Dictation: Li Hua Written by: Sun Hua
Dear sister, please allow me to cry out to you in the army!
Sister: No matter where you are now, your sister will find you! Let your sister take care of you instead of your parents and love you! With you, our warm big family is complete, go home! We look forward to your early return day and night! To comfort the spirit of heaven of parents.
When this article is forwarded to you, I hope that you will patiently read it, through the only words I heard from my parents, acquaintances, old neighbors, and aunts, as well as the bits and pieces of information I learned from my father's comrades-in-arms and people familiar with you, and consult a large number of historical materials, I will restore the reasons for your adoption, loss of contact, and the difficult search process that occurred later. When all this is more real on the paper, presented in front of you, after you know, I implore your sister to understand the noble sentiments of your parents' boundless love, understand the steel discipline of your father's military orders, know that you are always worried about your stomach and your search after you are lost, pain and depression, liver and intestines.
Dear sister: You are not an abandoned baby, you have always been the heart of your father and mother! After the death of my parents, I was even more obligated to embark on the road to find you, although the road was difficult, I never gave up! Today I am tearfully telling you all this slowly...
Soldier's House
Dear sister: We were born into a heroic and fearless family of soldiers, and we are the descendants of revolutionary soldiers!
Grandpa Sun Chengsong was an old Communist Party member who participated in the revolution in the 1930s and a hero of the War of Resistance in the war-torn era. Under the influence of his grandfather's spirit of actively participating in the revolution, his uncle Sun Xixue joined the army in 1943 and was an old revolutionary who participated in the War of Resistance Against Japan and the War of Liberation, and then went south to liberate Fujian.
The eldest uncle, Hu Yuying, was also a military doctor who joined the army in the 1940s and was personally received by Premier Zhou.
In 1953, our father, Li Changfeng, enlisted in the front-line combat units of Fujian Province in Binzhou City (formerly Bin County), Shandong Province, bravely defending the southern gate of the motherland and fighting with agents sent by the Kuomintang in Taiwan. Although his mother, Sun Guimin, did not join the army, she received progressive ideological education from her uncle from an early age, engaged in educational work in the "Bayi Primary School", admired soldiers, and worshiped heroes.
The two generations of old revolutionaries in our family wrote down with their lives and blood: "Blood stains the sand field and turns red, sacrificing one's life for the country is a hero"!
My second sister and I are: get up listening to the loud military song, grow up with a neat pace, and fall asleep with the pleasant military trumpet! Growing up in such an environment, there was a natural worship of the army, and the green uniform was full of infinite yearning, so at the age of only 16, he resolutely left the protection of his parents, entered the big family of the army, and embarked on the journey of defending the country. Since then, he has also been honored to become the third generation of soldiers in our family.
Service means dedication and sacrifice, and the army is made up of these soldiers who would rather sacrifice their families and even personal interests for the sake of the national interest.
Dear sister: You were conceived in such a warm and heroic family, and you were born on May 6, 1965 in Nanping City (formerly Nanping County) in the north of Fujian Province, a season of flowers.
During the period when the peaks of Nanping Mountain are towering, the low mountains are everywhere, and the valleys and small basins between the mountains are staggered, the red soil of "eight mountains, one water and one field" in southern China is typical. It was this red land that became the seat of the Fujian Provincial Party Committee during the revolutionary war years, and raised thousands of revolutionary volunteers, fought bloody battles with the enemy, were strong and unyielding, and were known as the red land of "the red flag does not fall". Your little red face is like kapok, your watery eyes are like black gems, and your pink mouth is like a red cherry. You are the most beautiful flower among the Li sisters!
Seeing you, your parents were very happy: your father named you Li Lihua, and your mother gently called you: Tingting. Judging from your name: your parents hope that you will be as beautiful, lovely and prosperous as the flowers in the red land!
Adoption
Dear sister: When you see the harsh word "foster", you must be puzzled and feel sad, right?! "I'm so cute, why are you sending me up?" It was also my childhood confusion. In the past few days, while wiping the tears on my cheeks, I have sorted out my thoughts for nearly 50 years, trying to open up a thick chapter of history and make that time clearer and clearer...
Soon after my father joined the army, he was unfortunately injured in a battle with Taiwanese spies and was admitted to the Fuzhou Military Region Hospital for surgical treatment. Just then, a seriously injured man named Shang Gongsan (Uncle Shang) was also admitted to this ward. Military doctor introduction: Uncle Shang was seriously injured because he participated in the Battle of Kinmen, the injury was serious, and his life was hanging in the balance, because the two wounded and sick were from Binzhou, Shandong, which was convenient for taking care of each other and was conducive to improving his condition, so he was specially arranged in a ward.
