In those years, the period of maturity of each person was different, and now in the era of rapid development, the sea oath mountain alliance that used to be very slow and only enough to love one person has long disappeared. My child

Those years of crush

Everyone's maturity period is different, now the era of rapid development, once the car and horse are very slow, only enough to love one person's sea oath mountain alliance has long disappeared.

My childhood and my life now are also very different, there are no mobile phones and computers everywhere, there is no escape room perfect rides... But everyone has a clueless youth, and I began to have the idea of having a good feeling in the fifth grade of elementary school, and precociousness seems to be a little normal. At that time, I especially liked boys with excellent grades, and I felt that if they were so good, if only they had such results, I was ordinary looking ordinary and ordinary as if everything was mediocre. Probably just the good feelings at that time, I just wanted to hide in my heart silently, and I just wanted to try to catch up with his pace. Once I was particularly happy, the class discussed who liked whom, since he said that he liked me, secretly happy, but also with the gossip disappeared without a trace.

After that we were divided into shifts, ah really sad, in the can not see... Occasionally walking past his class, seeing him playing with other girls, I can only pretend not to see it and not be so unhappy, it turns out that liking someone can really become stingy, I hated myself at the time. But uncontrollable, probably like a person is jealous, selfish. It was a pity that I was not assigned to a class in the next few years. I thought we wouldn't be in the same class anymore, probably fate has been playing tricks on people, we met again in the third year of junior high school, he was as smart as ever, and we were getting farther and farther away, he could get into the best class of the best high school in the city, but I couldn't catch up, but I didn't give up on myself. Just buried this love in the bottom of my heart, but the look of liking to go to class alone really can't escape, I like to sneak a look at him, but every time I see him he will look at me. It seems that my love has been responded to, when the New Year's Eve and my parents' mobile phones touched it, I secretly sent him a message to ask him if he had eaten, this kind of ordinary words, dare not say more.

Since my junior high school is counting down, the last month or two, I am really afraid that we will not see it in the future, and the graduation season is parting. The secret hidden in my heart could not be hidden at once, it was time to say goodbye, but there was an intuition that he also had feelings for me, and I had been a secret for a long time, a few years, four or five years, and I secretly swore that no matter what the outcome was, I could not let youth leave regrets. I finally plucked up the courage to say to him, typing on the keyboard to send a qq message, typing out that there was one thing I wanted to say for a long time... After saying that, I turned off the data, I was really afraid to see the answer, I was worried that I and him could not be friends anymore, and I was happy to finally say it. The second I turned on the data, he replied to me and said let's be friends. Yes, I failed, and I cried that night for a long, long time, as if I was unwilling, as if I was so wronged, as if I should not say it. I deleted him, afraid of embarrassment, afraid of losing people, afraid of a lot of lots. I'm also reminding myself, looking ahead, letting go of the past...

Later he added me, maybe afraid that I would be embarrassed, I agreed with my friend, but I would not contact me. Now I don't seem to be in love for the love at that time, just a good feeling, with a little like, I will not care whether he is in love, everything about him, including high school and college, including the future. After the junior high school era passed, I did not bother him, and I regarded this feeling as a bud of youthful and ignorant love.

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