Recently, I have read the novels of Tai Yishu, from "Xibao" to "The Story of the Rose", from "The First Half of My Life to" to "Round Dance", etc., and found that her heroine has self-respect and self-love
Yi Shu
"Your father has wasted the first half of her life, and now you are going to waste the second half of her life?"
——Yishu "Ma"
In April 2013, a 44-year-old Hong Kong director came up with his documentary and shouted to Yishu:
"Hello, it's me, Cai Biancun, your son, haven't seen you for a long time, can we meet?"
A stone stirs up thousands of waves, in the writer we know yishuli, the most familiar label is "extermination master too", and about her private life, many people know that she is an elderly child, a family of three living a happy and harmonious fireworks life.
Cai Bian Village
The appearance of Cai Bian Village made people suddenly find that yishu's silent past actually had a son who had been abandoned for more than 30 years.
Yishu still did not recognize his relatives in the expectations of Cai Bian Village, when many people could not accept Yishu's cold-blooded mother image, public opinion was in an uproar, and Yishu finally had to respond with a paragraph from his novel on Weibo:
"Xiao Bao, believe me, I love you. I was so young when I was pregnant with you, but I want you to live, and even my biological mother told me to have a fetus, and I refused, I covered my stomach and cried, I wanted you to give birth, I was only eighteen years old. (Mom)
Mother and daughter
"I love you", so why is love so cruel that for more than 30 years, he has not even replied to a letter?
Perhaps from the two love histories she is familiar with, you can see a trace of the answer.
This director of Cai Bian Village was born to Yi Shu and her first husband.
At that time, Yi Shu was less than 20 years old, and it was the woman who was the first to open the love of the young and the love of the first time, so she bravely pursued love when she met Cai Haoquan, a poor scholar who had literary talent and could paint.
When you are young
As a witness to this love, Cai Yanpei said that Cai Haoquan at that time was very cold to Yishu, which successfully attracted the attention of Yishu, who became famous at a young age and was proud of his heart- "The more you ignore her, the more she will attract your attention", in their circles at that time, the talented woman Yishu pursued Cai Haoquan is something that everyone knows.
As the saying goes, women chase men through the veil, and then the cold Cai Haoquan, in the end, is still captured by Yi Shu's love. Although in addition to his talent, life is poor, but Yishu still desperately wants to marry him, even if his family prevents him, Yishu still only sets up a table to invite friends to be a witness, and turns his teenage self into Mrs. Cai.
At the age of 19, she gave birth to Cai Bian Village.
Cai Bian Village with Cai Hao Quan
It is said that poor couples mourn. When the enthusiasm of love faded and the hardships of life came and went, this marriage of talented and beautiful people still broke down in the dispute over money and money.
After separating from Cai Haoquan, Yishu did not take Cai Bian Village with her, but she still came to See Cai Bian Village often at first, but later Cai Haoquan had a new emotional life, and Yi Shu no longer had anything to do with Cai Haoquan, and even her son no longer visited.
People familiar with Yishu's novels know that the women in her writing are all capable and independent, and they are restrained from feelings. Never delay when breaking up, just let it go.
Perhaps for YiShu at that time, Cai Haoquan began a new emotional life, and she should be the same, and in her personality, the beginning means cutting off the past.
Not to mention that she also met her crush, Yue Hua.
Yue Hua
Yue Hua was originally Zheng Peipei's lover, Yishu and Zheng Peipei befriended, in the emotionally confusing showbiz circle, the three staged a sisterly love triangle, and finally Zheng Peipei was out, marrying the United States to end the dog blood plot.
Yi Shu once said in the novel: "In the short decades of life, the most important thing is to satisfy yourself, not to please others." ”
Therefore, Yishu is still very brave in love, even if she pry away the unreasonable behavior of sisters and men, she still goes forward to publicly publish "Why Yishu Loves Yuehua" and generously acknowledges love and swears sovereignty.
It's just that the love in life can never be frozen in the sweet picture of vigorous victory like the story.