Dr. Hu Jun, a surgeon in the hospital, was highly skilled, personally performed surgery on his father, and quickly recovered his health. His father was so grateful to Hu Junyi that the two formed a revolutionary comradely friendship, and later Hu Junyi enthusiastically matched his father and introduced his sister-in-law (our mother) to his father. The parents then married a loving couple. Dr. Hu Jun also naturally became our aunt and uncle.
Uncle Shang, who was hospitalized at the same time as his father, was too seriously injured, although after many efforts by doctors to save a life from the death line, but due to the medical conditions at that time, the doctors gave Uncle Shang the conclusion that he could not have children in the future.
After Uncle Shang was stable and knew that he would not have his own offspring in his lifetime, he often sighed and wept silently. Father knew the fierceness of the Battle of Kinmen, and there were very few comrades who could return alive, and he admired and cherished this fellow countryman, comrade-in-arms, and hero; in addition to taking care of him in his daily life, he also gave many ideological persuasions and comforts to Uncle Shang, and encouraged him to recover from his wounds and illness as soon as possible and return to the army as soon as possible to make meritorious achievements.
Since then, Uncle Shang's mood has gradually improved, and his father and Uncle Shang have also formed a brotherly friendship of life and death! Later, his father and Uncle Shang were recommended by their respective units to study at the cadre training school of the "Eighteenth Speed Middle school of the Chinese People's Liberation Army" and became classmates.
Comrades-in-arms, fellow countrymen, classmates, their friendship in learning, training, day and night together deeper, become eternal! After graduating quickly, my father and Uncle Shang were assigned to a company, serving as the chief and deputy company commander, and since then the two like-minded young comrades can fight side by side.
Fast forward to 1964, when your mother took you to the army to visit your relatives. At that time, our family already had two children, and Uncle Shang had never had his own descendants, and with the care and help of the chief and comrades-in-arms, he adopted a boy (Shang Jiandong) who was a comrade-in-arms.
However, uncle Shang always saw the children of his comrades-in-arms wrapped around his knees, that is, he was envious and sad, and often mentioned his situation in front of the chief and his comrades-in-arms, hoping that he could still have a daughter to accompany him to his old age. Comrades in life and death are better than brothers, and comrade-in-arms feelings are incomprehensible to modern people! When the chief knows the mother's situation and Uncle Shang's wishes, he can personally mobilize the parents, if the child is born as a daughter, he will send it to Uncle Shang, to achieve the wish of Uncle Shang's children, and not to let the hero shed blood and tears.
As a soldier, it is the duty of the father to obey orders, let alone a fellow and comrade-in-arms who knows the roots. As a mother, which mother is willing to give away her child, and which child is pregnant in October, and the flesh that falls from her body is ah! But the mother is also a military family, with the worship of soldiers, the admiration of heroes, and the trust of fellow villagers! Mother is full of worries...
Military sentiment takes you from one military family to another. Your father and Uncle Shang's family are neighbors, and from the third day you came into this world, Uncle Shang's mother-in-law has carried you and your family. After eating my mother's milk, I went to get acquainted with my new home. When you are three months old, you can already be weaned, and the Shang Uncle family is also worried that your mother has been raising you for too long, and after the feelings deepen, you will not let go, proposing: You are fed by the merchant grandmother, and you no longer need your mother to breastfeed. The mother has two elderly people to serve in her hometown in Shandong Province, and two children to take care of. Mother looked at your smiling face, but she was in tears, and she could only say goodbye to you with a fierce heart.
When you were parting, your mother hugged and hugged you, kissed and kissed! At the beginning, the parents of both sides had an unwritten agreement about your origins: you must never let outsiders know. Of course, my father's comrades-in-arms were also tight-lipped and never mentioned it.
Since then, Uncle Shang has given you a new name, Shang Jianhua, and hopes that you can contribute to the construction of China in the future!
visit
Although the mother returned to Shandong, left her father's army, and stayed away from her beloved little daughter, your sister you, her mother's heart remained in Fujian!
She is always inquiring about the information of the Fujian frontline troops, and often corresponds with her father to inquire about your situation. Once, when she saw her father write back and say, "Tingting is all right," her mother took the letter and smiled happily, laughing and laughing, not knowing why large tears rolled down from the corners of her eyes. I saw this scene and I asked my mother, "Mom: Why are you crying?" Mom looked at me, quickly wiped away her tears, and wanted to stop talking. After a pause, he said, "Your father has written a letter, asked the family how they are, and they are very happy", and then they entered their rooms again, and then they heard their mothers as if covering their mouths and making a "hissing" cry... At that time, how could I understand when I was only five years old? Happy should laugh, how can you cry? Mom was suppressing her emotions and missing her sister—you!
