Xu Zhimo, who is flourishing
Innocent and lovely Lin Huiyin
Zhang Ailing wrote in the novel "Half Life": "You ask me whether I love you is worth it, in fact, you should know that love is not worth it."
Many people copy this sentence in a book and paste it on the mouth of their hearts, while generously paying, while thinking that the other party must understand god and will be able to love me.
Touching the right person, touching the wrong person, is self-made sentimental wishful thinking. Zhang Ailing's words are not about the freedom of love, but about the entanglement of love. Because when Zhang wrote "Half Life", it was already 1951, and Hu Lan had been working with her for 4 years, she did not believe in love in her bones, and she was even more disgusted with the word "love".
Zhang Ailing silhouette
Love, of course, is not worth it, otherwise it does not conform to the principle of "cost theory" in economics, and love is nihilistic and dehumanizing. Love is originally a part of human nature, and Xu Zhimo, who is known as the "love saint", has long understood it. He once wrote: "The beloved is always the one who holds the spirit, and the one who loves loses his soul." In every sincerely dedicated relationship, there is always a person who sacrifices his soul and reaps the cruelty. ”
Judging from the results, Xu Zhimo, who lost his life for love, was even more miserable than Zhang Ailing. When Zhang Ailing left Hu Lancheng, the inertia of love had not yet passed, and she posted 300,000 yuan in manuscript fees, presumably when she was embarrassed later, she also regretted it immensely. Xu Zhimo did not even have the opportunity to regret it.
Falling in love with Lin Huiyin, Xu Zhimo has no complaints, only heartbreak
Counting Xu Zhimo's death on Lin Huiyin's head must have been unjustified. But to say that Xu's death has nothing to do with Lin, it is also unreasonable.
Xu Zhimo, who was satisfied, and Lin Huiyin, who was exceptionally calm
Especially in the years when Xu Lin fell in love, Lin Huiyin, who was smart, witty and "must be rational over sensibility at the critical time", had a paragraph in his letter to Xu Zhimo: "I am not the kind of woman who abuses feelings, if you can really love me, you can't give me an awkward position, you must choose between me and Zhang Youyi." You can't be irresponsible to both women. ”
This passage was conclusive, And Xu Zhimo believed it. Fooled. Because he quickly divorced Zhang Youyi, Lin Huiyin returned to China and soon became engaged to Liang Sicheng.
Some people say that Xu Zhimo took the family and the single Lin Huiyin to fall in love, and it is normal for Lin to ask Xu to return to singleness first. This certainly makes sense. So later Xu Zhimo had no complaints, just heartbroken.
Portrait of the poet Xu Zhimo
In fact, is there a saying that love is "deceived"? It was all Zhou Yu's wish to beat Huang Gai's wish. However, looking back at the history of the exchanges between Xu Zhimo and Lin Huiyin, the initiative has always been firmly controlled in the hands of Lin Huiyin, xu Zhimo had an advantage at the beginning, but did not "collapse" and did not control well, so the master became a slave.
Xu Zhimo was 7 years older than Lin Huiyin, xu graduated from Peking University in 1918 and went to the United States to study, and later worshipped the philosopher Russell, and then went to Britain. When she arrived in England, she met Lin Huiyin and her father Lin Changmin in London. At that time, Lin was only 16 years old, but Xu was an idiot and did not see Lin's loneliness. 16 years old is actually not small, Jiang Dongxiu married Hu Shi is only 15 years old, Lin Hui because of the family's solid wealth, she is not worried about marriage.
Lin Huiyin, in the early days of the War of Resistance Against Japanese Aggression in 1937, had just arrived in Changsha in a very bad mood, and wrote to Shen Congwen that when he first arrived in London, his father went to meetings every day, she lived alone in a big room, it was raining outside, she was very bored, often eating while biting her fingers with her mouth and crying. At this time, she always hopes that something romantic will happen in her life, or that someone will talk to her.
The girl's heart is inexplicable and specific
However, Xu Zhimo, who claims to have studied love deeply, has not understood this, which shows that Xu is only "talking on paper" about love. Xu Zhimo chased after girls, committing a big taboo, that is, at the beginning, he did not ask the "jumping in and falling in", and you did not observe and observe. Although it is impossible to really like a person to "retract freely", Xu is too stupid X.
It's okay for people to be stupid, it's not good to be stupid X.
