poetry." ”
This nearly 40-year-old rural woman is no one else, it is Yu Xiuhua who became popular in 2015 for a song "Across Most of China to Sleep with You". After the explosion of popularity, the online media called her "peasant poet", "cerebral palsy poet" and China's "Emily. Dickinson", has become the focus of public attention.
Photo | Yu Xiuhua
01 Born with cerebral palsy, he dropped out of high school in anger and entered marriage
Born in 1976, Yu Xiuhua is a native of Hengdian Village, Shipai Town, Zhongxiang City, Hubei Province, to honest farmers. On the day of birth, Yu Xiuhua suffered congenital cerebral palsy due to lack of oxygen in reverse labor, which doomed her to not be able to walk sharply, speak fluently, and control her life arbitrarily in the future.
Since childhood, Yu Xiuhua has been very difficult to walk, and can only crawl around in front of her own yard. With the help of her family, she began to learn to walk slowly on a walker, and later switched to crutches to walk. At a time when other children were able to play carefree, Yu Xiuhua could only walk shakily at the age of 6.
Although born with a disability, Yu Xiuhua still has the opportunity to learn. At the age of 8, Yu Xiuhua and her brother, who was two years younger, finally came to primary school as they wished.
For Yu Xiuhua, her father was particularly distressed, and he would carry her to school every day. At school, this simple farmer also instructed the teacher: Arrange a small partner for her daughter to go to the toilet.
In junior high school, Yu Xiuhua's school was more than a dozen miles away from home, and her brother could only drive her to school on a bicycle. Of course, the sisters and brothers will inevitably have contradictions, and the younger brother will gamble and not want to drive her to school. The father looked at the two of them and felt both funny and bitter.
Under the care of her family, Yu Xiuhua continued to study until high school. In her sophomore year of high school, she suddenly returned home in a huff, claiming that she was going to drop out of school and burn all her books.
It turned out that the Chinese teacher in the high school where Yu Xiuhua studied thought that the words she wrote were crooked and difficult to distinguish, so he gave her a zero score for her composition. For Yu Xiuhua, composition is one of her most proud talents, and she is born with a sensitive and self-esteem, she really can't stand the strange eyes of her classmates, so she decided to drop out of school.
Yu Xiuhua does not want to go to university, but she is also well aware of her physical condition, which is also a burden for her family. Later, she recalled the incident, saying:
"I was afraid that I would regret it in the future, so I ran to school to study, and after burning the books, even if I regretted it, it was too late."
Since then, Yu Xiuhua has been idle at home. Because she couldn't do much farm work, she had to help her family cook, sweep the floor, and feed the rabbits.
Later, with the help of her parents, she set up a grocery store in the village, while Yu Xiuhua helped to look after the store. When there are no guests, Yu Xiuhua will read books alone. From Tang poems, Song Ci, and Yuan Qu, she read them several times and could even memorize them. Gradually, she began to try to write poetry herself.
The reason why she chose to write poetry, Yu Xiuhua felt that poetry used the least number of words in all genres, and it was convenient to write. Recalling his experience of writing poems, Yu Xiuhua said: "I use my greatest strength to maintain my body balance, and use my greatest strength to press my wrists before I can twist and twist and write out. ”
As inspiration continued to emerge, Yu Xiuhua's poems were written in seven or eight notebooks, adding up to nearly 100 poems. In the poem, Yu Xiuhua praises her father the most, and she laments that even if his father is old, he does not dare to produce gray hair because he also has a disabled daughter.
Although the life after the leisure makes Yu Xiuhua's life much easier, the mental pressure is much less. But something she didn't expect even more. The subsequent married life made her step into the darkness and abyss.
Picture | Yu Xiuhua in his hometown
When Yu Xiuhua was 19 years old, her parents recruited a door-to-door son-in-law. Since then, this rural man, who is a full 13 years older than Yu Xiuhua, has become her husband. The year after her marriage, she gave birth to a son.
Yu Xiuhua's husband is a farmer from a poor mountain village in Sichuan named Yin Zhiping. At that time, she did not understand love, she thought that love was very romantic, had no concept of marriage, and did not know how to have children after marriage. In her conception, she believes that marriage is "the word of the mother's destiny", and she will marry whomever her parents ask her to marry.
On the day she received the marriage certificate at the local civil affairs bureau, Yu Xiuhua seemed to have predicted and murmured: "What I get now is a marriage certificate, maybe one day it will be a divorce certificate." And this sentence is also a proverb, and it was really unfortunately said by her 20 years later.