In the early 1960s, with the turn of the Soviet big brother to China's younger brother, Sino-Soviet relations deteriorated rapidly, and the Central Military Commission also responded quickly, successively transferring some personnel from the Fujian front-line combat unit (which has been changed to the 28th Army) to Shanxi and firmly defending the northern gate of the motherland. Hearing the news that the troops are ready to deploy defenses at any time and the father is on standby to leave 24 hours a day, the mother is thinking about you all the time and asks the father to go to visit her daughter.
Father immediately applied to the army, probably around the age of two, and was approved to visit relatives. When my mother learned of this happy news, she was ecstatic and immediately pulled out of the school at the age of 7, who did not know why; I was fascinated and stared at me from my hometown in Pingdu, Shandong Province, and followed my mother on a long journey to Fuqing, Fujian Province!
I remember boarding the train and looking out over my hometown. The mountains were bare, only the pine trees and a touch of green, and the wind blew the dead leaves and fell to the ground; the blue sky drifted through a few white clouds, and they were involuntarily changed by the grinning north wind. One moment it seems to be fish scales, the next it seems to be a steamed bun... Finally, the clouds gather together, transform into a dragon, and fly away with the wind! It should have been winter! As the green-skinned train "clucks and clucks" to the south, I see that the mountains are getting greener and greener, the green bamboo is swaying, and the flowers are twinkling. Retracting her gaze, the glass window reflected her mother's frowning face...
After a long journey of several days and nights, the southern country in "red beans are born in the southern country, a few branches are sent in the spring, may the king pick more, and this thing is the most acacia" Has finally arrived! My mother took me to the car and immediately found the location of my father's army, a small mountain village called Mashan, and listened to my father's story: Standing on Mashan, you can see the treasure island of the motherland- Taiwan.
My father pedaled his bicycle along the rugged mountain road, driving me in front and my mother in the back, saying that he was going to Uncle Shang's house: to see a lovely little sister. The mother's mouth urged: Hurry up, hurry up, hurry up again... Father desperately pedaled the bicycle fast, how much he wanted to shorten his thoughts!
Dear sister: Do you remember an aunt who came to see you with a little sister and the aunt personally changed you into red shoes and dresses? The dress is exactly the same as that of the little sister. Do you remember your aunt gently holding your little face, wanting to talk and stopping, with mixed feelings? Do you remember when you said you were going to take your little sister to the sea and catch crabs? Do you remember what you told your little sister: Why did the four corners of your house fall on big rocks?
Oh, yes! You were too young, less than two years old, to remember! That aunt is the sister - your mother, and the little sister is me! We don't understand the adult world, only happiness is ours. The two hours of playing together made me unforgettable, and your smile and every move are deeply engraved in my mind!
Happy times always pass quickly, Uncle Shang is going on a mission, and we have to wave goodbye! Back in the evening of Mashan Village, an aunt secretly told me: Today I went to see your own sister. I suddenly realized that my mother's crying at night was to miss my sister! I secretly decided: I must take my sister home!
The next day, taking advantage of my mother's absence, I sneaked out of the house and tried to find you along the familiar mountain road yesterday, childishly trying to sneak you home. Walking, walking, not knowing how long it has been walking, and not knowing how far it has gone.... The sky, suddenly heavy rain, muddy mountain roads, rugged stones, hiding and nowhere to hide, there is nowhere to hide, dilemma. Sergeant's thin body shivered in the rain!
When my father found me in the mountains, it was already more than eight o'clock in the evening, and he found that I was hot, and he hurriedly carried me to the hospital and hung the needle until three o'clock in the middle of the night. Since then, my mother has never allowed me to leave her for half a step, and she is afraid to lose another daughter!
Soon, my father received orders to transfer the defense to Shanxi; my mother and I were temporarily resettled by the army in Penghu, Fujian Province; and your adoptive father, Uncle Shang, stayed in the Fujian army and later transferred to local work. Who ever thought: From now on, we are on opposite sides...
Missing contact
Bucket to star shift, vicissitudes of the mulberry field. One night in May 1970, my mother and the three of us boarded a train to yuncheng in Shanxi to reunite with my father.
The car drove for a few days and nights, and my mother cried for a few days and nights, thinking that she would be farther and farther away from you in the future, and that she would lose contact with your adoptive father's family, and she didn't know when she would have a day to meet, and the more she thought about it, the more sad she became.
