Are you the one who had a crush during adolescence? (Episode 3)

Although I now see from the household registration and ID card, I am a resident population of Beilun District, Ningbo City, Zhejiang Province, and I have also established a family here, had children, and is counted as a Ningbo Beilun person.

But my roots are in Hubei, my ancestral home is Hubei, and the place where I wrote this story took place was the school where I went to junior high school, in the current Shiyan City, Hubei Province. To be precise, it was called The Yunyang Area of Hubei Province at that time.

At that time, Shiyan City and Yunyang District were not merged, and they were two administrative areas. Each is called by its own name, each in charge of its own affairs, although geographically, for historical reasons, you have me, I have you, and they are inclusive of each other.

Our Shiyan area is in the northwest of Hubei Province, there is called Northwest Hubei, there is a mountainous area, the people in the mountains are more simple and generous, usually speaking in a voice is not small, the work is relatively crisp, not too crooked, treat people sincerely. Children who grow up in this social atmosphere feel a special pure feeling.

The person who is determined to like him in his heart will like him one by one. I'm the little girl who likes people to the point of getting to the point.

At the age of fourteen or fifteen, it is the time when the love sinus first opens. Every night before the lights go out in the school dormitory, the boys' dormitories talk about the girls in the class, while the girls' dormitories are just the opposite, and they are talking about the boys.

And as if everyone doesn't feel tired, it's late and excited, I think it may be because of the "opposite sex attraction to each other".

Of course, my crush on him in the class, belongs to the "male god" level, naturally the girls talk the most in the dormitory, look at the way they all like, feel that he has become a "million fans", my heart is so sour.

Because it didn't seem fair, a lot of girls seemed to like him, and I was just an ordinary member of the period. And maybe he doesn't feel my "love", maybe he doesn't have that kind of liking for me in his heart.

This feeling is really heart-wrenching, I like him will not bring me any sense of security in my heart, all my likes seem to be wishful thinking, self-made amorous existence.

I will be jealous when I see other girls in the class smiling at him; I will feel uneasy and sad when he talks and laughs with other girls; I will even curse them in my heart, thinking that their behavior is too excessive, that they are openly "provoking" my tolerance bottom line, and that it is naked "show of love".

Looking back at the past now, I feel that I was sick at that time, and I made a serious "flower dementia disease". I felt so stupid and stupid that it hurt. But who understood me and felt sorry for me at that time? (To be continued, please see the next decomposition)