Today is World Book Day. Looking back at the "How Much Do I Know About Flowers in Dreams" I read before, I have to say that Sanmao is a very legendary woman.
Some of these feelings that go deep into the soul come from her, and some of the words and stories in the book always make me understand and understand some, and some stories and words haunt my heart and cannot be forgotten for a long time.
"Youth companionship, I have had, is grateful, is satisfied, no regrets." The above sentence is what Sanmao realized through life. Yes, tomorrow we may no longer be young, but we still feel the joy of life. In fact, it always felt like reading her books was actually reading her soul. Walk into her and we know her. Passing through sanmao's world, we read her story.
At this point, I remember a sentence of the summer solstice: "Envy her talent, pity her sadness, and heartache her love."
In my memory, the more profound is "Marriage Proposal", which tells about Sanmao's love experience:
Sanmao preached: When I was a child, I liked a little boy, she and a boy played a drama, and she played bandits A and B with him.
She thought how good it would be to act with the bandits like this, because of her obsession, Sanmao had been fascinated by him for nearly a year and a half, but unfortunately could not tell him. At that time, Sanmao decided that he would not marry in this life, which was a childish idea. It's just that time makes people grow. These make Sanmao understand the taste of love, even if it is unrequited love, there is also this obsession and pain, sometimes no one can understand.
When she was sixteen, a college student pursued her and wrote her love letters, and she only looked at it once and turned to close the door. Later, the boy kept writing to her, including a letter that read: One day when I graduate, I will marry you, take you to the ferry, take you to see the night view of Hong Kong. Later, the college student graduated and sent his specific address, hoping that she would pass, but sanmao had been unable to lift his spirits in the dim time at that time.
Later, in retrospect, the boy's eyes always made her feel a certain touch, the letter was always sent, the letter he sent she never replied to, as for the mood of anticipation, there was always there.
Until one day, at the right age, Sanmao began to pursue, and she also began to think about her love and marriage.
In fact, Sanmao was originally a lonely child. It can be seen from a young age. She had been doing only her own thing, always looking at her books in solitude.
Books have accompanied her growing up and are her only friend.
The loneliness of childhood has created her character, she likes to travel alone, such a person, the heart is always full of sensitivity and sentimentality, but in my opinion is so like.
From the initial trip abroad to a few years in a foreign country. Sanmao said: "Thinking of the warm home, thinking of the people I have seen, the things I have experienced, at a certain moment, my heart becomes cold." "This may be the feeling of experiencing the aftermath of the world, and a person who has been alone for a long time is a little unaccustomed."
It was such a person who created a miracle and crossed the Sahara Desert alone. She's pursued, she's liked. When she met her first love, the other party did not promise to marry her, she begged and begged, but to no avail. Finally understand that love cannot wait, it cannot be forced.
When I went to Spain to study, I met Jose. She was a junior and he was a junior in high school. Jose said I'll marry you in six years. She thought it was impossible. He asked her to wait for him for six years, four years for college, and two years of military service.
There are many people who pursue Sanmao in college, but they are not moved.
Until one day, this girl named Sanmao, at a certain moment, a very subtle thing touched the depths of the soul, giving people joy, she wanted to get married, she finally found the person she loved - but the person who was going to get married left forever the day before the marriage. Cold-hearted, she left Taiwan. Sanmao began to travel again, until 6 years later, when Jose stood in front of her, the boy from 6 years ago looked like a man, touched for a long time, brought her a lot of comfort, and she completed her love and marriage journey.
Sanmao, such a legendary girl, in the world of feelings, let us see ourselves in her literature for a long time. She was strong, crossing the desert alone, but finally a few years after Jose left, the glue of love and hate, could not stand the pain of longing, and chose to leave.
Perhaps Sanmao's world hides vulnerability behind its strength. And we're just readers.