In the last year of Deng Jiaxian's life, 5 surgeries were painful, and his identity was only announced a month before his death
On September 18, 1999, Beijing held a commendation meeting for the meritorious heroes of two bombs and one star, and the young talents who had participated in the research that year were already white-haired old people. At this time, China is no longer the China that was attacked by the enemy on its back, not the China that has an unstable foothold in the international arena, and she does not have to fear the tiger's eye of US imperialism, nor will she be clamoring because of the millions of soldiers in the former Soviet Union...
Figure | Deng Jia was first in Lop Nur
The media is surrounded by these heroes who have dedicated half their lives in anonymity to create the "weapon of the country". They talked about the hardships and glorious years of that year, and there was only joy in their tone. In a quiet corner, one saw an elderly lady, crouching on the back of a chair in the front row, crying silently.
She is Deng Jiaxian's wife, Xu Luxi.
Pictured| Xu Luxi in his later years
From July 31, 1985 to July 29, 1986, it was the last time that Deng Jiaxian and his wife Xu Luxi were together. They have been married for 33 years, and only 6 years have really been with them day and night, and Deng Jiaxian really belongs to Xu Luxi for only this year. And what this year brought to Xu Luxi was not happiness, but torture.
Deng Jiaxian worked at the nuclear test base year after year, and fainted at the work site many times. People see that his health is getting worse and worse, because of the special working environment, they have reminded Deng Jia to go to the hospital for examination more than once, but Deng Jiaxian has never been concerned about his own body, but a nucleic acid test costs tens of millions of yuan, absolutely can not make a mistake. Until many years later, he appeared in front of his wife Xu Luxi, who was studying medicine, and at first glance he saw that her husband's physical condition was already very bad.
Pictured| Deng Jiaxian and Xu Luxi were grouped together
Deng Jiaxian was willing to quit from the front line, not because he felt he could rest, but because he had bowel cancer. Because he has been engaged in nuclear research for a long time, he has a special physique, and once he does chemotherapy, white blood cells and platelets will drop to a very low level, and he is very prone to systemic bleeding.
It wasn't until this time that Xu Luxi knew that over the years, every time there had been an accident at the nuclear test base, he was the first to rush in to save the instrument, and to his subordinates, he always said: "You are still young, you can't go." "
28 years ago, when Deng Jia first left, he was still a young man with a flourishing style, but when he returned, he was a patient with sideburns. He had always been prepared to crush the yellow dust and wrap the body of Ma Ge, and every time he hit the detonator, he insisted on doing it himself. Cancer was what he expected, but he didn't expect it to come so quickly, he hadn't completed his mission yet.
Picture | Deng Jiaxian and Yang Zhenning took a group photo
No one understood Deng Jiaxian's heart and his physical condition better than Xu Luxi, she practiced medicine for half her life, but she could only watch her husband suffer from the pain alone, and the blood gushed out of her nose, mouth and ears, and she couldn't stop her tears. His body was already full of needle holes because of the painkillers, and he was fighting the pain every minute.
For a total of 363 days, Xu Luxi spent the most painful year of his life. Deng Jia first underwent 2 major surgeries and 3 minor surgeries, and in the few lives he had left, he was still constantly revising the proposal for china's future nuclear weapons progress, and when he was seriously ill, he always said: "Don't let people leave us too far..."
The declassification of Deng Jiaxian was not allowed until 1 month after his death. The hospital handed a report to the Central Military Commission behind Xu Luxi's back, and the Central Military Commission believed that Deng Jiaxian had been anonymous all his life and must decrypt him before he died.
So this great scientist, who had evaporated from the world for 28 years, overnight, the relevant deeds were published in the People's Daily and the People's Liberation Army Daily. Xu Luxi answered countless phone calls that day, and everyone came to ask her if Deng Jiaxian was still alive. Xu Luxi was desperate, she knew that Deng Jiaxian's time was running out.
Picture | Deng Jiaxian Xu Luxi's wedding photo
This year, it took Xu Luxi 28 years of expectations. She had cried hysterically because of Deng Jiaxian's departure, and then everything returned to calm. If that's the case, it's better to keep going unheard of, at least to know that he's alive and well.
Xu Luxi and Deng Jia first married in 1953, after which they had a man and a woman and two children. It was the middle of summer in 1958, and one evening Deng Jiaxian returned home much later than usual. Xu Luxi remembers that when he returned, his 4-year-old daughter Dian Dian was playing with his 2-year-old son Pingping, and Xu Luxi asked: "Why is it so late today?" Deng Jiaxian just nodded, and after a simple meal, he sat in silence for half a moment and then went to bed alone.
