In the summer of 1973, at the invitation of his lover Jose, Sanmao finally set foot on the Sahara Desert that he thought about day and night.
When you walk into this long stretch of yellow sand, it happens to be the twilight of the Sahara.
The afterglow of the setting sun renders the world into patches of red, and in the boundless emptiness, the camel bell is no longer there, only the lonely wind flows slowly, bringing poetic sadness to the summer earth.
When he met with his lover who had been separated for Three Months, Sanmao had an almost heartbreaking pity.
In the dance of the yellow sand, the handsome Spanish boy's eyes have long since ceased to be bright.
The raging monsoon blew his hair into a mess, even his beard had dirt chips, and the original handsome face was outlined with earth-colored lines, which seemed to contain the wounds of fate.
A brief separation of three months gave Jose three years of old age.
Such a change made Sanmao first extremely shocked, and then felt more unforgettable heartache: for Jose, she always had a debt in her heart, and in Sanmao's view, it was her insistence on settling in the Sahara that made this sunny and handsome boy trapped in the barren and remote yellow sand world, and her life was full of loneliness and loneliness.
But in the same way, it is Jose's tolerance and perfection that makes Sanmao extremely fortunate: he has met true love.
Because of the appearance of this boy, her heart has the intention of settling down, and she does not want to wander anymore.
It was also this year that Sanmao wrote the simplest letter to his parents: the first time he wanted to get married, he married Jose.
In the years that followed, this desolate, vast, lonely and arrogant desert became the blending point of Sanmao's love with Jose; and Sanmao, who had never been touched by the world, also achieved a shocking wedding with a frank and free way of life.
After many years of witnessing that unusual wedding, I found that there were too many undetected details, which also showed the tragedy of the love between the two.
Come to think of it, the deep love is shallow, and it has always been fate!
Walking into the Sahara's Sanmao, he officially had the idea of getting married.
But helplessly, her marriage to Jose did not go well.
The people who live in the Sahara Desert have their own customs; Sanmao and Jose, the two foreigners, are like foreign visitors, which shocks everyone incomparably.
Especially after learning that the two were going to get married, the old secretary of the court directly brought a large stack of books.
After dusting the ashes on it and slowly rubbing his eyes, the old secretary began to look for books; he rummaged through them, pondered, and spent most of the day finally figuring out the documents needed for marriage: birth certificates, single certificates, residence certificates, court announcement certificates...
Of course, this is something that Jose needs to prepare.
Sanmao's documentation is more complicated: after her supporting documents are issued by Taiwan, they must also be translated by the Taiwanese legation in Portugal, notarized by the Spanish Consulate in Portugal, and then transferred to the Spanish Sahara by the Spanish Ministry of Foreign Affairs for review, and after approval, the announcement is half a month before it can be sent to the court of the madrid household registration.
If you want to go through these processes, it will take at least three months.
In other words: when the two were ready to get married, they were told that they could not get married.
Sanmao, who was troubled by these worldly rules, some of them retreated.
She asked tentatively: Or are we not married?
But Jose shook his head, his determination as firm as a rock: these formalities will be done, and our decision to get married cannot be changed.
Taking into account Sanmao's emotions, Jose asked the old secretary to speed up the process, and he had been eager for this marriage contract for too long.
During the long three-month wait, in addition to preparing the items for his new home, Sanmao had to walk for an hour every day to read the letter in the town court.
Until one day three months later, Sanmao went to the mailbox at the entrance of the court as usual to check the documents, but was told that the two people had completed the formalities and could get married.
This sudden news made Sanmao a little shocked.
Apparently, she wasn't mentally prepared.
As a bride, she did not have the joy of the new marriage at all, but because she was overwhelmed, she had a deep anxiety.
When she regained her composure, she sent letters to her family as quickly as she could, telling them that she was about to get married.
Apparently, because the wedding was so fast, both parents could not be present.
Sanmao's parents have always been enlightened and naturally do not make calculations; but Jose's mother is an incomparably traditional woman, she feels that the wedding of the two did not invite herself, it is Sanmao's incompetence, and it is also this incident that lays the fuse for the contradictory relationship between Sanmao and her mother-in-law.
After writing to his parents, Sanmao happened to encounter Jose's jeep passing by on his way home.
At that time, Jose, who worked in a more remote place, could only return home once a week; he did not know how to inform her husband's Sanmao, so she had to ask the driver to pass on the news.
"Please help tell Jose that he will come to town after work and get married tomorrow."
Hearing this, the driver asked in great confusion: Does Mr. Jose not know that he will get married tomorrow?
Sanmao was stunned for a moment, and then smiled: "We don't know about getting married tomorrow." ”
The driver was still confused, but Sanmao smiled and ran away.
When sharing this joy with others, Sanmao was really sure that he was really going to get married tomorrow.
The weather seemed to be very good, and the desert was born with a thousand gentleness.
This woman, who has always been free and free, finally showed a bright smile to welcome her upcoming wedding.
But to Sanmao's dissatisfaction, Jose only appeared at the door of the house the next morning.
