If life can be chosen, many people are willing to live without worry, if they really can choose, there will be no one who is desperate for the world. In the vast sea of heaven and earth, there are always people with integrity who fight against the evil fate all their lives, but they just want to be stable, it is so difficult, who is it to say with their ambitions?
His life is reflected in each of us, and it is so fitting: seeking stability is not stable, seeking ambition is not ambition, suffering from survival for this red dust, running for this broken silver, and the bitterness in it is only he who speaks out.
First, the beginning of life
For a poet, poetry is in the same vein, and poetry, as one of the oldest cultural heritages in China, has a history of more than 3,000 years, reflecting the situation and people's feelings in each period.
During the Tang Dynasty period and the Tang Xuanzong period, which had a splendid culture, the culture flourished and was a thriving scene. That is, in the 8th century AD, a great poet on the mainland was born, that is, Du Fu, our "poetic saint". He was born in Shuxiangmendi, and his poetry and books were cultivated all day long, as if the future was bright. The beginning of a life is always beautiful, always full of expectations, but at the same time full of variables, for the world, it is fortunate that since then there is an excellent poet named Du Fu, taking us to witness the power of mainland culture.
Du Fu can compose poetry at the age of seven, and he is even talented to learn, perhaps at this time, du Fu will always look out of the window, but also fantasize about how he will look when he grows up, and at this time it is also clear and clear. Du Fu was very infected when he watched Gongsun Da Niang dance sword weapon as a child, this is not a simple performance, which made his heart silently plant a seed of love for life and the pursuit of ideals, "the viewer is depressed like a mountain, the heavens and the earth are low for a long time", which can be seen and felt deeply shaken.
Before the age of twenty, he packed his bags and went out to travel, reading all over the mountains and rivers, and the immersive travel made Du Fu feel the charm of Chinese culture, absorb more knowledge, the more he experienced, the more precipitated, the more sublimated his spirit, and he composed a brilliant and elegant culture with one poem after another, a tragic and turbulent world.
In Qufu, a young man carrying luggage silently looked at the statue of the great thinker Confucius, two great figures were opposed to each other for more than a thousand years, if they could communicate, it must be the most noble and pure thought fusion in the world, Du Fu was deeply influenced by Confucius's ideological education, and even throughout his life, integrity and benevolence, even the ideas of all works showed a perfect process with the most appropriate tone, just as "Confucius set the first holy road to become his own holy virtue", and hoped to make some contributions to this world. Contribute to your country.
Bidding farewell to Confucius, he came to Luoyang, a city that is still prosperous and ancient, this time, he hoped to highlight Confucius's thoughts, his ambitions, hoped to do something in this sunny city, exhaust what he had learned in his life, he threw himself into the tense and strict examination like today's college entrance examination students, but his first life was heavy, he landed, what was it like, at that time he was alone, far away in a foreign land, will he secretly wipe his tears?
The imperial examination system was an important way for young people at that time to realize their ideals in life, all dreams came to an abrupt end with the landing, the initial dream of entering the shi, the landing was a broken expectation, he waved his hand, or I traveled again, there is always a place between heaven and earth where I "Qiu Ma is light and crazy"!
Second, the grief of displacement
Thirty years in the human world, he survived while studying, thirty years later he met the "poetry immortal" Li Bai, two gods and immortals about poetry met. Li Bai for Du Fu, is not only a model of talent or the most important confidant, the two have a deep affection, Du Fu also often remembers Li Bai, he did not think that in the future, Li Bai and Li Bai are the same name Li Du, and Li Bai's words are heroic, big or a thousand words, it is even more touching, at this time, when pity also wrote the poem of "Dream Li Bai", but when the wine glass is touched, it is the sound of broken dreams, since then, no matter how much you miss, it is difficult to meet, and add a sadness!
Deeply influenced by Confucianism, after a long period of baptism, he once again took the imperial examination with the hope of becoming an official in the DPRK, but it landed again, which was really an unimaginable blow, but at this time Du Fu was no longer a teenager at that time, he had made up his mind, directly entrusted people to present his works to the emperor, and finally his talent was appreciated, and he was able to enter the career and become an official, but the real bloody rain finally came step by step.
He wanted to cherish this opportunity to develop, but the limitations of the official position made his dreams nowhere to play, he seemed to be like an outsider, looking at the people inside the door all day long, flattering and flattering, he did not want to be with the villain, but he could not intervene in everything in front of him, how to go on? This wise man is also confused, but bowing his head for the magnate is something he will never do, the court is full of magnates, who can support?