02 The marriage is not satisfactory, and Yu Xiuhua looks for solace in poetry
Soon after getting married, Yu Xiuhua soon discovered her husband's dislike for herself. Yin Zhiping always ignored her love and would drink and get drunk from time to time. Yu Xiuhua occasionally complained a few words, and he left impatiently. In addition, Yin Zhiping also likes to send her to wash her feet and make tea.
Pictured| Yu Xiuhua and her husband
Unhappy, he muttered, "I am a normal person, you are not a normal person, I am much more noble than you." Yu Xiuhua had strong self-esteem, and could not stand her husband's indifference and arrogance towards her, and could only fight back: "You man is because he does not have a little skill, he has become a door-to-door son-in-law to my family, otherwise what ability do you have to let me marry you!" ”
In the face of her husband's indifference and violence, Yu Xiuhua really couldn't stand it, and soon thought of divorce, but this idea was blocked by her parents. For them: a disabled rural woman like a girlfriend, it is good to be able to marry out, not to mention that there are still people who are willing to be their own door-to-door son-in-law.
Yu Xiuhua's parents are firm in their hearts: It is better to have someone to take care of their daughter now than nothing. But for Yu Xiuhua, it was this marriage that destroyed all her fantasies about love. She always believed that she was just an outsider to marriage.
As her experience grew and she grew older, she became more and more eager to have a true lover who could communicate with her on an equal footing, about his joys and sorrows, his sorrows and sorrows. And this husband of his own now, obviously can't do this.
In the poem, Yu Xiuhua unceremoniously refers to her marriage as a "sin of youth." In the poem, she writes:
At that time, there was an overwhelming sadness, and in the marriage of 19 years old, my body did not have a good place, I did not know so that the extension was today's loneliness...
Later, Yin Zhiping went out to work and rarely sent money to his family. Every year after returning home during the Spring Festival, it is also like a routine. Every time the two of them first met, there would be an argument.
One year, her husband, Yin Zhiping, was owed 800 yuan in wages. In order to collect the debt, Yin Zhiping said to her: "Wait for the boss's car to drive out, you stop and help me ask for the debt." You're a disabled person, and I'm sure they wouldn't dare hit you. ”
Yu Xiuhua asked, "What if they really bump into each other?" Yin Zhiping was silent. She felt a chill in her heart and got up and left. She knows that in her husband's eyes, her life is not even worth 800 yuan, not even a pig.
In this unfortunate marriage, Yu Xiuhua also tried to prove that she was fully capable of supporting herself and leaving the hometown she loved and hated.
Photo | Yu Xiuhua was interviewed
With the help of her fellow villagers, Yu Xiuhua once came alone to work in a factory for the disabled in Wenzhou. But the boss hated that she was too slow to work and her hands and feet were inflexible, so he fired her.
In desperation, she once stood in the crowded street with an empty bowl in her hand and begged. She wanted to get down on her knees, but her strong self-esteem made it impossible for her to get down on her knees and ask for money from pedestrians. The father did not trust his daughter and called her back. She had to return to her hometown and start writing poetry while doing farm work.
Later, she said: "The impact of this disease on me is really too great, and the biggest impact is that I have been trapped in the countryside all my life, and I can't go out to work." ”
The monotonous rural life, the disabled body, and the husband who is indifferent to her firmly bind the soul of Yu Xiuhua, and she can only find sustenance in poetry.
Among her many poems, One of Yu Xiuhua's favorite poems is "I Love You", which does not have a single word of 'love' in the whole, but quietly and simply expresses hot and hot thoughts and love. This kind of longing and love is a kind of heart-wrenching joy, with a "tingling feeling":
Baba was alive, fetching water every day, cooking rice, and taking medicine on time
When the sun is shining, put yourself in it, like a piece of tangerine peel
Tea leaves are taken in turns to drink: chrysanthemum, jasmine, rose, lemon
These beautiful things seem to take me on my way to spring
So I held down the snow inside me again and again
They are too white and too close to spring
Read your poems in a clean yard.
This human affair was like a sparrow that suddenly flew by
And time is shining.
I am not suitable for liver and intestines
If you send you a book
I won't send you poetry
I'm going to give you a book about plants,
The one about the crop tells you the difference between rice and weeds
Tell you about a weedy spring
03 Because of a song "Across Most of China to Sleep with You" accidentally became popular
In 2008, Yu Xiuhua's father bought his daughter a 1,000-piece Changhong mobile phone, which opened the door for her to contact the Internet and publish her works in poetry forums.
