This generation is probably a person, not that I don't want to have a home, but I know that I have no capital. The identity of a single mother is no longer worthy of the market. Have tried,

This generation is probably a person, not that I don't want to have a home, but I know that I have no capital. The identity of a single mother is no longer worthy of the market. I have tried, contacted a person I don't like at all, and tried to tell myself about the cruelty of this society, as long as the other party is good to himself and his children, it is so calculated. However, I really have to go to that step to find that in the face of people I don't like, I can't make up for it, I don't have a common language, and I can't pay attention to each other. There was even physical rejection, and that feeling was too painful, too uncomfortable. Therefore, it is most likely that a person will have a hard time walking with the little girl for the rest of his life. In the past few years, I have experienced too much, from the cheerful and simple person before to the current silence and calmness. The body of the 30s seems to live in a 60-year-old man, who never believed in fate before, and now seems to believe, maybe it is fate, doomed to a lonely life, doomed to not get happiness. Now I am slowly beginning to believe in the Buddha, and I have a reverential heart and a compassionate heart for many things. I know that after experiencing so much suffering, I have changed my personality, with no quarrel with the world, no sorrow and no joy. I can't even find the meaning of people living. I don't know what I want to live, maybe it's not that I don't know, but I understand that I have lost the right to happiness. Happiness is becoming less and less precious, and I have forgotten when I last laughed really happy.