Figure | from left are Yang Zhenning, Deng Jiaxian and Yang Zhenping
Deng Jiaxian only explained to Xu Luxi that he would transfer away from work, what work he would do, where he would go, and how long he would go, he could not tell Xu Luxi. Xu Luxi begged to leave a mailbox number that could correspond with him, but Deng Jiaxian was unwilling to do anything. Deng Jiaxian had not fallen asleep all night, and Xu Luxi had not been sleepy. There was a tacit understanding between the two of them: Xu Luxi supported Deng Jiaxian's work and never asked about it again.
Pictured| Deng Jiaxian and his wife and children
At that time, Xu Luxi was only 30 years old, Deng Jiaxian was 34 years old, and the child was still very young. Xu Luxi was sad, frustrated, and confused... But seeing that her husband's attitude was so resolute, he knew that Deng Jiaxian had chosen something more important than his life, and for this matter he could stay away from his parents, wife and children, and only this incident could make him feel that life was worthwhile. Xu Luxi knew that if he didn't do this, he would regret it for the rest of his life, and she didn't stop it after all. Since then, Deng Jiaxian has evaporated like a human being, he cannot publish academic papers, cannot make public reports, cannot go abroad, where he is, what he is doing, Xu Luxi has no clue at all.
Pictured| Deng Jiaxian (right) and Qian Xuesen watching the ceremony from the top of Tiananmen Square
The husband suddenly disappeared, without any warning, without any news, Xu Luxi endured the speculation of many people around him, they said that Xu Luxi and Deng Jiaxian divorced, and even the children could not understand their father. When children and the elderly are sick, when relatives and friends are reunited every New Year's Festival, she is always alone, silently and firmly waiting.
In the TV series, it is all played like this, Xu Luxi heard that the atomic bomb explosion was successful, happy tears, jumping and jumping. In fact, at 3 p.m. on October 16, 1964, the moment the atomic bomb exploded successfully, Xu Luxi was doing experiments in the laboratory of Beijing Medical University, and she had no idea that Deng Jiaxian had participated in the development of China's atomic bomb.
When the news of the successful atomic bomb blasting reached Zhongnanhai, Premier Zhou and Nie Shuai were on the phone, and they told Chairman Mao the news for the first time, and the chairman proposed to suppress this good news and see how foreign countries reacted. Therefore, the news of the successful explosion of China's atomic bomb was actually reported by Japan first, and xu Luxi knew the news at ten o'clock in the evening. She heard the official announcement on the radio, and the people in the street cheered outside, and everyone jumped and jumped happily. Xu Luxi vaguely felt that Deng Jia was involved in the development of the atomic bomb first, and she did not get too excited, but felt that her heart was sinking and seemed to have finally settled down.
The atomic bomb explosion was successful, and Deng Jiaxian still did not mention a word to his family, in fact, the family was already tacit. Xu Luxi's father, Xu Deheng, and Yan Keats, vice president of the Chinese Academy of Sciences, were good friends, and after the atomic bomb exploded, Yan Keats came to Xu's house as a guest, and Xu Deheng took out a newspaper and said to Yan Keats: "Who has the ability to get China's atomic bomb out?" Yan Keats laughed: "This is going to ask your son-in-law." Although the success of the atomic bomb at that time was not related to her husband's name, Xu Luxi's heart was full of pride and satisfaction.
Pictured| Deng Jiaxian and his wife and children
Someone asked Xu Luxi why he could endure 28 years with her husband.
The childhood of Xu Luxi and Deng Jiaxian is accompanied by the hazy memories of the War of Resistance Against Japan. They followed their families in a hurry, and disease, fear and hunger left countless refugees dying in foreign lands. They witnessed the atrocities of the invaders and the tragic deaths of countless innocent compatriots under the shells of Japanese bombers. Mountains and rivers were shattered, compatriots were displaced, and they became a scar in the hearts of the young people of that era that could never be healed.
It is precisely because I have never forgotten this period of national hatred and family hatred, and I have never forgotten the fact that a weak country must face beatings. Therefore, on the ninth day of Deng Jia's doctorate in the United States, he could not wait to return to China, where he was in ruins, and was with his beloved lover Xu Luxi as he wished.
