A man guarded the silent old house, staying up the deepest night, not waiting for anyone, just simply not wanting to sleep. In the Spring Festival of 2022, I spent time in a mountain village house more than 20 years after leaving,

A man guarded the silent old house, staying up the deepest night, not waiting for anyone, just simply not wanting to sleep.

Spring Festival in 2022, I spent time in the mountain village house after leaving for more than 20 years, maybe when I was a child, I was not afraid of cold, the winter in the mountain village seemed to be relatively cold, although the newly renovated house, it was more warm, maybe it was too cold, people who came couldn't stay, Shanghai's husband lived for a few days and fled back to Shanghai, saying that he couldn't stand the cold of the drill bones, and my mother was also cold and returned to the city, leaving me alone to change rooms every day to sleep.

Is the year over? The circle of friends is full of scenes of resuming work and production, and I am still confused, should I return to Shanghai to continue my original loose life or choose to start here again? It's about early retirement, but if I don't do anything, I guess I'll soon get tired of life here. Leaving the city for more than 20 years for me, it is now familiar and strange, familiar with the main street and the traces in my memory, but there are more high-rise buildings, more unknown roads, and many foreigners with local sounds, they are more familiar with the life here than I am, and I have become a foreigner who speaks local dialects, not familiar with the environment, no circle, and I don't know where to go out of the house, I can't say, because no one urged me to come back, thinking of these makes me confused, anxious, How to go, it seems to be at a crossroads again, maybe every choice is painful, this is to end the past and start all over again, these require courage.