I'm not a writer
In 1965. I came to earth for the first time. That year, Mr. Zhou Qifeng of Peking University walked barefoot from Liuyang, Hunan Province, to Changsha barefoot, and then borrowed money to take a train to Peking University to study, he was 18 years old. The following year, the Cultural Revolution began. It was also that year that my father suffered from rheumatic heart disease. Zhang Chengzhi was 17 years old.
The Cultural Revolution was an unprecedented and well-known event. I've been through it, but I'm too young, only a year old, to have no memory. I did not talk to Mr. Zhou Qifeng about this topic, he was already a college student at this time. A rural baby, short in size, poor and kind in her family, needless to say, cannot become a backbone member.
But Zhang Chengzhi must bear the brunt of it, he has grown into a young man, the blood around him needs to be released, and it just so happens that the times and fate provide the stage and opportunity. But he would not become the leader of the Red Guards like Nie Yuanzi, Ku Dafu, and Han Aijing.
Wuzhu Muqin Grassland, I must remember the name of this grassland, Zhang Chengzhi must also remember. This is where Zhang Chengzhi joined the team for four years from 1968 to 1972. The grassland is green, and in the context of the era when the mountains and rivers of the motherland are red, It gives Zhang Chengzhi an endless green grassland, which is undoubtedly a buffer and mediation, and even confrontation and contradiction. And in this contradictory hedging and interpretation, the sharp part is bound to be transformed into high-end and high-level art. Like the principle of lightning, including fireworks, the so-called art must be a great conflict, a great contradiction, a great opposition, a great rift. The so-called astonishment must be wrapped in unforeseen suddenness.
His works always have the roughness and extremes of the female, such as a pair of coarse cloth girls who are beautiful from nature, and emit earth-shattering cries. This was the background of his life, no way, all his life and luck came from his mother. If it weren't for the nourishment of the Mother River, it would be impossible to even imagine the direction of Zhang Chengzhi's life. Will he become a thug, a murderer?
The popular song, "Father's Prairie Mother's River", was written by the Taiwanese female writer Xi Murong. Needless to say, Murong Xi's paternal love was complete. Zhang Chengzhi lacks fatherly love. The year he wrote "The River of the North," he was 35 years old, a man who, at the age of 35, shouted out for the first time, Yellow River, my father. How poignant.
I have always firmly believed that the so-called writer's words must face life truthfully, and his works must be his own shadow, even if it is fictional, it must also be his own yearning and goal. I have read many world famous works and Chinese masterpieces, but the only work that has touched me and has not been forgotten for 30 years is "The River of the North". Although I have also read "Black Horse" written by him, although it predates "The River of the North", although I also won the prize, I still stubbornly believe that the sequence of stories, "The River of the North" comes first. Mutilation is also a beauty, but some mutilations still do not happen. For example, Mu Xin, whose imperfections constitute his integrity. But it's heart-wrenchingly complete.
"History of the Mind" I did not seriously read, this is Zhang Chengzhi's journey to find his roots. My roots are not Muhammad, nor am I a believer in Allah. But I knew that Zhang Chengzhi would not write novels anymore. After that, he only occasionally wrote some prose.
I do not agree with the comments of those so-called professionals, "The River of the North" is Zhang Chengzhi's sincere life declaration after mastering the routine of writing novels. This is me, as Gunrin Shinyasu sings in the song: I can't become you. Zhang Chengzhi is narcissistic, confident, and kind. He could understand Van Gogh, the soul who was more than a hundred years away from us, and the Brahmin master was not without a gun, but he shot himself in the face.
What kind of wisdom should a person who sees life and life and death openly and sees through? Therefore, in the face of ignorant ridicule and ridicule, even the return of respect seems superfluous.
"Maybe in the future, at a time I don't know and somewhere I don't know, there will be a lad who will come forward and set off in silence. Although he struggled to walk alone, he found in my books the revelation and strength that he alone needed. He will do a better job than I am, and in his time he will be a part of the succession of our kind. At that time, such a sentence will light up: others create some works, I create a writer. ”
"Only those who stand together completely with the truth can have such strong self-confidence. ”
In guiding me on the path of literature, that is, anthropology, my mentor turned out to be a disciple of Jeho Ninya. It made me afraid to go near him for years. Until I saw him put 750 copies of the History of the Mind, yes, just printed so much, I did not need to educate and disseminate, but also had income of 100,000 US dollars, all donated to 476 Arab refugee families. I'm daring to unfold him. I do a lot of things, a bit like Ye Gonghaolong, such as the poet named Yu Xiuhua, I said that I like poetry, and she is undoubtedly the best person to write poetry in this era, and I have publicly praised her. But I was particularly afraid to intersect with her, and I was particularly afraid that she would write me poetry. In this regard, I am more narcissistic than Zhang Chengzhi. This is not the same as the woman who made me pay attention to the mother of eight children, after all, people are selfish, and narcissism is one of them.
As human beings, whether there should be a belief in the dignity of ethnic regions is a difficult topic to answer. Among my friends, Bai Shiyuan is Hui, and Yu Yuexian is also Hui. Two points decided a straight line, I lived in the Hui tribe, the Shang Zhou ruins are surrounded by Hui people. Eating habits, I am more taboo than the Muslims, they just do not eat pork, and I even refuse chickens, ducks and geese.
In life, I am much more luxurious than Zhang Chengzhi. For example, smoking ten yuan a pack of white sand, Zhang Chengzhi can use newspaper rolls to smoke one by one. But he drank big wine, spirits. The money also came back to Ba. Some of his books were restricted, and after Mo Yan, Yan Lianke, who had the highest Nobel voice, was also restricted. He went from being the most popular person in his hometown to being the most unpopular. Any great man is not welcome in his hometown. Because people can always remember the time when you were a child.