Picture | Deng Jiaxian returned from studying abroad
After the founding of New China, she harvested the success of her career, the happiness of her family, the five years of comfortable marriage, and the happiest five years of Xu Luxi's life. Since the middle of that summer in 1958, Xu Luxi has lived in the thought of Deng Jiaxian, and to this day. But Xu Luxi never regretted it, she said: "I have not only seen foreigners, but also foreign devils; not only have I seen airplanes, but also seen enemy planes circling in the air to bomb their homes; not only have I been hungry, but I have also been forced by enemy artillery fire to hide in air raid shelters and endure hunger and cold." Because of these experiences, she was able to understand Deng Jiaxian and understand that he had been separated from me for 28 years because he wanted to build an atomic bomb. "
From the time of marriage to today, Xu Luxi has never returned to Huaining. Deng Jiaxian was too busy at work, and Xu Luxi did not dare to go back. After Deng Jiaxian's death, every time relatives from his hometown of Huaining came to visit his home, Xu Luxi would warmly welcome them, hoping that they could stay for a few more days and inquire about the development of their hometown in Huaining. But no matter how graciously the people in his hometown invited him, Xu Luxi did not want to go back: "I really want to go back to Deng Jiaxian's hometown to have a look, but I don't dare... I was afraid to see the landscapes and rivers of Jiaxian's hometown, and it reminded me of him... Maybe I'm a fragile person and not strong enough..."
Photo| On July 17, 1986, Li Peng, then vice premier of the State Council, presented Deng Jiaxian with a national model worker certificate and medal
For Deng Jiaxian's reputation, Xu Luxi maintained it to the point of almost obsession. After Deng Jia left first, reporters often came to interview Xu Luxi, and they were all very surprised by the simple living conditions of the "Two Bombs Founder" family. They asked Xu Luxi for a photo of Deng Jiaxian's life, and proposed that the photo be combined in a luxurious living room or courtyard, pretending to be a family with superior conditions and happiness, but Xu Luxi sternly refused. She said: "I don't care what they do with others, but I definitely can't promise them to do this to the family first!" Mr. Jia has never pursued material enjoyment before, and the fact of my life is that if I do that, it will be an insult to my family. "
Everything that Deng Jiaxian did at the nuclear test base, even if he returned home, still did not say a word to Xu Luxi. After his death, Xu Luxi spent the rest of her life looking for traces of her husband's 28 years, and she wanted to know what her husband had done all these years. What kind of business is the atomic energy business?
Years later, he saw a photo of Deng Jiaxian at the home of Zhao Jingpu, deputy director of the Second Machine Department, the only photo he had voluntarily asked to take at the research base. This photo was taken not to commemorate a certain research result, but because Deng Jiaxian felt that this might become the last memorial of his death.
Figure | Deng Jiaxian's funeral
It was an airdrop pre-test, and the hydrogen bomb fell from the plane, but the parachute did not open successfully and fell directly to the ground. The hydrogen bomb did not explode, but it shattered, and the nuclear bomb had to be recovered no matter what. There is no accurate positioning point, and more than a hundred anti-chemical warfare soldiers have been found in carpet searches. Deng Jiaxian was so anxious that he personally went to look for it, perhaps this hydrogen bomb only recognized him as the owner, and finally it was really found by Deng Jiaxian. Deng Jiaxian ignored the radiation and held up the shrapnel with both hands, which was also affected by the radiation.
Deng Jiaxian realized that this had already had an impact on his body, and he, who never took pictures at work, took the initiative to ask Zhao Jingpu, who had gone with him, to take a photo together. The photograph was properly preserved, but because he was afraid that his wife was worried, Deng Jiaxian did not take it home, but was kept by Zhao Jingpu. When Xu Luxi saw this photo, his heart was full of sorrow, and Zhao Jingpu returned the photo to her.
From that day on, Xu Luxi studied atomic energy like an addiction. She remembered seeing Yang Zhenning when Deng Jiaxian was dying, when he was in great pain, but he showed a smile that "his long-cherished wish has been fulfilled". Yang Zhenning was very shocked, his former childhood friends, because the cause of the motherland was dying, they hugged and took a group photo, after a meeting, Xu Luxi continued to wipe the blood from his body for Deng Jiaxian...
Figure | Deng Jia insisted on returning to the experimental base to work after being exposed to nuclear radiation
Xu Luxi contacted Yang Zhenning, who sent her two most basic atomic energy English literature, and she began to re-learn like a student. Her neighbors were all experts in this area, and she asked where she didn't understand, and as she learned more and more, she could understand more and more what Deng Jiaxian had done.
She still guards the empty home for 28 years, the children are old, and they who did not know their father before could not be relieved until they were middle-aged. Xu Luxi was no longer as hard as before. She had kept everything that Mr. Deng Jia had used before, and in her world, Deng Jiaxian had never left her. Everything is like before 1958, Deng Jiaxian would play with the children every day when he came back from work, and if he took the extra fee, he would happily take the children to buy toys...
Pictured| Zhao Zhongyao, Qian Xuesen, Deng Jiaxian and other hundred students studying in the United States returned to China after completing their studies and took a group photo on the deck
Xu Luxi said: "Their generation did what their generation should do and completed the mission that that generation should complete. Each subsequent generation should do what each generation should do and complete the mission it should accomplish. "