Mention the emotional entanglement of Xu Zhimo, a talented man of the Republic of China, I believe that everyone is familiar with it.
Lin Huiyin, Lu Xiaoman, Zhang Youyi... Xu Zhimo, who is wandering between three women, is amorous and romantic, their stories make us relish, and the emotional entanglement between them is also quite legendary.
But what few people know is that there is also a female writer who is devoted to Xu Zhimo, and she is a female writer who has won the Nobel Prize in Literature, which is the American writer: Pearl Buck.
Pearl Buck was born into a family of missionaries, and as early as 4 months old, her parents brought her to China and gave her a nice Chinese name: Pearl Buck.
Pearl Buck, as the name suggests, has fair skin and pearl-like glowing eyes, and it is with such a pair of pure eyes that she observes the customs and customs of China.
Pearl Buck has lived in the small town of Jiangjiang in Jiangnan for 17 years, and she has received traditional Chinese culture education, and since she was a child, she has had a special private school teacher teach her Chinese and the Four Books and Five Classics.
Not to mention the little friends who play together from childhood to adulthood, all of whom are Chinese, and the wet nurses and cooks at home often tell Chinese folk stories to her.
Pearl Buck lived in Chinese culture at a young age, which naturally affected her future path of literary creation.
In her later years, Pearl Buck recalled Zhenjiang and said affectionately, "I am as familiar with every inch of land here as I am familiar with the wrinkles on my face." ”
Pearl Buck, who loves Chinese culture and Chinese people, had a fateful encounter with Xu Zhimo in 1924.
At that time, the world-famous poet, philosopher and Nobel Laureate in Literature Tagore came from India by shipowner to visit and lecture in China.
Xu Zhimo was proficient in English and French, knew Tagore's works well, and was an ideal translator and guide, so he accompanied Tagore to Nanjing Southeast University.
World-class literary giants gave speeches on the stage, and the spirited Xu Zhimo made a subtle simultaneous translation next to him.
There was a white woman under the stage, who was staring fondly at Xu Zhimo on the stage, and this woman was Pearl Buck.
Pearl Buck read through Xu Zhimo's poetry collection very early and was deeply captivated by Xu Zhimo's talent.
Pearl Buck, who also engaged in literary creation herself, had a strong desire to see Xu Zhimo with her own eyes.
This is both a kind of sympathy between literati and a woman, yearning for a talented man without resistance.
After seeing Xu Zhimo himself, his melancholy temperament and reiki eyes made Pearl Buck unable to extricate himself, and Xu Zhimo's translation level also deeply impressed Pearl Buck.
At the dinner party that day, Pearl Buck took the initiative to go to Xu Zhimo and talk to him.
Xu Zhimo stared at the woman in front of him, her pearly eyes flashing with eagerness, but he didn't know what it meant.
At that time, Xu Zhimo was at the peak of his creation, had published two poetry collections, and translated a large number of works by world-famous poets, young, spirited, and charming.
Pearl Buck, on the other hand, had been married to an agronomist professor a few years earlier, who had spent a great deal of time on agronomy research and neglected his wife for a long time.
Later, the two gave birth to a disabled daughter, and the already shaky marriage was even more depressing and torturous.
If pearl buck at this time is a flower that is about to wither and wither, Xu Zhimo is undoubtedly the nectar of her soul.
His romance, his talent, and his fierce enthusiasm all ignited Pearl Buck's heart, and this fateful encounter undoubtedly made Pearl Buck's heart throbb.
When two people in marriage no longer have soul intersection and spiritual communication, marriage becomes a chicken rib, tasteless food, and it is a pity to abandon it.
And women's desire for love can not be cut off, once there is a favorite object, it is like a moth to the fire, knowing that it can not be done, and can not help but yearn.
They exchanged letters and discussed various translation issues, and Xu Zhimo only thought that he had made a confidant, and he could not imagine that this married American woman had moved her heart to herself.
When Tagore left China in 1924, Xu Zhimo accompanied him to Japan.
Pearl Buck, who had been entangled countless times, finally couldn't bear it and implicitly confessed to Xu Zhimo in the letter, in which she wrote: "My heart is hidden behind the language, but the stimulation that frequently throws from your eyes makes me painful and uneasy." ”
Perhaps the heavens are destined not to let this feeling have any echo, the letter has not yet been sent, Xu Zhimo returned from Japan, and at the same time announced in a high-profile manner that he was in love with a woman named Lu Xiaoman.
