#What do you think about life #Insomnia can't sleep, review your own life, I'm a man, 39 years old this year, single unmarried, college degree, belongs to the ordinary kind of people

#What do you think about life # Insomnia can't sleep, review your life, I am a man, 39 years old this year, single unmarried, bachelor's degree, belongs to the ordinary type of people, the basic situation is like this, the following from the work and feelings of the two aspects of review:

Emotional aspect: remember going to high school that will be a few friends to chat, I once said that it will be the last to get married, the latest not to exceed 35 years old, the result of the friends around me have been married and have children, and I have now broken the original deadline set for myself is still alone, think about so many years, there have been their favorite girls, but also missed a lot of opportunities, may be their own personality, has not really held hands 👫, speak in the heart, unwilling, see others in the best age around the person to accompany, I feel very sorry, wasted so many years, but I am not willing to be on it, may belong to their own ugly and others ugly kind of it, haha, the biggest wish of the year is to say goodbye to single, unfortunately, every year the wish is disappointed, I don't know if this year can get what I want?

Work: first from the birth of it, grew up in the countryside, parents are native farmers, said illiterate Ding some exaggeration, but will not write much, rural children, from childhood have not seen the world, introverted personality, but also some paranoia, through their own efforts to enter a provincial city of a two colleges, the major is not liked, but at that time did not understand anything, confused on the newspaper, the university is also confused to spend, did not make a girlfriend, this is a more regrettable thing, After graduation has been engaged in this professional work, although do not like, there is no way, liberal arts major, no one skill, in addition to this major also do not know what to do, 2008 graduation has been nearly 14 years, intermittent unemployment in the middle, the accumulation of about two years of time, the actual work is also eleven or twelve years, there are currently two houses (there are loans), no parents, but also can not rely on them, are earned by their own years of hard work, but also through reading to achieve a big leap from the countryside to the city, Don't blow no black, feel that in the same age is also an effort, a self-motivated person, mixed can not say good, can not say too bad. Years ago because of the industry recession, and unemployed at home, now the mortgage a month repayment of more than 5,000, plus property fees heating expenses messy, not counting eating and drinking a year of fixed expenditure of about seven or eighty thousand, now the whole family has no job, although there are still some deposits in hand can support a year or two, but the heart is still full of anxiety, especially now this age is very embarrassing, work is not easy to find, talk about retirement is too early, has always wanted to do something, but considering the uncertainty of the current epidemic, easy to dare not try. Hey, this generation of post-80s people, everything has caught up, it is really not easy!!!