To be honest, I didn't look at him the first time I met. Two nights ago I couldn't sleep in bed, we talked about the first time we met, I didn't expect the two of us to feel so the same, the first time we met he didn't look at me, I asked how you felt about me at that time?
He said there was nothing to feel, anyway fat, short, black.
In fact, to tell the truth, when I met him, it was the fattest stage of my life, when I had 120 pounds in the summer, 1 meter 58 tall, my own skin was not white, and the summer was sunburned, similar to black charcoal.
In fact, I am a very inferior person, but with him, I don't know how to do it, very confident.
And he, 1 meter 78 tall, at that time only 128 pounds, I still remember, he wore a pair of dark blue pants, two legs slender like a pole, thin face cheekbones are exposed, pushing a yellow bicycle, the basket put a book, that is the secret code of our date, but also the first time we met.
Although before we met, we had a phone call almost every day, and a conversation was more than an hour, we were all attracted to each other's voices, I said that his voice was thick and magnetic, and he praised me for the gentle and sweet voice.
But the first time I saw him like that, I still turned my head in disappointment, rode a bicycle next to him and slipped away, I thought he should not have noticed me, I didn't expect that in that instant, my ugly appearance was still written down by him.
Back at the dorm, I can't remember exactly what he said on the phone.
Anyway, later, the first time I officially met him, when I chatted, I felt that he was different from others, a bit like Lu Xun's Kong Jiji, talking a bit of a sense of knowing, I don't know if he was nervous, or deliberately showing off his profundity.
But to be honest, later on, he did look very handsome, big and deep eyes, long eyelashes, Chinese character face, thick purple lips, but it was too thin at the time. People around me said he was handsome and even thought I didn't deserve it.
Speaking of my acquaintance with him, there is really a bit of romantic history, we know a dating radio station in Changzhou one night sailing ship, I still remember the host's name is Hongyu, when he wrote a letter to the "night sailing ship", I overheard his personal information, it turned out to be a fellow countryman, I wrote down his mailing address.
Listening to him, there were more than twenty girls who wrote letters to him at that time, and he saw that my writing was very beautiful and he was a fellow countryman, so he wrote me a reply.
In this way, although we are in Changzhou City, we still have a letter every two or three days, and we talk about literature and poetry in the letter, and we also talk about each other's experience of working and life feelings.
From him, I learned that there were Yu Hua's "Alive" and Lu Yao's "Ordinary World", and I also told him the story of Sanmao and Jose.
Later, the feelings warmed up, we contacted by phone again, but, more than 22 years ago, there was no mobile phone, to contact, I only used the public telephone to call his pager, and then waited for him to call back at the phone booth, sometimes waiting for half an hour, and did not dare to leave, afraid to go far, can not receive the phone.
It was late autumn, standing outside blowing cold wind, also shivering, when I heard the public telephone, the clanging call, my heart was hot again, as soon as I picked up the phone and talked, I forgot the cold, and forgot the time.
Maybe I met him at the right time, in fact, after getting married, I found that the personalities of the two of us were not suitable, I was grinning, impatient, often breaking things, and he always did not allow others to make mistakes, and his personality was conservative and cautious, and his movements were slow.
Therefore, after marriage, our contradictions are constant, mainly for business matters, and there are two people who have different ways of doing things. Often it's either a fight or a fight.
But neither of us has ever made a mistake of principle, never suspected each other's feelings, and never doubted each other's character.
I feel that each other are very good, that is, they are not suitable for their personality together, he has a calm personality, no bad habits, and he is more concerned about the family, and I, his evaluation is reasonable, kind, generous to people, but getting along together is very awkward, there is no sense of tacit understanding.
I remember two times, when there were no children at that time, we had written the divorce agreement and almost went to court.
But then I had a child, and I didn't have such a thought, although the feelings were plain, but it has been until now.
I think if we didn't have financial troubles between us, if we didn't have the pressure of life, maybe we would be a loving couple.
Maybe we weren't united at the beginning, and on this day, we may all be missing each other.
But marriage is like this, plain and real, in fact, I should also be satisfied, just like the day before yesterday just came from my hometown, I cooked rice, and then he stir-fried vegetables, after dinner, I said I wash the dishes, he said don't want you to wash, I came to wash, I came to wash, at that time I really had to be very moved.
In fact, he is also a good man, no matter how much money he makes in business outside, he will give me how much money he makes, and he personally has no consumption.
But I also never restricted him to use money, he didn't like to carry money on his body, he wanted to go out, and I asked for 500, I would always give him 1000, and we didn't hide a penny.
Maybe marriage is like this, there will be run-in, there will be hate gritted teeth, when rubbing fists and palms, there are also touching and warm moments.
Although I never received a Valentine's Day gift from him, and he didn't buy me any gifts usually, as he said, the money is all on you, and you can buy anything you want.
Think about what I got, I am also very happy, and pray for my husband's Valentine's Day gift?
I hope to live a plain and real life with him for the rest of my life!