It seems that only crying can make her release all the knots in her heart and wet the thirsty heart with tears! My mother cried in the dark, dead and alive, and finally under the treatment of the sister of Chen Yingying, the hygienist who picked us up in the army, she finally eased up, but she was carried off the train on a stretcher.
When my father saw this scene when he picked up the station, he quickly went forward to comfort his mother: "I'm sorry! The child is doing well in the adoptive father's house, don't worry. ”
My mother was always worried, couldn't sleep at night, and had nightmares. I always dream that you have been thrown out of the house by others and woke up in a cold sweat. My mother, who missed and tormented, suffered from neuroses, was often in a trance, and mistook your second sister for you. Whenever I saw my mother like this, I comforted my mother with pain: "Mom: I will definitely find my sister when I grow up." ”
About 1971, the mother did not know from which aunt to get the news that after years of treatment, Uncle Shang already had his own child, and after being happy for Uncle Shang, he discussed with his father to get back his daughter - sister you!
However, at that time, the personnel of the 28th Army were frequently transferred, and in order to protect military secrets, they all acted at night, and they could not communicate with the outside world within three years of the request for defense, so they lost all contact with the Fujian Shang Uncle and the uncle's family.
How tormented was every inch of the three years of waiting for the resumption of correspondence to the mother? That's like a year! Waiting, waiting, hoping, hoping, and finally looking forward to free contact with the uncle In 1974, my mother sent a pile of letters and thoughts to Fujian, and asked the uncle to ask for thousands of instructions: "Visit Tingting more!" "I didn't think: my uncle's work unit has also changed, and the letter sent out is like a stone sinking into the sea!" Mother's heart: It hurts as if thousands of ants are nibbling at her, and her body is getting worse and worse.
In 1979, the uncle contacted his parents through various relationships and searched for many years. Although the uncle has been inquired and inquired in many ways, and there is a vast sea of people, he has never found the information of Uncle Shang again, and he has lost contact with you!
Mother thought of the day when she would never see you, to lose you forever, and she passed away in 1989 with eternal regret. As I was leaving, my mother took my hand and said, "Find my sister, find my sister."
In the absence of fruitless contact with Uncle Shang, his father was furious and fell ill with cancer, and soon disappeared with his mother. I once asked my father if he regretted having given you up, and he shook his head firmly. It is an infinite love for the army and an incomparable trust in comrades-in-arms! Only one night to see him: looking up in the direction of Fujian, sighing softly, a tear silently flowing down his cheek. Father's love is like a mountain!
look for
"The soldier is an inspirational stone, with loyalty on one side and dedication on the other." Father showed this vividly! Not only did he say nothing about his injuries that year, but he also wanted to get a few words from his mouth for your convalescence. It was only after I gloriously became a member of the Chinese People's Liberation Army on January 1, 1977, and received many years of party education, that I gradually understood my father and his comrades-in-arms.
Just after leaving my father's discipline, I thought I was free, and after work, I began to run around, looking for your whereabouts. When I found my father's former comrade-in-arms, who was now my chief, and inquired about your situation, they were as if they were a person, saying in unison: As long as your father and your uncle Shang are alive, we will never say. I secretly searched for your news, and soon reached my father's ears, and my father wrote a stern rebuke to me: Let me work well and stop disturbing my uncles. I was sad and disappointed!
Li Hua
In February 1979, I heeded the call of the troops, actively participated in the self-defense counterattack against Vietnam, and successfully completed the arduous task entrusted to me by the troops.
Our operators are wearing headphones on their heads, holding ropes in their hands, and the three-foot machine platform is pulling thousands of troops and horses, quickly and accurately transmitting communication support tasks. In order to ensure the smooth flow of communication, we insisted on a strategic duty of four days and three nights, and each person could only rest for twenty minutes every night, and we were tired and still persevered! Stay until three in the middle of the night, sleepy, two eyes straight to fight, just think of the comrades fighting on the front line, they are fighting against the ungrateful Vietnamese devils, if the communication is not smooth, it may bring them great harm, and may even sacrifice their young lives! What do we gain from suffering this, and what do we gain compared to their bloody sacrifice? When the sleepy god harassed me again, I twisted my thigh hard and let the pain drive it away. In an instant, wake up, open your eyes and return to the intense, busy work.
We are the clairvoyant of science, downwind ears. We exchanged wordless words for the innocent friendship between our comrades-in-arms, and wrote a chapter of victory with silent listening! With practical actions, he fulfilled the Zhengzheng oath of "Mulan, Red Messenger Soldier"!