Xu Zhimo's father, Xu Shenru, has considerable strength and status in the financial circles around Shanghai. Therefore, lin Huiyin's family is also right at home. It's just that Xu was already married to Zhang Youyi at that time, so he divorced Zhang, and he also made a big capital, his son didn't want it, his reputation was gone, and he was also criticized by his teacher Liang Qichao. Liang wrote to Xu: "Brother's move, whether his future happiness can be obtained or not, is like catching the wind. Whether Xu Zhimo can get happiness by doing this is as slim as catching the invisible wind. Liang is also selfish.
Personality of Liang Qichao
From the perspective of pure love, Xu Zhimo is worthy of forgiveness, but from other angles, Xu may be a scumbag, which is also the main reason for the criticism of future generations.
Love is incredible, or rather, a form of fate
Lin Huiyin definitely loves Xu Zhimo. Not to mention that Xu is still Lin's first love.
But Lin's handling of emotional matters is somewhat bizarre. For men who like themselves, especially those who have picked up the relationship, but still be friends with each other, not only are they convinced that "being friends with their exs" is very cool and powerful, but also in actual interactions, they do not take each other seriously, and there is a lot of meaning of "picking up a rabbit at night for thirty children, and there is no new year for you".
And a man like Xu Zhimo is "a tendon". Xu Zhimo is, Xu Zhimo also introduced a Jin Yuelin to come. Jin bis xu is more than enough. It just didn't kill me.
Mr. Jin Yuelin
After leaving Britain, Lin Huiyin returned to the embrace of the motherland, became engaged to Liang Sicheng, the prince of Liang, and prepared to study in the United States together. During this period, correspondence with Xu Zhimo was uninterrupted. Xu is sad or desperate, but Lin Huiyin's feelings for Xu, or Xu's self-feelings, are still hopeful.
Xu Zhimo and Zhang Youyi divorced in 1922, and with Lin Huiyin returning to Beijing, Xu Zhimo naturally followed him to Beijing. At that time, Xu's talent shined in Beijing, set up clubs, established a new poetry club, choreographed and acted, held annual meeting lantern parties every New Year's Festival, and chanted poems and painted, which was his strength.
Even closer to Xu Zhimo on the road, his heart was empty, because Lin Huiyin was close at hand, but he was someone else's wife. Liang Sicheng is three years older than Lin Huiyin, and he is also very good, introduced by his father Liang Qichao. Liang Sicheng is very well-behaved, and Lin Huiyin is loved by everyone, so he behaves positively. The two soon fell in love, at that time, Beihai Park built a new Songpo Library, Liang Qichao as the curator, Liang Sicheng got a key from his father, may also be Liang Qichao took the initiative to give, so the two were deeply alone, living alone in a room, talking in detail, and chatting with tian'er to the sky.
From the perspective of marriage, it seems that Lin Liang is more compatible
Soon, Xu Zhimo, who had great supernatural powers, came to the door and prepared to "compete" with Liang Sicheng. Liang Sicheng was very upset, and whenever he and Lin Huiyin were in a private room, he posted a note on the door: "At work, please do not disturb ------."
Xu Zhimo looked at the note, and there were thousands of small blades in his heart that were slashing at his heart. He had to bow his head and go away in sorrow. But he wasn't dead set. So he wrote to Lin Huiyin. It is said that Lin also replied. In 1924, when the Nobel laureate in literature Tagore visited China, Xu Zhimoli invited Lin Huiyin to be a translator, and Lin agreed. The two interacted closely for a few days, and together they performed a stage play to wish Tagore a happy birthday, Lin Huiyin played the heroine Zitra, and Xu Zhimo played the goddess of love Madana. Xu those few days, I feel that the sky is bright again, and who is the qihua full of roads for? Open for me.
Then, Xu Zhimo thought of one thing, Lin Huiyin thought of another thing, and Lin and Liang soon went to the University of Pennsylvania to study. This time, Xu Cai really felt that it was a long-term parting. He was depressed, and he poured sorrow through wine, all of which could only be borne by him alone. Night after night, he felt better than dead clean. Because when you die, you can no longer think about a person. No more suffering.
Xu Zhimo, who has never stepped out of a "love" word in his life
However, Xu Zhimo is Xu Zhimo, he did not choose to die, but chose to continue to love. Try to forget old love with new love. Because whose new love is not someone else's old love.
Xu Zhimo soon fell in love with a married woman: Lu Xiaoman, one of the four beauties of the Republic of China. Continued to fight, chased for two years, cultivated positive results, and in 1926, married Lu Xiaoman. The ex-girlfriend's father-in-law, his mentor Mr. Liang Qichao, vented "very immodestly" at the wedding: "Xu Zhimo, you are a person who is not dedicated, so that you divorce and remarry." ...... In the future, we must change our past mistakes and become people again! ”
It is said that Liang Qichao had long taken a fancy to Lin Huiyin and wanted to give it to his son. So, arrange. At this point, perfect.