After contacting the Internet, Yu Xiuhua often travels a long way to the local private Internet café and uploads her written poems to the forum with the account of "One Finger Zen". Unexpectedly, she received a lot of praise. Gradually, more and more netizens discussed poetry with her.
For Yu Xiuhua, poetry is not her "weapon of resistance", she said: "I hope that people can forget my physical condition, only remember my poetry." I love poetry too much, even if I'm contaminated, back to poetry I'm clean again. Poetry has been compassionate to me and cleansing me. ”
Pictured | Yu Xiuhua's poem
In 2009, well-meaning netizens also raised funds to help Yu Xiuhua buy a computer. There are all kinds of people on the Internet, and Yu Xiuhua has also been hurt by netizens. Once, a netizen asked her to meet. Seeing her true face, the other party saw her from a distance and turned her head and left. This experience was a great blow to Yu Xiuhua.
Yu Xiuhua wrote more than 100 love poems, but these works were all written by her in the trough and written by herself. She also knows that real men will not like this physically disabled and ugly self. It was love that prompted her to write these poems.
In 2014, Liu Nian, the editor of the Poetry Journal, was overjoyed to see Yu Xiuhua's poems and gave her a high evaluation. In September of that year, Yu Xiuhua's eight poems were successfully published in the Poetry Journal. In addition, Liu Nian also directly told Yu Xiuhua: "You will become popular as you prepare." ”
Sure enough, Yu Xiuhua gradually became red. At the end of the year, she also attended a poetry conference held by Chinese Min University. On stage, she trembled as she read the poem called "My Dog, Called Little Witch."
At the beginning of 2015, a poem called "Crossing Most of China to Sleep with You" was frantically forwarded by people in the circle of friends and the Internet, and countless people also knew the name Yu Xiuhua.
Pictured| Yu Xiuhua's poem
After Yu Xiuhua and her poems exploded, countless reporters traveled through most of China to interview this rural woman from Hubei. When they arrived at Yu Xiuhua's home, they found that her home was already crowded with countless peers.
After seeing Yu Xiuhua himself, the reporter couldn't help but be shocked. Her physical mutilation was not only manifested in the inconvenience of walking, but also in poor pronunciation, and her hand was so shaky that she could only write by pressing one hand against the other. One can't imagine that her magical verses were written on a keyboard in one word.
It is precisely because of the hype in the news media and the shocking headline of the poem that people have begun to look at the rural female poet with sympathy and even suspicion.
Some people say that she is another Fengjie, some people question her deliberate hype, some people suspect that she plagiarized, and even some people "human flesh" her background. When interviewing her, a reporter asked her to complete a poem herself on the spot. For these, Yu Xiuhua said: "I use my life to fight disability, and I have to use the second half of my life to fight doubt. ”
Soon, Two of Yu Xiuhua's poems, "The Rickety World" published by Hunan Literature and Art Publishing House and "Moonlight Falls on the Left Hand" published by Guangxi Normal University, came out.
In addition to poetry, his son is Yu Xiuhua's biggest emotional pillar. Under the careful care of Yu Xiuhua, the mother and son have a good relationship, talk about everything, and successfully entered a key university. In Yu Xiuhua's eyes, his son is his greatest pride.
After Yu Xiuhua exploded, her son learned that her poetry collection was about to be published. Although he did not have his mother's literary talent and did not understand poetry, he was still sincerely happy for his mother: "My mother is really good. ”
04 After the explosion of popularity, he resolutely divorced and is now in love with the small fresh meat after the 90s
After the publication of Yu Xiuhua's poems, it sold more than 200,000 copies in a short period of time, and people commented: "This is one of the best-selling poetry collections in China since Haizi's death." It can be said that Yu Xiuhua's explosion also brought poetry, a popular literary form in the 1990s, back to the public eye.
Liu Nian, editor of the discerning Poetry Magazine, said: "Yu Xiuhua's words are like full grains, full of strength and weight. Placing Yu Xiuhua's poems in the poems of Chinese female poets is as striking as putting murderers in everyone's boudoir. ”
It was also in this year that Yu Xiuhua divorced. Of course, such thoughts had occurred to her mind more than once. Back in 2012, she wrote a poem called "Divorce Papers." It was also in that year that she attempted suicide in her heart.