At this time when this ideal is hesitating, good things have not happened, not only has there been no turnaround, but misfortune has ensued, at this time the Tang Dynasty is in crisis, but it has encountered floods, as the head of the family, at this time, it is impossible to take care of life ambitions. At this moment, he is a husband, a father, a courtier, but not himself. He endured the wind and rain to endure hunger, sent his family to the countryside of Fengxian County to settle down, famine did not let go of the people at this time, he looked at the heavens and the earth did not know whether he was still himself, the ideal was also a little broken at this moment, life began to slowly awaken, but who can take care of this, he still has the heavy responsibility of the family to bear.
In the winter, he braved the cold wind, next to the worries and thoughts of his family, packed his bags, sadly left Chang'an, and returned to Fengxian County to meet his family. Frustrated in the official field, born in a chaotic world, can not seek wealth, the family's safety and health is also excellent, but the heavens have not spared their relatives, the entrance to hear the family is crying, hurriedly entering the door, their young son has been starved to death because there is no food, ashamed of the young son's daily father's shouting himself, ashamed of the title of the head of the family, failing to protect his relatives is really sad, he can endure sorrow, but the family is also tortured, help the tears, hopeless!
Third, gradually smooth out the edges and corners
The days were not calm, the outbreak of the Anshi Rebellion sent sorrow to the peak, the whole country was not happy, the situation was turbulent, Du Fu took his family to the north to seek a piece of tranquility, walking on the muddy road, really he could not help but sigh in his life, at this time, he was so sad, even just an ordinary person who sought stability, where can he think of food and clothing when he was young? In this period, Du Fu's poetry paid more attention to the relationship between people, experienced the people's grief, and the mood of poetry following became heavier.
However, he never expected that at this time, he was captured by the rebels and escorted to Chang'an, and his wish to stay with his family could not be done, he was isolated, he looked at the moon outside the small window, and could not help but think of his wife "when to lean on the false pretense, double photo tear stains dry". At this moment, he has nothing to do with the great poets admired by posterity, but it is also at this moment that he has achieved him step by step in history. Under the help of pain and loneliness, his sadness has nowhere to rest, only in poetry, he wrote "Spring Hope", describing the gold of the family letter and the cruelty of war, at this time Du Fu's works can be described as three points into the wood, full of emotions, the words between the lines out of natural emotions, completely without the force of the poem to give melancholy words, subtle to the extreme.
After experiencing hardships, the war was still raging, he and his family came to Chengdu, Sichuan, came to the grass hall given to him by his old friend, and finally lived a few days of peace, war and persecution have become a common thing, Tubo invasion, shuzhong chaos, Du Fu had to seek peace again, but since then, he has never been able to return to the old capital Chang'an, he came to Kuizhou, as if entering another world, the scenery here is magnificent, but also understand Li Bai's spectacle, at this moment he only wants his family to be safe and secure, and it is getting farther and farther away from the imperial court How can I achieve my ideals, maybe not.
After living here for two years, he was finally able to raise a glass to his friends, and at this moment he was already fifty years old, and when he was once again managing the sword dance of Gongsun Daniang's disciples here, he realized that time was really like a fast time, was his life like this? There seems to be no hope for the ideal ambition.
Later, Du Fu came to Tanzhou, which is now Changsha, where he recuperated, made friends, and enjoyed his family, but for a long time, the crisis came again, and his friend Tanzhou was killed, and there was no peace here, so he had to wander again, on the way to escape, plus heavy rain drifting, finally, the body of the elderly poet could not eat!
In 770 AD, Du Fu was tormented by illness, a generation of outstanding talents, just like this in a small boat on the Xiang River, perhaps the moment he closed his eyes, he recalled the encounters of his childhood to the present, how ambitious dreams, shattered under the destruction of reality, and finally got eternal rest, thus ending a painful life. I don't know if what he can't put down when he is dying is poetry, or whether he is a relative or worried about the country? Time back to today's 2022, the gap of thousands of years, this prosperous world, as you wish.
4. Summary
If life is a practice, then Du Fu's practice should also be regarded as the completion of merit, and the five tastes in it are mixed and sad, just like each of us who struggle in a foreign land swallows grievances, only to find a trace of comfort in the Internet and books, and the real soul still does not know where to wander.
Du Fu wrote not poetry, but also the history of a period, but also the encounter of an ordinary person's life, when he wandered, was there also many difficult nights? Are you also desperate to survive just to keep your family safe? Everyone who is hurt by life can find a shadow in Du Fu, because he is far away in a foreign land, who does not know the hardships of life?
He wandered around, longing for a peaceful place in this world, like this vast land, there is no place for you and me to be the land of peace, everyone is Du Fu, but everyone cannot fully become Du Fu.