However, the interaction between Xu Zhimo and Lin Huiyin, there is a sequel. After all, being loved is not giving anything, and the taste is enjoyed, lin Huiyin will not give up easily.
The first on the right is Xu Zhimo, the second on the right is Lin Huiyin, and the third on the right is Tagore
People are gone, love is still on the way
In 1928, Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng returned to China and officially married, and at the same time the two went to northeastern university to teach. At that time, Zhang Xueliang was the president of Northeastern University. In fact, Principal Zhang, not like Cai Yuanpei, is knowledgeable enough, generational division, and becomes the principal, but similar to the funder, is the principal position of the successor father Zhang Zuolin.
Zhang Xueliang saw Lin Huiyin at first sight. Lin Damei's graceful style instantly fascinated him "breathlessly" and subverted his cognition of beauty for more than twenty years. Because although the women he has passed are like carp across the river, none of them are university professors. So Zhang Xueliang was also in pain, and fell asleep on sleeping pills night after night. He didn't know architecture, and he didn't like that thing, so he thought of a trick, and he hired Lin Huiyin as a tutor with a high salary.
Zhang Xueliang, who was the deputy commander of the Army, Navy and Air Force of the Republic of China
This Zhang Xueliang and Xu Zhimo are just as stupid. It's just that stupidity is different. Lin Huiyin recognized it at a glance. Although Zhang Xueliang's salary to Lin Huiyin is surprisingly high, it is said to be equivalent to 120,000 yuan per month today, as well as "WeChat red envelopes", 1314520 and gold and silver. But Lin Huiyin is a person who has eaten and seen, unlike the poor and destitute Xiao Hong, who will go with you after giving some benefits, and will soon resign and not do it.
Zhang Xueliang likes to talk nonsense, especially in his later years. Zhang claims to be a very popular person, but he is also a lonely witness. He also said that Lu Xiaoman got along with a man named Wang Chengzhi before he had an extramarital affair with Xu Zhimo. That is to say, Lu Xiaoman not only cheated on Xu Zhimo in marriage, but also cheated on Wang Chengzhi before that, and Wang Chengzhi, like Xu Zhimo, is a good friend of Wang Geng (Lu Xiaoman's husband).
Zhang Xueliang said that the reason why Lu Xiaoman did not stay with Wang Chengzhi later was because Wang Chengzhi was not a single-minded person, either in the middle of the world, or he did something all at once. It is said that Wang Chengzhi is just playing with Lu Xiaoman.
Lu Xiaoman Qianying
Zhang Xueliang also said: "Lu Xiaoman later married Xu Zhimo, so as soon as she saw me, she ran away. Lu Xiaoman was afraid that Zhang Xueliang would tell her ugly things, so he always avoided Zhang Xueliang and did not let Xu Zhimo see Zhang Xueliang.
In fact, Zhang means that Wang Chengzhi, like him when he was young, has a habit of playing with other people's wives. It's meant to flaunt yourself.
Fortunately, Zhang Xueliang had not yet said anything about him and Lin Huiyin. It is estimated that he also feels that he is not worthy of Lin Dameier.
Lin Huiyin resigned and returned to Beiping. In order to understand the stuffy child, in a courtyard in Beizongbu Hutong, a "wife's living room" with great "popularity" and "reputation" was created. At that time, Xu Zhimo was at Tsinghua University, although he had married Lu Xiaoman, but his wife was still the good of others, and Lin Huiyin seemed to be a woman he could not walk out of in his life, Xu naturally became a regular visitor to his wife's living room.
At that time, the most eye-catching cultural salon in Peiping, it was called "Mrs. Lady's Living Room" at the time.
Lu Xiaoman is a material girl, a social queen, Xu Zhimo at first felt quite fresh, talking about love is also very called, but such a woman married home, it is really hot potato, want money to support ah. And there are also front and back blocks, worried about wearing green hats. Hu Shi and Lu Xiaoman walked very closely, and there is evidence that the two exchanged love and thoughts of each other in the letter, and after Xu's death, they also said that they would raise Lu Xiaoman, as long as she did not live with Weng Ruiwu and agreed to be good with herself. You see the relationship.
Xu Zhimo was traveling to and from Beijing and Shanghai at that time, teaching at three universities part-time to earn money, and even for the sake of commissions, he also worked as an intermediary for house sales among acquaintances, and melon used cars earned the difference. Naturally, I was very tired, but the only consolation was probably that I could often see Lin Huiyin.