When asked about her marriage in an interview with reporters, she said: "Now our well water does not violate the river water, OK. ”
In October 2015, Yu Xiuhua resolutely submitted a divorce lawsuit to the local people's court despite the obstruction of her family. The husband who works in Beijing claims: "Divorce is OK, but he has been a door-to-door son-in-law in the Yu family for 20 years, which is equivalent to doing long-term work for 20 years, and asking for 1 million yuan of long-term work." ”
Hearing this, Yu Xiuhua was angry and vowed to divorce no matter how much it cost. After consultation, she gave her husband more than 100,000 yuan in manuscript fees and promised to help him build a building.
For this result, Yu Xiuhua is still a little unwilling: "He tortured me for 20 years, and now he still asks me to give him money, but it is really a loss." In the future, when I have a chance, I must find an opportunity to beat him up. ”
Yu Xiuhua finally got her wish to divorce. In an interview, when she was asked, "What is the thing I regret the most?"? Yu Xiuhua said without hesitation: "Get married." After getting the divorce certificate, she said: "My heart is quiet, I can't go against the grain." At the age of 40, I have a feeling that I can't afford to wait, I want to stand on my own, I can support myself. ”
Figure | Yu Xiuhua struggled to type on the keyboard
However, until he received the divorce certificate, Yin Shiping still couldn't understand why his daughter-in-law, who had been married for 20 years, had divorced him so resolutely.
At the dinner table where several buddies gathered together, a typical straight male cancer half-stroked and half-teased Yin Shiping: "A woman is a pig, and she only relies on you to coax." ”
The reason Yin Shiping finally summed up was: "She hated me now that I am old. In fact, he never understood his wife's real needs. To think that giving money and being able to feed you is a gift to you, to think that you are a disabled person, and that I pity you, sympathize with you, and am willing to marry you, is the kindness that you cannot repay to me in this life and in this life.
This is perhaps the logic of many machismo thinking. But Yu Xiuhua is unwilling to compromise because she is a woman and she wants to be loved and cared for.
Some income from participating in activities and poetry collections allowed Yu Xiuhua to support herself. Before that, she had opened a commissary, raised rabbits, and worked, but in the end she failed. Today, she has changed her destiny through the business hobby of writing poetry.
After a long time, Yu Xiuhua returned to singleness, but she still longed for love. But for marriage, she had no hopes. She said: "Men in their 30s, get married and give each other a son." But don't even think about it, now men in their 40s are looking for girls in their 20s, which is the trend. What's the use of men in their 50s, do I still play Twilight Love? ”
After the unexpected popularity, Yu Xiuhua has published books, speeches, and programs, and all kinds of invitations have come. In fact, Yu Xiuhua's popularity can be seen as accidental, but her success is inevitable.
After becoming famous, she continued to create and learn. From the list of books she has recommended to readers, she has successively gone from Wang Xiaobo to Milan. Kundera, from Les Misérables to The Muslim Funeral. From home to abroad, she dabbled in numerous literary works.
On the online platform, Yu Xiuhua frantically confessed to Li Jian and published several love poems. For a moment, fans and the comment area exploded. For those malicious comments, Yu Xiuhua was not only unmoved, but boldly recoiled.
Pictured| Yu Xiuhua at the party
Recently, in a video on a social platform, a middle-aged woman in a white gauze dress was seen sitting on a swing, and the man behind her was burly and wearing sunglasses. As the swing grew higher and higher, the woman laughed, like a girl with a heart.
Careful netizens found that this middle-aged woman was no one else, but the popular female poet Yu Xiuhua. The man in the video is a beekeeper named Yang Yongce.
Below the video, the man writes a love story. It turned out that the post-70s female poets fell in love. For her to find the second spring of her life, many people sent blessings. Of course, there are also many doubts. This lad looks tall and handsome, and is a post-90s generation. The age difference between the two is nearly 20 years.
Many netizens questioned this young man's plot and looked at her own topic and heat. For all kinds of speculation from the outside world, Yu Xiuhua said: "When we meet, we are encountered, and I think our encounter is too late." ”
Pictured| Yu Xiuhua and Yang Yuce
Regardless of whether the two can go to the end, Yu Xiuhua's life is legendary enough, and he lives more freely and dashingly than many ordinary people. She is not willing to give in to fate, dares to be herself, and has become an example for many people. You don't have to nitpick, what do you think?