The sun and the moon are like shuttles, and in the golden autumn of October, the harvest season, the jujubes in the hometown (Binzhou, Shandong) are hung with branches, and the red and lustrous in the distance is good-looking! With the united efforts of our comrades-in-arms, we successfully completed the task and triumphed triumphantly, after the baptism of war, although the body left the trauma of the war (serious sleep disorder, still not healed), but mentally, I have matured. Be more motivated and conscientious in your work, and use all your spare time to help parents who have lost their children do whatever it takes to find their biological flesh and blood!
Because, I deeply feel: the pain of a family losing a child! Of course, I want to be lucky to meet you while looking for them! One by one, I found three lost children and reunited their families happily. In the process of helping to find children, there is no shortage of people who are misunderstood, wronged, and even almost beaten... But as long as I can get back the child, I have no complaints, no regrets, and I will never give up!
Family
Dear sister: On the only group photo of our family, there is an empty seat, do you know why? That's what your mother repeatedly told your uncle at the photo studio to leave for you! Mom said: When I find you, let me paste your picture on the empty seat. Mom is looking forward to your early return home, so that our family is complete! Because there was no news of you for a long time, and I couldn't find you, from then on, my mother would never take a family portrait again.
Sister: Please forgive me for being incompetent, helpless, and helpless, for not being able to bring you home in time to enjoy your parents' affection for you. In the 1980s, I heard from my comrades-in-arms that you went to Shanxi to look for your family, and I went; later, I heard that you went to Henan, and I also went. How? Creation and deception always make us lose our arms and can't meet each other!
Time into the year 2000, China's communication technology developed rapidly, the people are getting richer, mobile phones into thousands of households, which brings great convenience to find you. So, in May 2001, I mobilized all the children, friends, comrades-in-arms of the whole country, and comrades-in-arms of my father's generation to look for you. After several searches and contacts, on May 27, 2001, he finally contacted Uncle Shang's family, but Uncle Shang was already terminally ill and died soon after.
From Uncle Shang's family, I learned that when you were nineteen years old, you had a conflict with your adoptive father Uncle Shang for unknown reasons, and after a cry, you ran away from home and never returned to your adoptive father's house... Knowing this news, my heart is broken, sister, where have you gone? What grievances have you suffered or what misunderstandings have you had with Uncle Shang? Contact my sister and talk to me! I also have fifty-one years of voices to tell you...
The eldest sister is like a mother, I feel a heavy responsibility, do not dare to have any slack, continue to run in search of my sister - your road! I can't remember how many phone calls I made? Every phone call I received made me excited; I published countless search notices in the newspaper, but I didn't get your exact news, but I attracted many scammers who asked for merit and rewards; I contacted Fujian, Sanming, Minnan and other television stations to ask for their family search columns, and I was rejected because I was a foreigner and other reasons.
A TV station worker replied to the news: You are still living in Sanming City, Fujian Province, and you are living very well, please rest assured! But you don't want to connect with your adoptive father's family and your parents anymore. This: Is it true?
Then came your news: when you were about nineteen years old, you were adopted by another comrade-in-arms of your father in Beijing, and you no longer wanted to contact all your acquaintances. This: Is it true? Both legends are that you have changed your name, I don't know what your last name is now? When you were nineteen years old, you did not apply for an ID card, and now you use Shang Jianhua to look it up, and the result: there is no such person.
Dear sister: You seem to be a kite with a broken line, fluttering and floating... Where are you now? My sister thinks about you every moment, every second! If you still have a grudge against your parents for sending you from childhood, they are already old, please let your ice release your previous suspicions, let your sister compensate for your love for you instead of your parents, open your heart, and let the warm sun of Huacheng warm your long-frozen heart! If you live a very happy life and don't want me to disturb you, please send a message quietly, I can watch you from a distance and silently bless you! If your life is not satisfactory, let your sister help you, step on the difficulties, and get through them together. See you come to your bitter ends, smiling like a flower!
Dear sister: I am waiting for you in Guangzhou, a flower city with four seasons like spring, until forever !!!
Here, thank you Uncle Shang's family for their nurturing kindness to their sister! Thank you uncles, aunts, comrades-in-arms, and all your friends for all your help in finding your sister! Special thanks to Chen Yingying's sister who saved her mother's life, and did her best to find her sister, which is beyond words, and the friendship of soldiers has been passed down from generation to generation!
Here, I would also like to implore all friends to continue to relay this article, I hope that in the near future, my sister can feel my sincere call to her and can take the initiative to contact me! I also hope that friends who are familiar with my sister will inform me of my sister's news! Once again deeply appreciated! Because this incident has occurred for a long time, please criticize and correct if there are any improper points! (Li Hua:131—4899 6690)
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