The love between Yishu and Yue Hua has always been shadowed by Zheng Peipei. As a person in the show business circle, Zheng Peipei always has news reports on her and Yue Hua's past.
Zheng Peipei
Whenever this happened, Yi Shu collapsed to the point of cutting off all of Yue Hua's suits.
Advocating a breakup and turning around neatly, she must have been very painful for Yue Hua's inability to cut off the past.
What's more, Zheng Peipei, who was married to the United States, later wrote a letter to Yue Hua, and Yi Shu was angry and made the letter public, regardless of the sisterhood of the past, which embarrassed Zheng Peipei.
You see, Yi Shu's name of "Extermination Master Tai" is not only the high-cold determination of her characters, but also herself, dull and determined.
Yue Hua and Yi Shu broke up in a huff, compared to Yue Hua and Zheng Peipei, who have always been in contact after they separated, and After Yue Hua separated, yi Shu was like the separation from Cai Haoquan, and decided to turn around, no longer contact, and no longer have the slightest contact.
Yue Hua once talked about Yishu after the separation, saying that he did not know whether Yishu had ever loved him, but Yishu was a very temperamental and unique "girl".
This uniqueness may mean that she is calm and restrained, paranoid and determined.
Yishu's older brother Ni Kuang, when he was 78 years old, faced an interview about Yishu and said: "The last time I talked to her on the phone was when I was 50 years old. ”
Yi Shu and Ni Kuang
And Yi Shu's nephew Ni Zhen also said in the column: "A group of children, the grandmother hurts the aunt the most, and in addition to worrying, she is deeply proud of her daughter." Unfortunately, my aunt always hated herself like a grandmother, not like a grandfather. Later, Yi Shu suddenly became beautiful, and she had the meaning of cutting meat and returning her mother, drawing a clear line, and it could also be seen that she was determined not to be like her grandmother. ”
A person who has not been in contact with his loved ones for more than 20 years, a person who has the determination to "cut meat and return mother" after being beautiful in the face of a mother who loves himself, paranoia and determination, can really be seen.
As she wrote: "There is no way to forget, since you have forgotten everything, it is better to erase it with a stroke." ”
In fact, from Yi Shu's determination, it is possible to taste selfishness, and some people do think so.
But in fact, if you think about it carefully, it is not difficult to find that Yi Shu's determination and self are similar to the current "exquisite egoism".
Most women, in the face of emotional entanglements, it is difficult to let go of the norm, not to mention the involvement of their own flesh and bones.
Therefore, all their lives seem to be living for their children, kidnapped by flesh and blood affection, but Yi Shu is not such a woman, her determination, let her cut off all the bad posture of the past, let her have a now light but stable ordinary life.
Her previous two relationships were actively and enthusiastically won, but after she divorced her ex-husband, she chose not to see each other again in this life (including her son), and after breaking up with Yue Hua, she also had nothing to do with each other after parting, and did not make more entanglements.
In the novel, she said the posture of life: "To live beautifully, it takes a lot of patience, one does not complain, the other does not explain." ”
Also Shu Girl
So later she poured all her feelings and material desires into the characters in her pen, worked hard to create money, and then showed an unusual love for luxury goods, she did not hide her love for luxury brands in her novels, told women the benefits of money, to live realistically, and even regarded Zhang Xiaohui, who was known as a "loser girl", as an idol.
She first loves talent, then loves her name, then loves money, and finally loves the stability of this world that most women want.
In YiShu's view, feelings are luxury goods, and the most loved one should always be himself. She not only wrote this, but she also did it, so she was also a woman with a consistent heart.
When you love, the world is turned upside down, and when you don't love, you are absolutely crisp and clean. This may be what she said in her pen, "The most important thing about being a person is to look good".
Cai Biancun still didn't know enough about the mother who abandoned him, if he did, he would understand what she wrote: "Your father has wasted the first half of her life, and now you want to waste the second half of her life?" Then he would know that such a Yishu would not be able to confess to him.
Of course, maybe Cai Biancun understood, but he still did it, because the other party was a well-known writer Yi Shu.