Pearl Buck's heart was disillusioned, and the unsaid letter was sealed by her, and she hid her heart and integrated a passion for love and despair about life into the creation of the novel.
In 1925, Pearl Buck wrote a short story: "The Words of a Chinese Woman", which is about the love story of a young man and woman of a foreign race.
The deep hopelessness and despair in the story are the true portrayal of her and Xu Zhimo, perhaps she regarded this book as a love letter to Xu Zhimo, or perhaps she regarded herself as the woman in the book who could not be loved.
Since then, from 1925 to 1928, Pearl Buck has created a number of novels with Chinese themes, and some people will find that there is a shadow of Xu Zhimo in each novel.
This is the most undesirable pain in the world: I can't be with you, but my heart is full of you.
In 1925, Pearl Buck was encouraged by American publishers to begin translating novels with Chinese themes, and her first determination was to translate "Water Margin", one of the four masterpieces, which was also her favorite novel.
By discussing academic and translation issues, Pearl Buck was finally able to contact Xu Zhimo frequently, and in each letter, she consulted with Xu Zhimo on the details of the translation, and finally Pearl Buck translated "Water Margin" into "Brothers in all corners of the world".
Xu Zhimo also appreciated this, the two of them came and went, frequent correspondence, and academically enjoyed exchanges, only Pearl Buck knew, and she buried this feeling in her heart forever.
Once, the two talked about the love story in the Water Margin, and Pearl Buck said with great emotion that there was no entangled story of heroes and beauties in the Water Margin.
At this time, Xu Zhimo had just lost his love scene and was addicted to opium, especially falling into a deep despair of love.
Perhaps touching on the sad thing, he did not agree with Pearl Buck's comments, but said that there is no love in "Water Margin", which shows that those heroes and good men know that the world's love words are the most annoying, which is the way to see through the world.
At this time, Pearl Buck and Xu Zhimo have become frustrated people in love, and while feeling sorry for Xu Zhimo's love, Pearl Buck suddenly realized that maybe this will not be her chance?
After tossing and turning, Pearl Buck finally sent the confession letter that she hadn't sent four years ago, revealing her true thoughts.
At the end of the letter she said: "I don't want to get your love, I only hope that you can find strength in it, crazy as you, calm as me, in fact, everyone is the same, in the painful marriage, more looking forward to the arrival of true love." 」 ”
Pearl Buck was worried after revealing her heart and waited for Xu Zhimo's response.
But I don't know whether Xu Zhimo did not dare to believe it, or was too unexpected, and he was unable to respond until 7 months later, Xu Zhimo finally replied.
The content of this letter made Pearl Buck fall into a loss, Xu Zhimo said: "I fell in the thorns of life, only the water of the Kang River can heal my wounds." ”
In this way, Xu Zhimo politely rejected Pearl Buck in a very poetic way, and soon after sending the letter to Pearl Buck, Xu Zhimo went to Cambridge University, and the two gradually drifted apart and never intersected again.
Pearl Buck, who has been experiencing the pain of unattainable love all her life, has devoted her enthusiasm to creation.
Later, she published the romantic realist work "Wang Long", which was later renamed "The Earth".
The book is about the Chinese peasants in the eyes of Pearl Buck, and the descriptions in the book are both delicate and touching, and Pearl Buck won the Nobel Prize in Literature in 1938, winning the laurels of the literary prize.
People who have read this book say that this book exudes a strong sense of despair, but at the same time it has endless vitality, and the seemingly contradictory content of the two is harmoniously integrated, perhaps this is the heart of Pearl Buck.
Her love is desperate and lost, but she has never given up her passion for love in her heart.
Eventually, Pearl Buck married the publisher who published the book for her and became a prolific writer, publishing works set in China.
And Xu Zhimo became an eternal cinnabar mole in Pearl Buck's heart.
Perhaps people will experience several unforgettable feelings in their lives, just like pearl Buck's emotional journey, the first lover met in ignorance and married.
In the right time, I met the wrong person, and in the section with Xu Zhimo, I met the right person, but at the wrong time, although with full enthusiasm, but with regret, I did not have a problem.
Eventually, she finally met the right person at the right time.
When Pearl Buck finally let go of the unrealistic pursuit of romance and held hands with the most suitable partner, this person is both a partner in life and a partner in his career.
This love can not only fulfill her dreams, display her talents, let her see a broader world, but also return to her usual life.