I saw him standing outside the door with a large box, which was a wedding gift he had found temporarily after he was told that he could get married.
Sanmao hesitated, but he still took over. When she opened it, she found that inside, it was actually a camel's skull.
For ordinary people, such a gift is an ominous omen, and it is extremely terrifying, but for Sanmao, such a marriage proposal is the most joyful harvest of the two people's love.
And this gift, Jose searched in the desert for a long time to find such a complete camel skull; this cheerful Spanish boy, very aware of Sanmao's hobbies, he knew that Sanmao loved the works of art produced by nature, and such a gift was something that the wanderer would look up to.
Such a surprise also makes Sanmao look forward to the upcoming wedding even more.
That morning, the two did not deliberately dress up, but dressed more neatly than usual.
Jose trimmed his messy beard and deliberately wore a mature dark blue shirt, while Sanmao spread his hair loose as usual, just to look good, and brought a broad-brimmed straw hat.
Before leaving the door, she went to the kitchen on a child's whim and took a handful of coriander and pinned it to her hat to create her own idyllic style.
In this way, the two set off from home and spent another 40 minutes walking to the wedding site.
Jose quipped, "You may be the first bride to walk and get married." ”
But when they actually came to the door of the courthouse, the two people were a little surprised, because they were incompatible with the wedding.
The staff who learned that they were married were all dressed in suits and ties, which looked very grand; while Sanmao and Jose dressed casually as if they were insignificant people.
At the wedding ceremony, the two were even more in a state of flux, with 3 details revealing an ominous tragedy.
When the young judge read "Ms. Sanmao", he only heard Sanmao suddenly interrupt: "What"; this untimely surprise made the court laugh.
The helpless judge had to read it again: "Ms. Sanmao, are you willing to be Jose's wife?" ”
At this time, Sanmao saw the judge's trembling hands and felt that the other party was even more nervous than the two of them when they presided over the notarized marriage.
In a daze, Sanmao also replied, "Good." ”
But after saying this word, it caused people to laugh; at this time, Sanmao knew that according to the custom, he should answer: "Yes"!
The judge turned to Jose, and before he could speak, he heard Jose answer "Yes" aloud.
Such a situation is full of scenes, so that the judge has long been confused.
The three people stood quietly like this, allowing the guests to look at and wait in doubt, time seemed to be pressed by fate, and the long wait had the ominous atmosphere of fate.
Later, the young judge came back and announced loudly: "Okay, you are married, congratulations, congratulations." ”
Feeling tormented, Sanmao, hearing that the ceremony was finally over, she was excited, and directly took off her hat and wanted to fan herself, but the coriander used for decoration fell to the ground, making the scene emit a cheerful laughter.
Sanmao's wedding with Jose was so simple and hurried.
The two had no groomsmen and bridesmaids, no flower girls and wedding feasts, not even kisses between the bridesmaids, and in this hasty notary, the two entered into marriage.
It is worth mentioning that after the ceremony, the two spent another hour walking home to save money; but when they returned home, Jose found that the prepared ring had always been in his pocket.
It turned out that in the midst of the chaotic ceremony, the young judge had forgotten the "exchange of rings" link.
For people around the Sahara, the exchange of rings is an ancient and solemn ritual; only when two people complete this ritual can they be considered to be finally dependents.
What does it mean not to exchange rings with each other? Marriage is not locked? Love can't be whiteheaded?
This regret, which seems to be a "fierce omen", makes Sanmao and Jose feel uneasy and lost in their hearts.
But in the end, they decided to make up for it themselves, and the two who returned to the residence wore rings to each other while eating cake.
But this unsuccessful wedding also seems to set the end of the two: escaping the world. But in the end, they could not escape fate.
The yellow sand of the Sahara sky once gave Sanmao the most precious memories of life; but just like the ominousness of the wedding, after the two spent six years together, the heavens gave each other the despair and sorrow of eternal separation.
In that desert, where material civilization was extremely scarce, Sanmao settled with his lover Jose's Sahara, as if isolated from the world; in the baptism of yellow sand, Jose once said to Sanmao:
"Until you are very old, I am also very old, and neither of them can walk nor support, put on clean clothes, lie on the bed together, close your eyes and say: Okay! Let's go together! ”
Jose's love was intense, and he used the first six years of waiting, the last six years of companionship, to tie this ethereal woman to mortal dust.
However, this romantic love did not go according to people's wishes in the end.
He gave her all the tenderness, but let her spend her life to repay and miss.
On September 30, 1979, Jose died unexpectedly during diving operations.
Jose's departure took away the sky above Sanmao's head; leaving her weak body alone and shaking between the heavens and the earth.
Since then, Sanmao seems to have changed: her works no longer write "biographical literature", no longer record her life, no longer have Jose, and everything in her writing has been given a sad color, hiding the despair of wanting to say goodbye.
"Every time I miss you, a grain of sand falls from the sky, and the Sahara is formed."
Long years, heaven on earth; this sad woman, never find that he again...
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