In order to save money, Xu Zhimo either rubbed Zhang Xueliang's plane (it can be seen that Zhang Xueliang said that Xu Zhimo was lying because he did not want to see him), or he took a free postal plane. This energy is also big enough, in that year, it is not easy to toss it like this.
Xu Zhimo love relationship diagram
Once, before Returning to Shanghai, Xu Zhimo left a note for Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng: "Fly at six o'clock in the morning tomorrow, and it is uncertain whether it will survive or die." This sentence may not have a special meaning at that time, or it may be that he felt that there was no point in living, and he was not energetic when he got it, and he had already made someone else's wife.
A few days later, after arguing with Lu Xiaoman, Xu Zhimo rushed to attend Lin Huiyin's lecture and took the free "Jinan" postal flight, encountered heavy fog when passing through Jinan, hit Kaishan, and Xu and the two crew members were all killed.
I never loved you. Except for you
Someone summed up Xu Zhimo's death, Lu Xiaoman was responsible for one-third, Lin Huiyin was responsible for one-third, Xu himself was responsible for one-third, the remaining point was "the", who let him do it, did not live well with Zhang Youyi, Zhang should be the most outstanding in both looks and ability in that batch of arranged marriages (Zhang later became the president of the bank).
Dignified, calm, gentle Zhang Youyi
Zhang Youyi described her relationship with Xu Zhimo: "I am a fan in autumn, only used to drive away blood-sucking mosquitoes. When mosquitoes bit the moon, the owner tore the fan to pieces. ”
This literary level is also not ordinary.
Some people say that Xu Zhimo can be like Hu Shi, the red flag at home does not fall, the bunting flag flutters outside, since Hu Shi can plant the bunting flag on Lu Xiaoman's head, Xu Zhimo can also plant the bunting flag on Jiangdong Xiu's head. I'll go, where is this and where.
At Xu's funeral, Zhang Youyi, Lu Xiaoman, and Lin Huiyin appeared at the same time. The first two sent a bang, but Lin Huiyin did not send it.
Zhang Youyi's decency: "Thousands of miles fly fast, regret that Fengyun lost his way; once the crane died, I pity the weak and go to summon the soul." Although abandoned, he is still sad, expresses his feelings impartially, and is very young.
It's not a family that doesn't go in. Or Xu Zhimo and Zhang Youyi are more husband and wife. Away from Zhang Xu, nightmares abounded.
Lu Xiaoman's selfishness, thinking all about himself: "How many past dust has become a nightmare, five years of mourning, hurrying and eternal tips, the heavenly path of revival, wanting to die has not been because of the mother and old; don't hate who to say, a sad illness, a faint soul, the human world should soon be, the posthumous editor will answer the king's heart." I sighed that I couldn't die with you, because I still had my mother to take care of (not Xu Zhimo's mother, in her dictionary, there was no waiting for my in-laws).
A year after Xu Zhimo's death, Lin Huiyin wrote a "Tribute to Zhimo", which was officially published in the "Literature and Art Newspaper" on behalf of the official, giving full affirmation to Xu Zhimo's character, but also criticizing his naivety and inadequacy in performing his duties, inaction, the lack of a firm sense of "loyalty consciousness", and the deviation of his attitude toward the world.
Let's take a snippet for the benefit of the reader. "On November 19, our good friend, the new poet beloved by many, Xu Zhimo ------." (Almost did not write about the great poet, the tried and tested warrior) "Shima is a very eccentric person, although romantic, but the essence of other people is his sympathy, kindness and good looks. "Shima my friend, death is just a new journey, we have not been there, can not help but be excessively suspicious, death is more difficult than this life," (you try to die) "Shima's most touching features are his unbelievable pure innocence, the foolishness of his ideals, the seriousness of his appreciation of art, and the reality of feelings" (indeed, there is no personal emotional color)
Lin Huiyin always knew what he wanted
As for Lin Huiyin's husband Liang Sicheng, he picked up a piece of Xu Zhimo's wrecked plane wreck and hung it in his living room, there is controversy. In his later years, Lin said to his children: "Xu Zhimo did not love the real me, it was Lin Huiyin that he imagined with the romantic emotions of a poet, in fact, I am not that kind of person." Liang Congjie also said, "My mother did not love Xu Zhimo."
On April 1, 1955, Lin Hui died of illness. At this time, it had been 24 years since Xu Zhimo's death.
Lin Huiyin lived to be 51 years old. Xu Zhimo lived to be 35 years old.
Deep affection is not long-lived.